VIJINIE’S DAUGHTER . Bonjour SIM CARD

     
          
           Sent forward from Japan . of Kaieteur where?
           no one ever heard; for new cocktail nice name
           maybe one day limes mix.

           Grown past time for metaphysics ~ her mother’s rope
           bridge, our peak Amalivaca ~ how are you : wedged
           to like partials, observing how circuits break smack
           in the riddle of rib cage strainings : doing? she asks.

                            Tree limbs we still keep trim for leaf
           count, hedge cover : far shed from book lamp
           bed fruit peeling . ceiling thump thumb message
           staring.
                            Rivers caravan the world winds ladder
           mountains : why strip to tango same old Orinoco,
           touch Salvador the ash fray base? she tasks.

           Couplets metered long ago clipped our made kites
           fly sky low . island stanzas down tied witch paper
           mate with "bitch" . soaked fuh so in spirits.

                           Card game our deck feet chip, link sync 
           to syrtaki . play Bonjour! list, side swipe the dark
           off night, ship light.
                                         
         Vijinie all the while 
           smiles . show showers Konichiwa! love blossoms
           her daughter’s hoist the sail tattoos : go ahead
           lick clicks on this if morning mists persist.
                                                                         – W.W.

 

                   

        

   

          SAND. CAVE. GRAVE. CLOUD


              Numbed by a love x-ed out,
              he sees his mind and words
              turned to noughts and crosses
          and listens to the mocking jackals
          of his fate in outer space scattered
          like cut-loose exploding astronauts.

              Without her whose flames burnt
              his blood deaf, he cannot
              breathe ‒ yet he breathes, he bleeds,
          he can still hear storms he knows will pass
          without a drop of rain for his heart’s
          desert that can only scream its cracks.

              He chokes in the coffin
              of a promise he has
              promised never again
          to break, so as now to break no more
          than one heart, his own ‒ surrender made
          not in fear, courage or greed for grace,

              but in absolute trust
              that nothing else will melt
              this lock or raze these walls,
          nothing is more full of the Sun than
          the tenderness of the willing wait
          lighter than its choice, slower, but fast.

      (from “Nor Like An Addict Would” © by Brian Chan)

                  
               
         

THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

  

         
       < Situations and Revelations of Passing Notice in Guyana >

         Locket # 29:

 

         Confession is good but not for much at the police station. You still spend time
         in a cell. If they think you might be “involved”, confessing will only make
         somebody’s job easier. You still in trouble. This is Georgetown.

         I had nothing to confess, and my mother couldn’t afford a lawyer. Carlos, my
         boyfriend, still in custody “awaiting” whatever comes next. Which is the hard
         part. He could be incarcerated for years “awaiting”, even though he swear he
         wasn’t involved.

         His only hope is, when the trial call the police still have no confession. Only
         one suspect and their stupid suspicion. And the family of the victim get fed
         up and decide not to “pursue” any more. Which could happen in this case.

         Dr. Davidson wife already left the country, gone back to the States. (His two
         grown children from his first marriage going to college there.) She buried him
         and left a lawyer friend to watch over the court proceedings. He told her the
         situation could drag on for years.

         Besides she felt so embarrassed. There was talk her husband was having sex
         with the house help when she was away on vacation.

         They found his body in their Queenstown home. It looked like a robbery, cash
         and valuables taken. No sign of forced entry, but somebody entered, give him
         one blow in his head with a “blunt instrument”, a piece of wood. They couldn’t
         find the piece of wood.

         One neighbour told the police she noticed “young people” coming and going,
         which is how they arrest me, “the house helper”; and Carlos who came to pick
         me up after work.

         Is not like we were loitering with bad intent. Sometimes Carlos worked on his 
         car. Dr. Davidson called him “my mechanic man” cause he knew spare parts
         people, and how to fix cars.

         Getting arrested for “questioning” is not funny. I still spend time in the
         bathroom washing off being in a cell in the same clothes for two days. And
         sitting in the court room while the court lawyer using words that had nothing to
         do with how I live.

         In accordance with regulation 5 (section 34)…conduct not recognizable by the
         court with the other sub-regulations…pending a guidance enquiry…the
         commanding officer had not exceeded his jurisdiction.

         In the end they kept Carlos; they told me I was free go. “But don’t go anywhere
         far outside the city”.

         They seemed more concerned with how I met Carlos, how long we together. I
         told them it was none of their business. Is he your boyfriend? You having sex
         with him? That’s how they “interrogate”, digging into your personal life. Trying
         to get you into some quick “confession” box, so they can say the case solved.

