NY SLIDE LXII: THE JOURNEYMAN

 

   One morning Bilicki and Radix were joined by Mahmood Sharif; his teaching schedule had changed abruptly, assigning him a new ‘lunch period’.
   Mahmood was in his forties. A quiet scholarly-looking man, he had travelled from Iran – via London, the Virgin Islands and California, at each stop a classroom teacher – to John Wayne Cotter H.S. in the Bronx.
    He, too, was skeptical of the cafeteria food, but he ate it anyway. He brought a folded copy of the New York Times, and he divided his attention between conversation at the table and issues on the front page. Sometimes, disturbed by a headline or an article, he’d make disapproving sounds with his tongue.
    “Trouble back home?” Bilicki would ask.
    Mahmood would shake his head.
    “There’s always trouble back home,” he said once. “Whether your home is the Middle East or the Caribbean.” He looked at Radix for confirmation. “The news reported in the Times is always about trouble.”
    “That’s right,” Radix said. “For the Times, the world is full of trouble spots. You can sit here and read all about trouble spots. And you’re free to feel troubled, or not troubled at all.”
    Mahmood seemed easily disturbed by articles reporting the behavior of a world leader or a world agency. He’d tsk tsk and say, “I can’t believe what the State Department is doing now.” Or, “Listen to what Bush is saying.” Or, “This Margaret Thatcher is an evil woman.”
    He had a keen sense of the world as a violent playground. The players, the elected leaders, made moves or statements that set things in violent motion. His abiding concern was for ordinary working people all over the globe, “the rock breakers of the world”, who only wished to get on with their humble lives; who invariably got caught up in the machinations of world leaders.
    Once Radix heard him sigh, “O Fidel, Fidel!” He looked up and wondered aloud what had happened, had the Cuban leader died? No, he hadn’t, Mahmood assured him, smiling.
    He drove a Volkswagen to the school. He’d bought the car when he lived in California, and he’d driven it all the way to New York when he moved. His wife, he said, was urging him to trade it in, purchase a fancy new vehicle, a Japanese import. His wife, he sighed, did not understand how someone could remain as faithful to a car as a man to a horse.
    These revelations about the car and his wife, spoken with humor and an open-eyed plea for understanding, impressed Radix. The man’s gentle manner, his seeming lack of affectation, as well as the fire of concern inside him for the working people, “the rock breakers of the world”, struck him as genuine.
   
Mahmood, it turned out, had a doctorate degree. So, shouldn’t he be lecturing somewhere, inspiring college freshmen with his passion? What was he doing in New York, a high school teacher? worlds away from his true audience? wearing his jacket with the elbow patch, and perusing the Times?
    For thirty minutes each day, over lunch, their table was the place for intense exchange. Tightly knit, almost conspiratorial in manner, they seemed so unlike other teachers on lunch break, most of whom were just relieved to be out of a classroom for a spell, enjoying a cigarette, or some foil-wrapped bone of gossip.
    People stopped by, ostensibly to speak to Bilicki, but curious about his friends, about what could possibly bind them together each day. They rested a hand on Bilicki’s shoulder. When they sensed conversation had paused or frozen as a result of their apparent intrusion, they drifted away.
    Quickenbush would join them on occasion. He hovered and smiled, half-listening to the talk; sometimes he sat and acted as if he wasn’t really there. 
    One day he wondered aloud about the accuracy of reports published in the Times.
    What did he mean?  Mahmood asked.
    Well, take for instance, a recent article about Japan where he, Quickenbush, had lived for several years. What the writer was saying about the Japanese seemed to him “way off base”. The Times, he felt certain, preferred to publish sugar-coated, anecdotal stuff, easy to digest with your morning coffee. If anyone really wanted to learn about the forces shaping events in Japan and around the world, the best place to turn to was The Wall Street Journal.  
    And with that Quickenbush got up abruptly and left the table.
     (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

JAMAICA FAREWELL? NO NO NO

 

                          Our time on stage, how we balled and raved,
                     the Mystic Revs, high turquoise waves,
                     John & Zulaika, compañero Joe, Carroll
                     whose dance moves swelled with forgiveness.
                     Clinging to maroons of bass how we soared,
                     unpierced navels and constant springs, single
                     white Aussie knee grip on the drum – Go deh natty!

