THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

 

      < Situations and Revelations of Passing Notice in Guyana >

       Locket #10 

 
          Since we moved to this (mostly "white" family) neighborhood in Toronto
      my wife has discovered the "dinner party". She invites the neighbors over.
      People we know from back home come over, like on national holidays,
      for food from back home, buffet style, outside on the patio. The dinner
      evenings involve food from back home, too, but it's more focussed,
      you know.

      A life lived for dinner preparation and chitchat is really not for me.
      I decided to draw the line. "What do you mean?" she asked. I said, too,
      that as a couple we were definitely "incompatible".

      The last dinner party was the point breaker. "He went back home to
      Guyana. His father was in hospital. He had a stroke," she told our guests,
      the Merridews, from across the road, like us early in their fifties. He
      has a full combed brown beard and, after a recent vacation in China,
      holds court like Marco Polo back from a big trip.
 

      "Sharing" is a social tool my wife picked up after we moved here. The
       people at her job "share" from the moment they arrive and take off
       their coats. She gets home, takes off her coat, and sharing begins.
       Doesn't stop even in the bedroom. (Starts up quickly after sex, back
       from the valley! in lacy sleep wear; not a moment spared for catching
       breath.)
 

       She assumes my unwillingness to "co-share" is a signal to pour forward.
       On her own. "You think too much," she  told me once. The incompatibility
       gap opened up between us after our two girls were born. It widened as
       they grew older and became impatient with our parenting.

       "He was all set to come back here," she said to the Merridews. "Suddenly
        one evening he decides to go for a walk in the city. And there he saw an
        old man getting mugged. Right in the middle of Georgetown."

        Her head and shoulders follows the traffic of every word spoken at the
        table, leaning in with opinion from as far as the kitchen area. Usually
        I withdraw, into what my face suggests is careful processing, before
        I chip in.
          

        "Mugging", whatever the word means elsewhere, wasn't what happened
         that night in Georgetown.

         There's this walk path down the middle of the city's Main Street. It's a
         tree-lined path that seemed designed for strolling. I was cautioned by
         family and friends not to "stroll" after dark. The city I once knew was
         now a den for "deceivers and heartless bandits", my uncle said. He
         advised I walk like an overseas resident
  ̶  stepping with straight
         ahead purpose, from place A to place B
.

         I took the stroll anyway, toward a shopping area where stores were
         shutting down for the night; with pavements that seemed also designed
         for strolling, though now street vendors have taken over, cutting off
         the stroll space with precarious stuffed stalls.

         "Georgetown used to be nice," my wife had earlier set the scene. "Now
         with all the politics, it's more like a 3rd world country." (Authority on
         3rd world countries now, you notice.)

         The "mugging" victim, before he became a victim, was standing in front
         of a store window, gripping a bag, and studying the merchandise on
         display; electronic devices, phones, computers.

         I must have been half a block from him when I heard shouting. I looked
         back. He was on the ground, trying to shield off two men who cursed,
         leaned over him, punched him in the face; kicked him hard, stepped
         back, kicked him hard again, again. I shouted in alarm. One of them
         went through his pockets. They searched his bag, then they took off.

         I rushed back. The man seemed in considerable pain, breathing with
         difficulty. He tried to stand up. He seemed concerned about the state
         of his clothes. "Are you alright?" He said he was. He tried to stand up
         again, but he crumpled.

         "And while all this was going on, nobody even stopped to help," my wife
          went ahead. "Two days later he reads in the newspaper that the man
          had died. The same man. Died in the Georgetown Hospital. They
          kicked him so hard it must have caused internal bleeding or something."

          Again he tried to stand up, tried to walk. He gripped my hand. He
          wanted to know if I thought the computers in the show window were
          worth the investment. He'd buy one, but electricity in his village was
          unreliable. "Are you alright?" I shouted.

          He asked me to retrieve his bag. It contained spare parts for his tractor.
          He didn't seem to mind his money gone. He'd been waiting a long time
          for the tractor part to come in.

          Still gripping my hand he told me his wife had left him. All he had was
          a little piece of land, his house, and the tractor. He'd had an accident
          with the tractor; and  right after that his wife moved away. Back to
          her parents. Then one day off to Canada with his son.

          He hadn't heard from them in many years. Then he learnt his son was
          now Dr. Sunesh Deodatt. Working somewhere in Canada. He had no idea
          how all this happened. Her family wanted nothing to do with him. He
          was thinking maybe if he bought the computer he could use it to locate
          his son, the doctor.

          A vehicle pulled up near us. Men in uniform, with dangerously idle rifles.
          Wanting to know what was going on. The man sagged to the ground,
          but the grip on my arm was fierce.

          I told the officers he'd been kicked violently by two young men. He was
          in bad shape. He needed help.

          Out of nowhere another man approached. He swore he had seen "the
          whole  thing" happen. So someone in the shadows had watched the
          attack from a distance, and stepped forward only when it seemed
          a crowd was gathering!

          "So my goodly husband comes back to Toronto. And now all he does is
           spend hours on the computer. Up late in the night. Trying to locate
           this man's son. Mind you, the man dead and bury already."

 
                                                            ~~~

                
           In my mind one thought kept flashing: he must have been in great
           pain slumped on the pavement, going on about his tractor and his
           son. Why did he ignore the pain?