         That’s how they “investigate”. Pictures in their head. What they think happen.
         What they could do for you. And with you.  

         So you did domestic work for the man?

         Monday, Wednesday, Friday. The wife used to leave the sink full of dishes in the
         morning. Doing certain things was not her style. I never heard them argue, but
         her husband didn’t like the idea of having a “servant” girl cleaning the house.

         Any other kind of work? He pay you extra for extras?

         Dr. Davidson behaved as though everything here remained the same as when he
         was growing up. Living abroad and his university degree made no difference. He
         wanted a simple life, wearing ordinary clothes, blending in with ordinary people.
         He had pictures in his head, too. Morning neighbour! out of date pictures.

         Once while his wife was away (actually it was the day before they found his
         body) Dr. Davidson and I were alone in the house. We drove to a Chinese
         restaurant. He told me to run inside for the order. People see me getting in and
         out the front seat, they start assuming.

         He invited me sit with him at the dining table; he’s left-handed. He was telling
         me about his life, how he grew up in a village like mine. That’s how I found out
         about the farm.

         He came home to do farming. He was finished with teaching, with students,
         books, travel to conferences. His grandmother spent her life farming in her
         village. Farming was in his bones. He was aiming to build a house on a plot of
         land there, rest his bones. Mr. Educated farmer.

         He had his farm up and running, rows and rows of green crop, lettuce,
         boulanger, pumpkin. And cassava; he believed in cassava. He hired fellows in
         the area to do the mud work. He had long rubber boots, so some days (Thurs,
         Fri) he down in the mud with them. Had to be spending and making money.

         I think he hoped I would turn to him for advice and words of rescue. At least
         he didn’t go on and on with stupid warnings. Anyway, farming is definitely not
         in my bones.

         Most of the time he was in his room at his computer. He has a lot of books. He
         didn’t read our newspapers. Said he didn’t want to get “infected”. He asked
         me if I knew what “ethics” was, if I had ever heard the word used in any
         classroom I sat in.

         At that moment I should have answered like a good student; should have told
         him, if you live in this country, you bound to notice at some point a dividing
         line ‒ yes, good and evil. Everybody cross that line at least once in their life.

         A man of words, yes. Dark-brown complexion, about seventy, I would say.
         Usually outside in the front yard barefoot ‒ feeling the good earth. Hairy legs
         in slipslops and short pants. On his phone, under the mango tree at the back,
         he switches tone and language, talks like a university man.

         His wife organised the washing and ironing. I wasn’t allowed to touch her
         delicates. Bath towels, sheets, other stuff, okay. And not Dr. Davidson’s room
         with all his books. Always asking him, How much they charging to do that?

         I try not to pass through Queenstown where they lived. My mother never liked
         Carlos. Too wild and wayward. She and my aunt kept telling me I should go out,
         find a regular job.

         Me in some fast food restaurant? or in the shopping plaza behind a perfume
         counter. Shitty salary from some big belly supervisor wanting his regularity?

        These manager men selfish, especially the shirt and tie ones. They have tricks.
        Some don’t look you in the face when they interviewing. Like school masters
        they ready to punish you for messing up your exams.

        They frown and offer to employ you cause it give them a chance to correct your
        mistakes. Yes, come to the office for “sub regulations”. Slap slap! they slapping
        on your behind. And afterwards is, hurry! pull up your pants, act like nothing
        happen.

        Dr. Davidson was different from most old men in Georgetown. And nicer. But he
        didn’t tell his wife everything. You can assume what you like.

        I felt sorry about what happened. Something like that I never expected. I stayed
        inside my house for a good while, angry and embarrassed, until my mother got
        tired shouting, I hope you learn your lesson.

        It has been over seven months. Most people done forget what happen. My
        ordinary life is now a precarious life. Far from heaven, not yet in hell. I have
        to work my way out and start over.

        Last time I saw him, Carlos wasn’t the same person. He sounded agitated; his
        face looked scrawny, like they not feeding them in there. I felt he wanted to
        confide something to me. Instead he asked me to find a way to smuggle a cell
        phone to him.

        I told him I would do no such thing. That was a step too far. He gave me this
        look worth a thousand goose bumps. Was the strangest moment between us.
        Now I wondering what kind of person he will be when he comes out.

        He liked being seen as he drove by, the car exhaust roaring, me up front
        beside him. I miss that moment when he slam the door, start the car, and we
        ready to go.