                     The smell of bus diesel to Cross Roads, trod down
                     town for new Marley 45, smoky darkness of Roger Mais
                     hills, the birth of dreadlock blues. The streets after
                     Rodney, how we surged, downpressed, batty bwoy,
                     blood & seed & I, news of the struggle in Mozam-
                     bique, black brown haute class forming
                     rites,
women 1st  Ministers cut priming – Sight?

                     Ikael whose Israelites wouldn't stand for reason, base
                     line bound MMorris slicing poems like tennis balls,
                     the rude bwoy who tossed his bike in the pool
                     when they wouldn't let him; other dash aways 
                     kin torn, stealing mango for dinner, peeled orange 
                     from the rolling calf tree. Cross many rivers gun
                     rain, and duppy curing canna leaf, conqueror for eye.

                     No no, gone-a-foreign mi no play, mi no smoke
                     pipe painter wanti-want you how you were,
                     grass grow long, drying now grey years. 
                     Seh sky blue mountain, return past due?
                     No no no, the skies hail up dew new;
                     see't come running? bolt like time flew? 
                     Life pounding, life still; iPower fall fi yu.

 
                                                                           – W.W.

 

                                

                    

 

                                
                           BIRD 

                           My wings flutter before they fold
                         as once more I settle
                         for this flatness
                         of earth I can always soar above but
                         never ignore.
             

                       (from "Thief With Leaf" by Brian Chan)
                      

 

NY SLIDE LXI: STRANGE HUNGERS

     It was still early in the semester, a chilly October morning, when Radix first met Bilicki. He was sitting alone in the cafeteria, not yet sufficiently secure to approach and join teachers at their tables. As yet he had made few friends. Class schedules, the paperwork, the still foreign procedures all kept him moving, and restricted him to an exchange of passing courtesies with teachers. The lunch period in the cafeteria was the only available time to cultivate friendships.
    Bilicki came up to his table with a brown bag from which he removed a sandwich and an apple, and he said, "Mind if I sit here?"  looking around as if he didn't relish sitting anywhere else. Radix looked down at his food tray and tried not to appear unsociable. 
   "Is that all you're having?" he said, pointing his fork at Bilicki's apple and sandwich.
   Bilicki nodded. "When I started here," he said, removing the plastic wrap from his sandwich, "I was tempted by the French Fries, you know how it hits you the minute you walk in? Like you're walking into a McDonalds."
   "I know what you mean," Radix said.
   "And you're so famished, you think, that's exactly what I need now, some of that good-smelling stuff. After awhile your stomach starts working like a cement mixer."
    Bilicki spoke as if measuring each word he released. He looked around in a vaguely contemptuous manner. Radix chewed and studied him: the pony tail, the hair brushed straight back exposing much forehead, tired-looking eyes, his thoughtful way of chewing. This man, he concluded, had endured several tours of duty in the building; he was no doubt and expert on cafeteria food, bowel action and any school issue he cared to talk about.
    "My problem is not with the food," Radix said. Then perhaps out of a need to unburden his new teacher estrangement he plunged into an explanation.
    He was still struggling, he said, with the start of day routines, the class schedules, the way things were arranged in the building. Coming from an island where everyone woke up round about the time the cocks crowed, and breakfast lunch and dinner were more like rituals in sync with the movement of the sun, he found it hard getting up at 5.00, having his first meal at 5.30, still dark outside, then again at 10.30 which was his assigned lunch break until the work day ended. He'd  had to make some adjustments, but this unusual eating pattern was playing havoc with his stomach.
    Bilicki kept chewing in a way that suggested his sandwich and apple needed as much sympathy and attention as Radix' story. Thinking perhaps he should not have opened up after so brief an an acquaintance, Radix fell silent.
    They met again the next and the day after, Bilicki with his paper bag, Radix persevering with the cafeteria menu. Their conversation warmed up, bit by bit Bilicki expanded. He talked about the school, the teachers, policies he detested, what he loved about teaching. As the weeks went by they anticipated meeting each other during lunch period. The table they sat at became their table, their spot.
      (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 