           "But why would you want to contact him?" Mrs. Merridew's forehead
           wrinkled. I found myself studying the table cloth pattern, the wine 
           bottle labels. "That's what I asked him?" my wife jumped in, alert to
           her goodly husband's apparent drop in temperature. "I mean, what
           would be the point?" "Unless he wanted to explain he was the last
           person to see the father alive."

           "And shake the hand of the son." "Now that would be something."  
           "You mean, with the same hand that gripped the dying father's hand?"
           "That would really be something?" "Was he planning to somehow say,
           Hello, I met your Dad in Georgetown?"  Faces swiveled my way.

           My wife has brought our two grown girls into this world, and my life
           to a moment of clarity at the dinner table. What has my education
           led me into?

           "And where would you begin the search? The son could be anywhere
           in Canada?" "That's exactly what I told him" "Well, the name is 
           unusual." 
                                             

           "Sunesh Deodatt!" Sun….
          
"Sun-nesh" SUN-neesh
          
"Dee-o-datt." DEE-o-datt.

           "If he is a surgeon, a name like that is bound to pop up on a hospital
           staff registry somewhere." "Or maybe he's on Facebook"  "It makes no
           sense. He could be anywhere?" It was all very sad. A little scary, too,
           the way it happened. Very sad.

           I sensed my wife preparing to announce with a winner's smile that
           the hour of dessert had arrived. At which point I got up and excused
           myself. Stepping outside for a smoke.

           That night as the electric toothbrush with the mint green handle 
           whirred away at her gums, I released the word. Incompatible. There
           was a pause. Spitting in the sink. The bathroom light off. "What do
           you mean, you think we're incompatible." "Just that. We're incom- 
           patible." "So wait, what you trying to say?"

           My abrupt manner had rattled her. From her side of the bed, a voice
           probed. "After all these years, now all of a sudden."  I didn't twitch a
           muscle. "You've been acting real strange since you come back from
           Georgetown?" And at that first arming for argument, my eyes closed.

          My abrupt manner had rattled her. From her side of the bed, a voice
          probed. "After all these years, now all of a sudden…" I didn't twitch a
          muscle. "You've been acting real strange since you come back from
          Georgetown?" And at that first arming for argument, my eyes closed.

          I was hoping it would be my last word for the night, like a pillow her
          head could toss and turn on. "Look," I said, "I'm very tired right now."
          She had much more to say, of course, but this was where I closed off.
          Incompatible. A tree-lined detour, under construction.  So that
          tomorrow and in the winter months ahead we'll see which way things
          go.

          M. Muniram,
          Georgetown, Guyana
          Toronto, Canada

 

 

BARCODE YOUR HONOUR

                    

           When they're not like you, the wind for felt reason
           shouldn't riffle your hair let down; you can bury your
           head in an old Course book and parse their tongues. 
 

           In one Section they're viewed as children of the Earth, or
           
the Rainbow  ̶  something like that; frightful en masse.
           N
est high you have the right to remain uncommon.

           Elsewhere they conform to Articles of the Penal
          
Code over which you poured, shuddering off wolf
          
notices cross unfenced library tables. You can't go
           utterly that way wrong : skin tight! just power
                                                    down the hood, call
           up cruise beaks sky larking; sun block face bare
           behind
 ̶  the devil stark, guest room dark . but be

           advised : not all for sessions rise. If not one some
           thing gets you in the end; slips past touch points
           plunge fear lips guard as basins steam . consume. 
                
           Time! gather your lines, graceful as silk sheet
           
 covers of honour pulled up over nipples quick as
            
   it's done; lay ways you've spurned.
                       
                      And walk ~ Copy 10 . DM :
              no pigeon hackle brushes out in the street. Long
          
halo serving dogs! list scratch . bear down in heat.

                                                          – W.W.

 

                              

            

                                   

                              

                        PROVENÇAL


                    With a nun of a moon flirts a firefly
                    drawn like iron into the waves
                    of the magnet-veils the virgin sheds
                    as she withdraws naked up the sky's stairs
                    with slow but unassailable hauteur.


                    (from "Thief With Leaf" by Brian Chan) 

                   

                        

THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

 

         < Situations and Revelations of Passing Notice in Guyana >


        Locket #9
 

       Whenever I visit my uncle the first thing I always notice is the Grundig
       radiogram sitting in his living room. If you don't know what that is, it's
       a radio receiver, with  a section for playing old-time records, with a
       turntable and a handle and needle. A boxy cabinet on four legs which my
       uncle dusts with a rag to keep the surface shiny.

       I try to keep his mind diverted, otherwise he would start telling me
       again about his father who preserved it over the years.

       His father was a radio man, from back in the 1950s. The Grundig
       radiogram had a special place in their family house furniture. His
       father could never imagine the day things like cell phones would be
       invented. He wanted this radiogram passed down from generation to
       generation.

       Since my mother showed no interest, Uncle was trying to get me to
       take it. 
One afternoon he showed me how it worked. The radio part
       had a knob you turn to find  a station. It spins through static and babble,
       picking up then losing signals.

       "German technology. Best in the world. No other radio does produce bass
       like this," he said, the first time he switched it on. "You hear that? You
       hear that deep, rich bass." I really couldn't tell the difference even
       when he turned up the volume.

       I told him I would think about taking it. In the meantime he should keep
       it at his place until I got older, and he was getting ready to pass on. I
       meant it as a sincere promise. "I intend to stay alive till I dead," he
       shouted at me.

       His father might have been a Grundig radio man, but in fact Uncle was
       a Sony radio man. He has a Sony transistor, a portable, looking real
       grubby from years of handling. It was his main source of listening
       pleasure. His father must have been really disappointed when he
       switched to Sony.

       He liked the sound of the treble. "You hear how clear the voice sound?
       Clear as bird tweet. You don't get that sound from the things you young
       people carry about. With the earpiece screeching in your ears."

       He would sit out on his verandah, his spectacles a little twisted, the
       flimsy antenna pulled right up, listening to people talk  ̶  cricket people,
       BBC news, people arguing about life in this country. His days arranged
       to rise and rest in order. That is how he is.

       Since his wife died, he thinks the bank is the best place for his money. 
       Refuses to spend it on "foolishness". Wears the  same  clothes washed
       and pressed; and always happy when I showed up at his  gate
(he calls
       me 'beautiful dreamer'). He gifts me a book on my birthday and at
       Christmas.

       "Tell your mother to come round and visit next time. She always sending
       you instead,"  he'd say. I told him he could always jump on his bicycle
       and come visit her.

                                               ^  ^

 

          My mother started showing interest the day Uncle announced he was
       going to New York. Spending two weeks there with some old school
       friend. "You know what?" she said,  "You could bring things for me when
       you coming back. Travel up with the suitcase half-empty, and bring back
       things. I'm making a list."

       I started thinking: maybe he could bring something back for me, like
       the latest Samsung phone. I promised to read the last book he gave me.

       I showed him my old phone and explained how it worked. He didn't even
       own a phone. As far as he was concerned people on the road with
       phones didn't know how precious life was. "Walking and talking like
       phone conversation is some new energy food." (I laughed, that was
       really funny.)

       Still, I suggested he take my phone with him. He could call his friend
       from the NY airport. Speak to him from inside the plane.

       He said he liked the text messaging part. "It's like writing short letters,"
       I  explained. "And you could stay in touch with us on your way to the
       airport. In case of emergency? Like if you miss the flight and need
       to contact Georgetown."

       We tested sending messages to my mother's phone. That really
       impressed him. All of a sudden he was a modern man, about to step out
       in the world with the latest technology. Some old people might sneer at
       modern stuff, but gift them something like the phone, see how fast
       they get addicted.

                                                                          ^          ^

 

          Uncle's addiction was clear on the morning of his flight. My mother's
       phone start receiving messages as early as five o'clock. She couldn't
       understand what was happening. I explained our arrangement. "This
       is no emergency message he sending." She told me to delete everything
       when he was finished.

       The messages streamed in one after the other. I could hardly recognize
       Uncle as
 the sender. I took the phone and went to my room.

       Message #1:  Arrived safely [he meant at our airport]. Four hours  before
       the flight. Sun not even up yet. Giving myself time to get through, then
       sit back and rest. Standing and waiting now in a short line. Nobody at
       Check In counter.

       Message #2:  Mass confusion in the lobby area. Two buses arrive with
       passengers from a flight cancelled last night. Bags like crapaud all over
       the place. More than one line heading now to the Check-In counter.

       Message #3: Ah moving up, ah moving up. I nearly drop the phone.

       Message #4: No progress to report. Man with a jacket on his arm asking
       to take my confirmed seat. This flight-cancel thing always happening.
       He was a last night cancelled passenger, went back home to the Corentyne,
       got no sleep, came back to airport. Says he MUST board this morning flight,
       otherwise he will lose his job in New York. I told him, Sorry, buddy.
       Yesterday was yesterday, Today is today.

       Message #5: Time 6.30 a.m. Confusion and coarse language. That squirmy
       fellow with the jacket on his arm now making a bumsee of himself. Lady
       juggling a nice little baby that wouldn't stop crying. She say is somebody
       else baby she holding, and that is why he crying. He want his real
       mother. Everybody holding and crying now.

       Message #6:  Still waiting. I freezing into a statue from the legs coming
       up. Drop the phone again, look like the screen crack. This phone does
       feel uncomfortable in my pants pocket.

       Message #7:  Passenger in front of me told by surly officer to pay
       Departure Tax. The man start one shouting: "This is ridiculous. Just 
       five more years, I done with this place." I didn't say a word. I tell you,
       at any desk or counter in this country people does act real stupid. Two
       comrades pointing guns at each other's face. Stupercilious and stupid.

       Message #8:  Time 8.30.  Ah reach the waiting to board area. The one
       plane outside the glass look like it shut down since last night. Don't see
       any mechanics doing maintenance. They just announce a plane scheduled
       to arrive from Trinidad now delayed. Hell of a situation. Good thing I
       bring two boil eggs. 

       Message #9:  Sad to say, still not on my way. Some people definitely
       getting left back here today. I settling down with the good book. King
       James, Psalms 11.  If it wasn't for Psalms 11, I would still be in hospital.
       [I asked my mother if Uncle had an operation recently, or some serious
       health problem. She said she didn't know, and reminded me to delete
       all his messages.]

       At this point the messages stop. Either Uncle dropped the phone again,
       or maybe this time he lost it.