 

NY SLIDE LX: DOGS OF LOATHING

 

      On his way from the teachers' cafeteria one morning Bilicki glanced in at the adjoining students' cafeteria and saw Quickenbush. He was pushing a garbage container on wheels between the tables, and with bare hands picking up empty cartons he found on the floor. Laughing and joking with the students, he seemed not at all uncomfortable in his role – the Chapter Chairman reporting for cafeteria duty in his 'building assignment' period.
    What on earth was he up to now? Pandering to a student constituency? Parading some new egalitarian image for everyone to notice?
    Bilicki caught his eye. Quickenbush looked away, then paused to hold a grinning exchange with two Hispanic girls. They laughed as if Mr. Quickenbush outside the classroom was really something else, a cool funny down-to-earth guy.
    Instead of walking away, convinced the man was an arch deceiver, Bilicki entered the cafeteria, his intention, to let Quickenbush know there was at least one person in the building not taken in by his shameless calculated behavior.
    "Well, well…what have we here? You plan to run in the student council elections too?"
    Quickenbush gave him a cut-off smile; then he stooped to pick up a milk carton. And it seemed in the hiatus as if Bilicki's remark, assuming it was meant to impact, had missed its target by a mile.
    "Working hard, that I am," Quickenbush said. "I'm no stranger to menial labor, Mr. Bilicki."
    "What are you really doing here?'
    "What does it look like I'm doing here?"
     Quickenbush paused, asked a student to pass empty trays for deposit in his container, then continued: "My father always told me it doesn't matter how important or how small you think you are. There's no shame, no disgrace in reaching down and picking up something that has fallen."
    With that reference to his father, the blatant fabrication about what his father always told him, Bilicki felt in the privacy of his full heart he'd found a reason to reach for Quickenbush's throat, to squeeze that throat slowly with bare hands. He noticed with satisfaction the balding spot on top of his head, which was unusual for a man only thirty years old.
   "Shouldn't you be in the hallways somehere…? Patrolling, arresting or handcuffing perps?" Bilicki asked, shifting his weight from one foot to the other.
    Quickenbush laughed, as if finally he understood Bilicki's game. Then as if to make it seem he was in no mood to play, he had work to do, he moved away pushing the container, inviting Bilicki to trail after him if he wanted to keep up his line of talk.
    And Bilicki, not prepared to trail, feeling suddenly stopped and a little foolish, glanced at his watch and swung away out of the cafeteria.
    He'd given in to an asinine impulse; he'd committed a gaffe talking that way; now he felt worse than a gaffer. He felt like a beaten bitter veteran with nothing to offer these days but beaten bitter remarks.
    It stayed with him for the rest of the day, this embarassed feeling, the subtle push back he'd suffered at the hands of Quickenbush.
    Back in his department lounge he tried marking homework assignments; he couldn't concentrate; his heart was filled with misery and loathing. For relief he let his mind play with scenarios of punishment and pain.
    A knife was too messy, bare hands too banal for Quickenbush.
    He'd like to walk into the building next Monday with six pit bulls panting and pulling on leash. He'd spot Quickenbush in the cafeteria. He'd tell the students to leave, then he'd release the dogs.
    The dogs would corner Quickenbush, biting and tearing and chomping. A bleeding Quickenbush, intestines hanging out his stomach, would scream for mercy, confess he hadn't been completely honest in his dealings, beg him to call off the dogs. Bilicki would look at his watch and walk away. He was late for a class. The dogs were well trained. When they were done with Quickenbush they knew where to find him. 
               (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 

POEMS FOR HABIT RENT (& BATH HOME FREE)

 

              Otherwise a good tenant Hamid lets bulbs burn all day
            in every room through winter. Makes no sense, I told him:
            how do you sleep? how much do you send home?
                            "Do you know in my village? there are 24 hour
                             funeral pyres for body disposal."   
                                                   Excuse me! and the shoeless
            skinny old river gods fired  ̶  they failed to ferry dead
            souls 'cross the Ganges  ̶  strike back with sewage
            garlands and immersions, but what do I know?