       Anyway, I had more important things on my mind. Like this boy who
       thinks my buttocks in tight pants is the beginning and end of his world.
       This "Janie gyal" still not ready to "go backdam" with him. Connection
       incomplete. Later for his world.

       Byrdee Klautky
       Georgetown, Guyana

 

DESIRE OUT UNDER

                          

            They could have sailed stayed far away for good 
            fruit season picking, her parents happier hearing
            of a match with post card swipe . perch name display.

            Instead he caved . recessed each day sand bush
            canals encroaching . road ways too narrow, heart wild
            no! turns . dust swallowing cart and camels in distress. 

            His suits hung out for ties, impress off shore pending : 
               What nibbled at his core?  School yard leaks that 
            dribbled down his village leg . the hurt, that city surge
               men jeered his tail wind stall.  
 

               Mate mandate would rear up red blue take until one
              
night long unfulfilled  ̶  sick dissembling, sick of sponging
          
off tuck! hold! faith healing  ̶  so unrelieved! the floor smooth
          
knees now parting for any old new normal miracle stream.

           Straighten my fork bend . so dreams form matter, she bares,
          
             right to rend bridling our feast.

                       Breach in, breath out  ̶  how our trails
          
    blaze!  ̶  the air trust up strip whoosh . curves off
         
the lamb's tale carving arcs, heaven 'n' earth, her east. 

                                                                        -W.W.            

                                                                                                                                

                             

                     

 

                                                                                                        

                    
               EULOGY FOR JODY PRINZ


              The Light
out of which she emerged lit her path
                of pain which was hers only, while bearing
              all of ours. Light was her whispering herald, 
                her faithful dog, her silver cloud never
              directly above her, though always within, 
                hazed and more than misted, always dying
              to burst, always reaching out across the dark
                  space between two people like an angel's
              wings not knowing quite how to fold in either
                  embrace or resignation  ̶  just as she,
              by choosing to keep on breathing, could never
                  fully surrender to the heavy pull 
             
of pain she bore so lightly, as an angel
                  might absorb a tugging kite's insistence
           
   ̶  as though, were it not for her anchoring grace,
                  the kite at any moment could pull her
              soul upward, away to other focuses
                  of starcloud  ̶  as indeed it at last did,
             
though not in any way we could have foreseen,
                 since all we may predict of the kite is
             
that at last it makes us all drift out of the cloud
                
of breathing in which we float and back
              into the Light that yet keeps serving us breath.    

            
             
(from "Within The Wind" © by Brian Chan)

     

           

THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

 

       < Situations and Revelations of Passing Notice in Guyana >


        Locket #8
 

       When I come home for August vacation it is to see my closest friends in
       Canal District. And to visit our English teacher, Miss Hempell.

       I stopped by Miss Hempell because she taught us everything a girl
       needed to know about managing her life. We liked listening to her talk
       about love, about things that could happen in our lives. We were her
       girls, the Hempell girls.

       After we graduated she discouraged contact. She urged us to "move
       away". She spoke to us about why she moved away in her days. There
       was this married man.  He left the country. She pursued him to England.
       She lived there for several years, then she returned to our school.
       Single, disengaged. Didn't tell us what really happened out there. She
       said she regretted not one day, not one night.

       She has the kind of body people used to describe as "buxom". It's old now,
       but not frail. It has stayed loyal to her, protecting what she knows. In her
       day she managed somehow to be "active", knowing that just one slip,
       leading to pregnancy, could have got her fired, in disgrace the rest of
       her life.

       She warned us: be wary of the transitions from "girl" to "young adult" to
       "adulthood". Nobody ever talked to us that way, about "transitions". She
       talked about these stages, and about ways to cross over the trench, slow-
       moving rivers; and chart a course into the world. 

       My parents had invested too much in my goodness for me to slip and fail
       in school. One day I felt so down, people at home and in school were
       finding fault with me; and Miss Hempell called me aside and said, "There
       is nothing, absolutely nothing, the matter with you, girl. Look around, 
       our habits and hardships, the loyal cows and royal catchers grazing."
       I will never forget that day. Those words.

       Miss Hempell's girls were known by others  ̶  I mean by girls not so
       ambitious, and uncouth, ignorant boys  ̶  as the slut, the virgin and the
       bitch. Most girls stopped using our last names. They labeled us like that
       out of pure envy. They spread stories Miss Hempell was a 'bad influence',
       and that we stayed back with her to smoke marijuana.
 

       We felt sorry for them. Sorry for those home bodies that would soon
       enter arrangements of bruising or beating; or random child-bearing;
       with no rest, skirts draped over knees, no place to go. We heard the
       stories of suicide attempts.

       The young men in the district spent most of their time with alcohol and 
       gold trimmings. Shoulders too weak for responsibility. The way they
       drove cars, the stupid grins, stupid stabs at conversation, we couldn't
       possibly take them seriously.

       I am not ashamed to say I'm still a virgin. I have chosen to be "inactive".
       The slut on the other hand (call her S.) was  active, though not as much
       as people think. She acts "friendly" with everyone, so people assume.

       In our final year she announced she had already done it. With a pilot
       and someone else. And without getting undressed. Sounds ridiculous,
       right?  And a little depraved. Though when she talked about it, it was
       like something she was growing proficient at. She's vowed not to let her
       life be kept like a pup in a pen.

       The bitch (call her B.) was the pretty girl among us. Five foot five,
        bright and dreamy. Always patting her short afro. She too was "inactive".  
 

        She was determined to move away. To a country where carpets and
        lawns mattered, and fine restaurants. Nothing wrong with wanting all
        that. Roads paved with opportunity weren't coming to the cane fields
        of Canal District. After graduating she became a flight attendant.
        Moving down the aisle, asking passengers to buckle up before takeoff,
        was her first big step away.

        I started business studies at a college abroad. Good Hindu girl, willing
        to please her parents. S. got a job in a lawyer's office, not at a place
        with glass panels and surly faces. You should see her, dressed up, at
        a desk playing the 'personal secretary' part, answering client questions
        on the phone.

        When I came home we met almost every day, updating "developments" 
        so to speak. I told them about how my mother had found another
        person of interest I might consider going with. I reminded her, I had to
        focus on my studies? all the money invested in my goodness?

        I was managing my transitions. We Hempell girls were managing our
        transitions. Far or near, the Hempell girls would stay connected.

                                              ~ ~

      On my second vacation trip home I got such a shock. B. had left the
       airline job. She'd become involved with a Govt. Minister of an island.
       She had moved away and was living with the Minister on the island.
       The man was twice her age.

        So what did that make B.  ̶  his girlfriend? his assistant? his soon to be
        wife? I could never have imagined this happening. Had B. stopped
        even for a moment to consider?
 
        S.
seemed not in the least disturbed. She had only recently heard about
        this development, after the deed was done. And she had lost contact
        with B. She didn't think there was much we could do at this stage. Also
        she didn't think it was a good idea to visit B.'s parents. They had always
        considered us a 'bad influence'. 

        By chance we saw B's sister emerging from a supermarket. We stopped
        her and enquired. She seemed reluctant at first, but her voice warmed
        up to the task of delivering wonderful news about her sister.

        She had visited her sister. They went shopping together. Her sister bought
        the earrings she was wearing. They were chauffeured and accompanied
        everywhere by "Security".  B. sometimes attended "functions" with the
        Minister. The Minister was often out of the country. Busy schedules. B.
        was alone in this big house. No, she wasn't "working".
 

        It know how it might sound. Young girl, enjoying moments of island
        indulgence. Something is wrong with the picture. Attending "functions"? 
        gatherings of old men at some high wall residence? local officials sipping
        and friendsing with diplomats? I just couldn't see it. 

        I mean, what conversation could B. possibly have with these men? How
        could she let herself be swept away like that? The man was twice her
        age!

        Her sister went on and on, so excited, you'd think she was delivering
        news of school exam passes. S. looked at her phone and said, Oh my
        goodness, I have to go!
It meant she had lost interest.

        "I am worried about her," I said, as we walked away.

         So have you taken the plunge yet? S. asked, completely out of nowhere.
         It was a running joke between us. Find the right plunger, finally take
         the plunge
. But for the first time, in her quick change of subject, I
         heard an edge in the sarcasm that made me wince. It was not the
         sarcasm the Hempell girls reserved for others.

         S. is the only one who hasn't moved away. I refuse to believe she
         doesn't know what really happened to B. I think she knows, but for
         some reason she wouldn't say.

         I am starting to think S. is now desperate to find her path out. I can
         hear those tiny search wheels deep inside her furiously turning. Slow
         first, then bursts of turning. Couldn't help noticing she has tattoos
         now, peaking out her lower  back window?

         I went home that day to household chores and complaints that irritated
         me; a recent home invasion, long waiting lines, this and that. I didn't
         go outside much.

         My mother asked, "What's wrong with you now? Why you spending so
         much time in bed?"  I wanted the vacation to end quickly. I wanted to
         get away, to leave behind our odorous city, the loyal cows and catchers
         grazing.

         I lay on my back, staring at the walls, thinking: things are speeding up
         around me; things are threatening to pick us off one by one. All the
         'good news' about B.  ̶  hangers on the floor! security escort! sipping
         white wine!
 ̶  means she has separated from us.

         Where would this move take her?  She could wake up one morning, and
         realize her situation didn't feel right; and start shaking the bars.

         Then I thought: maybe it's time I change course. I'm not sure I want to 
         continue business studies. Maybe B. knows what she's doing. And S.
         doesn't know what taking the real plunge means. Or maybe she does 
         and she thinks she can control everything "active" coming her way.

         I'm waiting for my moment of clarity.  Miss Hempell told us we should
         expect "moments of clarity". Maybe tomorrow, the next day, when I
         wake up, I will see and know, with absolutely certainty, what to do.

         V. Laidoo
         Canal District, Guyana

 

DUST . DAYS LAST NIGHT

                 
           Bond hold dug out . native well run dry
             release risk hands . vein red line designs.

               Boy and girl look in the mirror . wonder how
               soon if not today . it will happen. 

           His thought flow on the page is hacked 'n' bled
             by blade cleansing syllables as closed knees row.

           The whites of their eyes keep daring you to shoot
             or view the history of geese flight forming.

              A cube of ice slips off the sheet . tinkles in clear
              glass melt that waits the next world order.

           Packed boats swim off ocean hearse rehearsing
             left hope borders lift behind.