                                      "But who're we here? tails working
            off? like slave device?" Hadassah: to the Pizzeria
            help who swears under the Mali wrap she wears
            from Spring 'til Fall her buttocks shudder.
                                                      She rents on the 17th floor
            cleansed view of sky and peaks and domes salt slates;
            she prizes her acrylic bathtub, she strips lowers tears
            away for hours through bird calls petals prayers.
            No hands dare reach touch sponge inside
            her thighs again, and how do I know?
                  care takers hear: swollen résumés relieving  
                  fear slime wiped, stomachs rewiring. 

                                                           See, back there  ̶  no word,
            some missing arms and legs  ̶  blood let left sigh assume
            you didn't transfuse. Only the coyotes' rapture whiffs where
            last your bones sought rest: so close the Arizona fence,
                  so near the Lampedusa shore where lungs
                  scoop bailing bailing out the chest; where worn    
                  from wait! a cobra head demands you spread
                  I take, or else! life savings lost right there. 

            Free reset means light bills paid, with fist
            on heart and limbs pledged wide you can
            design abodes for borders! die or dare, take
            leopard steps to side walk vamps of rupture. 
                                                                        Being the Super,
                  these things I know; they're cyclothymed to happen.
                  You hear knee angers sudding swirling drain to schools
                  of effluence forming in the earth. And mine like metal
                  earth rare your own business. 
                                                                       -W.W.

                                      

                  

 

 

                           MAROON ON NOVEMBER ROCK 

                        With no books by which to read me now, I write
                        one, on the blank air; with a finger trace
                        the wordless mountains of memory
                        as in and out of clouds they haze,

                                erasing and rewriting

                       their peaks; and with my breath reshape
                       my book of days whose light daily still  
                       returns yet nightly longer and longer
                       stays sunk beneath this indifferent swelling sea.
                   
                       (from "Scratches On Air" by Brian Chan) 

        

NY SLIDE LIX: THE QUICKENBUSH WAY

 

    Perhaps realizing his newcomer status would not immediately win him friends in all quarters, Phil Quickenbush set about racking up support. He introduced a newsletter for staffers. It appeared in teachers' boxes on Friday afternoon, printed on orange bond paper. Teachers getting ready to punch out and leave the Bronx for the weekend were accosted by rows of flaming leaflets in their boxes. They pulled them out, they walked away reading, sometimes pausing in mid-stride to absorb some piece of alarming news.
   Headlined "From The Desk Of The Chapter Leader", the newsletter began, Dear Fellow Staff Members, then after presenting innocuous union news it tore off in a direction that even the cantankerous Steve Kite could not have dreamed up:

       The list of reported incidents occurring in and around John Wayne Cotter
        H.S. is as follows:
            Monday, November 15:
            English Teacher receives puncture wound from unknown assailant
            while passing between homeroom and Period 3.
            Tuesday, November 16:
            Car belonging to Business Teacher is stolen.
            (13th attempt, 1st success)
            Wednesday, November 17:
            2 students wounded by knife-wielding students. Students who
            threatened Math teacher (see last week's newsletter) again
            stalks the teacher.
            Thursday, November 19:
            4 students given Desk summonses for setting fire to mailbox
            at the corner of the school.
            Friday, November 19:
            School Aide and Security guard wounded during melee in Student
            Cafe. Six students arrested as a result of the melee.
      A warning to Administrators: Issac Newton, in his Third Law of Motion, stated
      that whenever one body exerts a force, the second always exerts on the first
      a force which is equal in magnitude, opposite in direction, and has the same
      line of action. (University Physics, 5th Edition)