           Soon in camps sand pitched or paved it will be
             spring : you may go outside, children . play Mary,

              Hail again . seabirds over passing trawler snags
              wing dip as floaters beach ~ moon ports sigh. 
                
   

                                                                  – W.W.

 

            

  

           
                

                      WAITING ON THE WAITRESS        
           
                  

                      Empty hands need fire
                      to play with, to burn by,
                     
so as to smoke a new

                         map of the world in her tired
                         face now shadowing like a cloud
                     
   the questions of your open hand

                (from "The Gift Of Screws" by Brian Chan)

 

THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

  

       < Situations and Revelations of Passing Notice in Guyana >


        Locket #7

        My best day driving hire car was just last week. The airport run. Usually
        I wait
outside our Marriot to take passengers to the airport (I own a Range
        Rover; second-hand; it still look new). I don't normally hang around at
        Arrivals to catch a fare back to the city. Jostling for visitors and grabbing
        suitcase is not my style.

        This afternoon, after dropping off two departures, I get lucky. This
        American guy  ̶  he looked sixtyish, movements brisk and neat; name
        on the baggage tag hard to pronounce  ̶  seeing two white ladies getting
        out my car, and maybe thinking my ride was reliable, promptly hired me.
        Maybe he was waiting for a friend to pick him up; waiting, waiting, not
        seeing the friend.

        Anyway, we set off and lo, and behold, he was heading to the Marriot. I just
        come from there with departing passengers
, I told him. "Oh really," he
        said. "Tell you what: you'll be my driver for my stay here."

        Things worked out very well for me. But I have to tell you, this fellow 
        was one strange customer.

        Quiet all the way from the airport that first day, until we passing Diamond
        Village. "What is that smell?" he asked. Sugar. This area used to be a sugar
        estate
. Quiet again, studying the view. "Do you know where Agricola
        Village is?" We coming up to it soon, right off this main road. "Good, 
        I want to go there?" No problem, boss.

        Actually there was a problem. Agricola is known as an area not safe for
        outsiders. I pass it on the main road, but never took anybody in there.
        Fellows there hard face, pants always sagging. We have lots of nice 
        places to see
, captain, I said, trying to discourage him.

        Next morning, promptly at 9 o'clock I picked him up. His destination
        was still Agricola.

        "Do you know a place called The House of Flowers," he asked as we turned
        off the main road. I start getting worried. Looking for a place with a funny
        name and no street address was looking for trouble. Driving slowly through
        the village, s
topping people to ask about a place called the House of
        Flowers
 was asking for more trouble.
 

        We stopped, enquired, drove a little further in. By which time I swear
        the whole village know already 'bout an Indian hire car driver cruising
        round with a white man in the back seat.

        One last stop, a lady with a child. The American got out to talk to her.
        "Maybe it's a flower shop," he said, shouting back at me. "Is there a flower
         shop around here?" We were told the only "shop" on that street belonged
         to Mr. Massiah. We should go there, talk to him, he know everybody.

         I stayed outside, engine running; looking out at houses nearby, so much
         
overgrown grass both sides of the road; and wondering what I would do 
         if
some fellows  ̶  men in singlets, bony boys on bikes  ̶  approached the
         car, cuss words waiting to fly out their mouth if I only sneeze.

         When he came back, he had an address. "We're going to McDoom Village.
         Number 12 Mc Doom Village." Which was on the main road. I was so
         relieved to get going. "We're going to visit the oldest lady in Guyana.
         A Miss B. B for Bailey. Or Bally. She's 102 years old."

                                                     ** 

        Now follow this: the American was a New York doctor, a "gerontologist",
        studying old people, he said. He'd heard from another doctor about a
        patient in an NY nursing home, a Guyanese woman. Left there by her
        family. 100 years old. In good health under the circumstances, but
        kind of random in the head. She would wake up ranting she didn't want
        to be treated by no one except Mr. La Fleur from the House of Flowers
      
 in Guyana.

        This Mr. La Fleur, it turn out, used to live in Agricola village; used to
        work with a Dr Giglioli, an Italian man who lived here back in the days,
        helping people survive malaria.

        This Mr. La Fleur had established his own business; he was the "Chemist
        and Druggist" of the village. People came from far and wide for his
        herbs and medicine; especially people who couldn't afford to travel to
        Georgetown for medical attention
.

           He grew plants; he crushed and mixed leaves, flowers, shavings from plant
        roots. His powders and liquids cured all kinda problems from heart to
        liver. They say people in that area does live longer than people anywhere
        else.                                            

                                                           **

        All this I piece together from the old lady in Mc Doom Village. I went
        inside this time (I had to see who this oldest lady in Guyana was). I stood
        like his 'Assistant' and listened with humble interest as the American 
        explained his sudden presence, talking like he getting ready to perform
        major surgery right there in the house.

        She confirm that, yes, there was a House of Flowers (it was just the
        village name for where Mr. La Fleur lived). Mr. La Fleur's father came
        from Haiti. No, she didn't know the Guyanese lady in New York, but she
        knew Mr. La Fleur.

        He used to dispense his medicine in tiny packets and bottles, with no
        labels as such. He used names for them from plants and flowers. You
        had to mix it in the foods. Especially soup. Mix it in soup and drink it.
 