   For Bilicki this was really too much. "Typical right-wing, scaremongering tactics," he
whispered harshly whenever he came across someone diligently reading the newsletter. "Does anyone know what he plans to do about all this?"
    No one knew. Everyone seemed too alarmed to ask.
    Many confessed they were astonished to learn what was going on. Hitherto, teachers who worked, say, in the east wing of the building had no way of knowing that incidents "like this" happened in the west wing – or in the basement, or outside the building – so regulated were their movements, so fearfully constricted their habits.
    Bilicki was among the few stubbornly unimpressed. This was nothing but crass, vile politicking. A piece of fraudulence. The man describes a situation in colors of terror and despair, then he offers, not solutions, but himself as savior. A scam as plain as daylight.
    "But, Brendan, you can't argue with the facts, les petits faits vrais," Mrs. Rojas (Foreign Languages) said to him pleasantly. "These terrible things are happening. Maybe not in your neck of the woods. But that doesn't make it less frightening."
    Quickenbush was seen, next, consulting with the principal, stepping into the office of the principal. He offered proposals to the principal. At faculty meetings the principal made a point of thanking Mr. Quickenbush for providing useful information. She promised to work closely with Quickenbush and the Union to find solutions to the problems at John Wayne Cotter H.S. She praised the staff for their professionalism "in the line of fire".
    "These guys," Bilicki shook his head. "What a piece of Japanese theatre."
  (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 


NY SLIDE LVIII: ENTER THE DRAGON

 

   The next problem was to find a temporary replacement for Steve Kite. A candidate was quick to step forward – from the shadows, as it were – in the person of Phil Quickenbush. Little was known about him except what he was only too willing to reveal: he'd recently returned from Japan after a two-year teaching stint in a Japanese high school; he was working on a book based on his experiences there; he was currently assigned to the Business department, and in his opinion Steve Kite had been "railroaded". He was quite willing to take over Steve's responsibilities, and when the time came he would consider running for Steve's office.
    Most people were too distracted to question his credentials. One or two veterans viewed him with suspicion (what had he done to merit selection for that teaching post in Japan?) But since no one else was prepared to fill the breach, it seemed a harmless move to let him take over.
    Only Bilicki was alarmed. Phil Who? Just the look of the man – smooth-shaven, dressed for Wall Street, you would think, in white shirt and tie; the rimless glasses, the way he hovered in the teachers' cafeteria, hands in pocket, listening in on conversations; and when he did say something it was usually to highlight some "illogical" assertion, or make a correction, bolstered with facts and statistics; all of which put a damper on the anecdotal excitement teachers  preferred while they ate lunch. Who did he think he was? Where did he think he was?
     He loved working at at John Wayne Cotter H.S., he told everyone, but the situation in the hallways, you had to admit, was fast approaching anarchy. There should be police officers stationed in the building with powers of arrest. It was the only way to take back our classrooms from the hallway hoodlums. The public school system was moving away from the core values that made America strong, that offered strong leadership to the world. He ought to know; he'd just come back from Japan; the Japanese were moving miles and miles ahead of us.
    Bit by bit an already inflamed Bilicki became infuriated. He felt tempted to break his self-imposed silence, to expose this upstart, this clever windbag, with his soft rounded shoulders, and his neat appearance, as if neatness and business methods were all a school needed to save itself. Just back from a high school gig in Japan, now here at a troubled school in the Bronx - where would he go next?
    To raise these questions Bilicki risked giving the impression that, twice beaten and rejected as a candidate, he had turned into a bitter, boorish man, stooping now to character denigration.
        (from "Ah Mikhail O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 


REAL QUICK TRAFFIC REPORTS (& OTHER SIGNALS)

 

 

                  LAST LICKS BEFORE EXIT  


              Old folk will tell you the sound of death
              approaching, as gunmen traffic up yours, is like
              potow pow-pow on our island; while elsewhere boosh
              you hear as death's pointy face, next up
              & piqued, leaves a hot then warm bed chamber.

              According to my source gun down you don't
              that way; straight up I'm saying: when death moves in,
              usually unalloyed, no Aloha you hear, no Jehovah
              vending door smile; though just before the decresend

              souls standing (fates in waiting?) in white
              light; your life so far exploding stars blowing
              by in meteor swoosh or keynotes flashing –

              the au revoiree falls, or staggers clutching, climbing. Now
              by chance if near the exit ramp you en passant
              are willing to lend assistance, be prepared 
              to listen for time up syllables red spread refusing,
              like mama mia, mai; or moeder, muddafucker

              still breathing? then make a cradle of one arm
              while with free fingers 112 speed dial ("Stay
              with me", till you find out mainframe's unplugged);
              and thank your Krishna the Lord for cellphones,
              there you go, there. you. go.