        Now here's the important part: Mr. La Fleur kept a book with all his
        prescriptions written down with pen knib and ink; kept it in his "office"
        and consulted it while the patient talked. This book was what the
        American was really looking for. The old lady had no idea who would
        have such a book, but she knew there was a book.

        And the prescriptions worked because when Mr. La Fleur died, people
        couldn't get their regular medicine, and their health problems got worse.
        They had to travel to Georgetown. The hospital doctors kept them there,
        running tests, prescribing this, prescribing that; but nothing worked.
        Some patients refused the hospital treatment, and went home to
        Agricola to die. Hell of a thing, I know.

                                                   **

        At some point I lost interest; I had enough. I left everybody with their
        memories and medications and waited outside in the car.

        The next day I took him to the Georgetown Hospital; then to one of the
        Government Ministries. It was raining that day. He came back to the car
        irritated, complaining not about his damp clothes; he was told to sit and
        wait. He said he was amazed anything got done in this country. I told
        him I could write a book about pain from waiting in this country.

        "You're a good man," he smiled at me,"the only functioning institution in
         I have seen so far." The only functioning institution. I thought I
         deserved a compliment like that. It sounded sincere, so I thanked him.
 

         The morning I took him back to the airport he sat erect and quiet again,
         looking out like now he studying our road busyness, the drivers and
         walkers and the laws. We slowed down passing through McDoom Village.
         You want to stop in and say goodbye to the old lady? I was only playing.
         "She knows about the book," he said, "She didn't tell me, but I know she 
         knows where it is." He didn't sound angry; just disappointed he was going
         home empty-handed.

         I don't know how he know she know anything. The old lady was nice,
         but to me she sounded a little far gone in the verandah chair, her granny
         jaws working up and down.

         She was looked after by a firm-breast lady who seemed related to the
         house; who disappeared inside (we heard a child cry; told not to make
         noise); then appeared again, offering us "something to drink"; the
         American declined.

         You come all this way from America just to ask me about Mr. La Fleur?
         Miss B. laughed. She spoke like an old school teacher, in sections you
         had to wait then put together. The American helped her words along
         in his cheery booming voice. "Looks like I made your day, right? Did I
         make you happy today?" Her bones shook with laughing. I swear she
         could have choked and died and gone to heaven from just one fit of
         laughing.

         In gratitude for the help he received the American distributed (US)
         20 dollar gifts. I was paid very well for my patience and service.

         Just like that you wake up one morning not knowing what will happen.
         A man come from America looking for an old lady and an old book, and
         you just lucky to be there. You so used to heat, the stink everywhere
         of wasted years, days like this come like escape to treasure island.

         So the man didn't find what he hoped to find in this forgotten corner of
         the world. But he swore he would come back to Agricola. "With a team
         of doctors".  I gave him a card with my cell number. And I will meet you
         at the airport. With a fleet of transport.
At which point we shook hands
         and laughed a real good laugh.

         M. Aj
odha
         Georgetown, Guyana

 

WAR . POETRY

               

           These drills ground gone : the moustache bugle call
           to trenches Aim soiled uniforms: all that squaddy
           getting ready. Attention! once close paid. 
                              Market road blasts scatter matter . tyre
           piles set firewalls grievance strong. We down work
           tools ditch domino games . rush off to the fray.

           Bridge mass could paintball a tank or back track; a lucky
           few get to clamber up, wave a Patton V for viral.  

           Lock limb snap, faith rip felled?  Palms will open scoop
           you bleeding hoist you drooling prayer east bound . martyr
           marked for the idling ambulance (fucking sirens coming
           up with shark lust behind you).

           No, you won't remain unclaimed in street rubble; count three 
           two days . one silent night.

           Mothers in scarves still wait to scold, wonder if your phone's
           gone cold. Your sister's probably with her boyfriend.

                                                 ^^

           What's that, Mr. Owen?  no pattern holding at the front?    
           I know what you mean : happens thick as a thumb click;
           
lacks a certain decorum est. Some recruits stand rifle
           tall.
                                 And that left right sequencing : first          
           writ styles buckle out of date; then logs of the beast
           cut
loose  lo, we have a situation.  
                                                     Yes, yes! totally! so hard
           these days to parse futility, spot bravery in all that fist
           high howling about.
                                         Stand by : unscathed I'll view again
           your shell wail posts . our drone precision.  

                                                    Spark to inferno : raise or
          flag above the fields row knees, pride wear dust all
          fear, the gyre's turn.
                                                                  – W.W.

                                                

                

                 

 

 

         

                    TWO KNIVES

                       The defensive dagger of babble
                         has its handle in the middle
                           of its blade pointing two ways,
                             the duller point forwards,
                              the sharper backwards
                                 into the self
                                  that can't see
                                     either
                                        point.
                                        Real
                                   speech is
                               a different
                             knife whose blade points
                          upward from the gut
                       into Heaven, and down
                     like a grounded lightning-pole
                  that is also a broadcast-tower
               feeding both the Earth's roots and her stars.