                  Meanwhile moments of silence
                  give even bell strokes
                  pause: crescent tumor flood bitches sons –
                  what train we didn't hear coming?

                                                                   -W.W.

 

 

             
     


 
  

 

 

               
                              BUSINESS AS USUAL   


                        In night's grave beyond my floor
                        one more motor throbs like Poe's
                        heart, a gaping door's
                        slammed shut
                        and another ghost moves on
                        to his latest rock of smoke. 

                        I who know no rest must feel
                        such stabs of proof that other
                        hearts will refuse to stay put
                        as edged mirrors of my own
                        pursuit of nothing but breath

                        so that when some other knife
                        of night splits my heart enough
                        to make this dream of blood burst,
                        I will have been well rehearsed
                        in both leaving and never.

                       (from "Fabula Rasa" by Brian Chan)

NY SLIDE LVII: FALL OUT

 

   Admirers and detractors of Steve Kite could not allow his removal to pass without comment.
  "They're right to remove him. That kind of remark is unprofessional. You don't go around telling kids they smell, I don't care who you are. That kind of behavior is unacceptable," said Mrs. Haliburton, known for her heavenly high perfumes.
   "He didn't say that. It never happened. These kids make things up about teachers all the time. This is ridiculous…you mean, what he's alleged to have said… really ridiculous, what's going on," said Peggy Marmalad (Special Education), known for her tight-fitting clothes.
   "Well I don't know what all the fuss is about. Most of these kids get out of bed, jump into clothes and come to school. I mean, it's cold in the morning. Of course, they're going to smell a little…bedsweaty…I mean, what's the big deal about somebody's morning B.O.?" Tameka Brisbane (Student Council)
   "Let me tell you, this whole thing is being orchestrated by certain individuals in this school who are always ready to play the race card, you know what I mean? It's always the white teachers who are insensitive and racist, always the black students who are the victims." Jim Lightbody, to the carpool, too tired to respond that day, and quite willing to let him speak his mind.
   Brendan Bilicki made no comment. It was noticed that he kept himself apart from the gossip and speculation clusters. Like a cat curled up in a corner licking its fur, he was content to sit in the department lounge, his head buried in The Times. Approached one day in the library by the librarian and asked what he thought of the whole thing, he heaved a faintly triumphant sigh. "It's a case of the chickens come home to roost," he said, rustling his pages. He was prepared to leave it at that.
              (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 

NY SLIDE LVI: RISE AND FALL

 

     Steve Kite was re-elected as Chapter Chair but this time around his term of office was shortlived. His trademark loose way with words got him into trouble with students, and Bilicki watched his demise with tightlipped satisfaction, his heart cheering wildly as the guillotine started its fall.
   The story, as told in a student complaint, was that Steve Kite had grievously insulted them; had insulted two students to be precise, then with a wave of his hand had corralled the entire class into the insult.
   Allegedly he accused the students of coming to class unwashed and smelling to high heaven. "Why don't you people simply have a bath when you get up in the morning?" The words "you people" linked with the implications of smell, and tossed off in a fit of 1st period irritability, raised howls of classroom laughter; but the words got back to some parents sending them into howls of outrage.
   What's this teacher's name? The fuck he think he is?
   A delegation of parents, mainly angry mothers, charging racism, came in to see the principal the very next day. They threatened to picket the school. They milled around in the lobby, arguing with the security guards; and refusing to leave the building until they'd received an apology from the offending teacher. Mrs. Haliburton appeared and managed to restore calm in the lobby. The principal came out and invited the group into his office.
   A stunned Steve Kite, unused to backpedaling, could only throw his hands up in dismay. He tried to put a blase face on the matter, carrying on as if nothing would come of it. Stopped in the hallway and asked what it was all about, his stock response was, "A piece of crock." People had blown things entirely out of proportion, he insisted. Of course, he wasn't going to apologize, there was nothing to apologize for.
   The days passed, it seemed nothing would come of it. Steve Kite conducted classes, though the offended students stayed away.
   Then one day he was gone. Word came back that the matter was being "investigated". In the meantime rules of procedure required his "removal" from the classroom.
       (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)