                  (from "Within The Wind" © by Brian Chan)

JOHANNA SCHOUTEN-ELSENHOUT (1910 – 1992)

          

     MI PRAKSERI                                   MY THOUGHT
 
     Mi prakseri sdon                             My thought is
     ini wan er' tra ten                          in quite a different time frame
     lek' a winti d' e way now                just like the wind that's now blowing 
     gi mi brok'ede                                is causing me problems

     m' e luku                                        I watch
     fa tranga winti                               how strong wind
     e sek' den bigi taki                         moves the large boughs
     trowe den youngu froktu                dropping the unripe fruits
     a tap mi owru dronpu                     on my old stoop    

     mi prakseri                                     My thought goes
     e sungu go                                      down
     n' a grebi f' bakaten                        the grave of afterthought
     di sa sor' en fesi                              that shall show its face


                                                    *

  

   BATO                                                                       BOAT OF LIFE

   Bato f' libi                                                                Boat of life
   sondro marki                                                            without code number
   a mindri grontapu maka                                            amid the world's vagaries
   luk' fa y' op' ede e brenki mindri den bromki              see how your bow is raised
   pe asege e sing' a moro hey sten                               shining among the flowers 
                                                               where crickets are singing the highest tune


   Bato f' libi                                                                  Boat of life
   nanga yu bradi seyri                                                   with your broad sails
   d' e kot' pangi mindri a son                                   displaying your plaids in the sun
   ondro wan busgasi f' sorgu                                    under an undergrowth of worries,
   d' e nak' dawra wik' sribi yorka               that beat the gongs to waken sleeping ghosts
   luk' fa kwasibita e wroko lek' prugasi               See how kwasibita works like purgative
   a mindri wan brudu swanpu                                   in a swamp of blood
   pe asema or' fayatiki e frey lek' edeman           where the vampire with torch in hand
                                                                               flies as the leader.

    Bato f' libi                                                                 Boat of life
    di kaka borsu lek' wan gansi                             sails with chest bulging like a gander
    e dukrun swen mindri brantimaka         that dives to swim under the spiny water plants
    a mindri wan se fu frenti nanga feyanti                      in a sea of amity and enmity
    pe mekunu e nyan sapa a ondrosey                    where trust ends up being the victim
    Wan dey e kon                                                          However,
    fu skin dongo nanga son a berpe sabana                     a day will come
    pe a ten sa tanapu skrifi                                            for the body to set with the sun
    a tap' wan por' udu mindri den yarfrey:                      in the savanna resting place
    "Dyaso a bato f' libi didon".                                where time will stand up and write
                                                                 on a piece of rotten wood among the termites:
                                                                                   "Here lies the boat of life."                  
  

 

                  Poems from 'Awese' copyright © by Johanna Schouten-Elsenhout Estate, Paramaribo, 1965
                        Copyright this English translation 'Awese: Light in This Everlasting Dark Moon' © by

                              D. France Olivieira, Paramaribo, Suriname, 2010
    

 

AH FEDERICO,

     
                                                          [for Victor Davson . Andrew Lyght]

    
         Late afternoons, at six and a half, cycling through the cane    
         fields I'd think of you gone younger days; how you helped turn
         our sea
wall into Ciné sets : our jetty not for goggled bikers;
         the row
boats that set out to confirm the rare loom of ocean
         liners.

         Aristocrats of yearning ~ our limbs no longer in lift wait
         after watching I Vitelloni ~
  we stirred like runaways
         in the troolie shade at middays.

         We found alone fat women ~ vendors of wharf lapping stern
         rites : 
powdered for evenings they let us dock if we glided
         in like
gentlemen lodgers . give takings sweat spread sheets :
               Oompah!  
             
         Flatland dried out of inspiration? Start seeing what others   
         don't, Giulietta smiled : the make beliefs in our forests where
           one strong man turns Amerindian and rivers rumble like motor
             cycle flocks gunning for the falls [trails to palace gates 
                          mist . peacock sightings]

         Roraima dipped the brush with art galleries : New York, new
         havens . eyes
widening as strokes reveal how our kites flew :
            back in short pants out in the Georgetown light, waving
              to Marcello who tried writing in a coffee shop here after
            he'd shrugged off the beach fish washed up sweet meets.  

               Sea air routes now risk grave ends . mass heads strike 
            out core hollowed. No question : who knows cares why
               what odyssey.

         One fine day ~ Ciao! to time past prime ~ Fine to stilt acts,
         the clown nose snake whip snapping at our brides : we'll join
         your tent circus band in new orbit : ring dance to flute
                day lighting stars.

                                                                   – W.W. 

 

               

 

 

  

               

           WITH POLO AND ANTONIONI 
            IN CHINA

           Things have never really worked, though we vagrants
                have always fished around and changed our clothes
           and donned masks most revealing of our nature
           and murdered others for wearing their own masks
              paid for or stolen in recognition
                  that things as we know them do not work. 

           So stories of the past have to change their tense
             and their conditions: Things work and
           they are working while we dream that the waters
           we have plunged into are melting our sarongs
              and all we can do is walk on the waves
                  back to some shore or into the Sun.

           Back on all shores, we are walking all around
             and past and through others so as to get  ̶  
           beg buy or steal  ̶  something we deserve and think
           we do not have

                                     to think about, only use
           to stamp our latest version of ourselves
               as final model of things so-so
 

             ̶  till the next bomb's proof that both we and things do
             work, as we continue to search for fish
          
and tell of our nightmares with a smile or sigh
          
turning them into things merely like our selves
         
     walking naked on the waves of our day-
         
         dreams, complaining of things not working,
          as they should be  ̶  the way they always have been.

               (from "Within The Wind" © by Brian Chan)