        Anyway, I told him I might not see him for awhile. He’ll just have to manage on
        his own and hope for the best.

        Evadne Chance
        Georgetown, Guyana

 

  

I LOOK FOR YOU EVERYWHERE

 

                                               "In more precision now of light and dark”
                                                   -  Gerard Manley Hopkins, “Dawn"           

                    
               Just on today platform subway as in disguise . guitar
               rockers played like down out buskers, I phone mapped
               faces game surprise how train stop curious joined in
              
song, cross piece to you I string.

               I tape snip after host glove hands . body bits ghost
               picked . white wall scrub painted stadium doors pew
               Charleston floors . in knee deep prayers I sink 
               to save they’ll call if they find anything.

               Up over ocean bloat face floats . helifishers swish
               blade wish one arm might here! here! lift : shell case
               breath holding news found where? in you for gone
               clear life I reach.

               Angler Hopkins lines “instress” hitch mercy that
               outrides the all of water. My feet ground break neck
               lace hung fate . belief? I stone skipped there.

               Come spring grain green I arc back spinal count
               the ways ledge crowd point wait unherd I range
               hiatus fears unsheathe inside you born for easter
               tight wind sheets fall leaves rake I beyond
               doubt risen now . sea ward earth now.

                                                                    – W.W.

              

                                 

             

 

            

             A HEART HEAVIER THAN THE EARTH

                Fly above
                             clouds within sunlight
                and find yet one more edge of eye
             where a vast silence of arctic white
             surrenders to such fine clarity

                of blue as promises nothing
                but a dark heart pining for its
            rarity ‒ heart split between pulses
            of footfall and of winglift, between

               calls of raincloud and of sunbeam,
               and between the lull of dreamt and
           dreaming Earth’s seasons ‒ and the shock
           of sensing, beneath those modal moods,

              a sure determined rising back
              to her Dreamer’s womb of Light far
           finer than any azure the heart,
           denser than clouds, can only yearn for.

    (from “Nor Like An Addict Would” © by Brian Chan)

  

THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

 

         < Situations and Revelations of Passing Notice In Guyana >

            Locket # 28:


            I will keep this short.   

            Which country in the world have so many doctors to spare, they send a whole
            batch of them to our country to help our people? True, our compound far
            from perfect. Some buildings could do with repairs, and our equipment need
            improvement, but we not that desperate for “help”.

            Out of the blue one day this Dr Castanuevo shows up in our region. In his
            thirties, I thought
. Everybody notice how he so nice, so good-looking.

            As he started to blend in, shirt and tie, stethoscope and white coat, I had
            this feel
ing something out of the ordinary was bound to happen. I went about
            my wo
rk as per usual. I didn’t see the need to be extra welcoming.

            Other nurses, desperate to escape the same old nothing doing in our region,
            just handed themselves over to his foreign highness.

            He used to join our table during lunch, going, How you say this in English? and
            Your earrings look pretty. His soft voice politeness, his funny interest in our
            local ways, made an impression; everybody ready and eager to extend District
            hospitality.

            When he looked at me ‒ too dark skin for a start, I felt nothing for him anyway
            ‒  he probably wondered why I wasn’t smiling along. I didn’t ignore him as
            such. My arms and legs went stiff, pulling away from his prince charming
            friendliness.

            So he settled in, our Dr. Castanuevo. We called him Dr. Casanova cause we
            didn’t have time to pick through the name to get the pronunciation correct.

            The first one to say Okay was Leena (frilly hair down her shoulders, always
            neat and ready to get back to work.)

            She would be the last to admit she slipped out her panties, or kneeled to
            unbuckle this doctor. You could tell, though, from the way she went quiet the
            next day, she was happy to be the one he liked; and now she guarding
            some big big secret.

            I suspect it happened somewhere in the hospital compound, but I couldn’t
            imagine where ‒ in a corner somewhere?  behind some closed door, pushing
            things aside things to make room. Muffle muffle! no time for kisses Hurry
            hurry
!

            A clothes closet was probably all the space this man need.

            Next was Meena, who for days looked so pleased with herself. I didn’t say a
            word, not a hmmmm! If people want to turn and brace for a little naughtiness
            with the new doctor, that’s their business. You see this district? you have to
            let Canal nature runs its course. Come, yes! Take, take me away.

            But mister clever man, working so hard, couldn’t keep his hide-and-feast
            games a hospital secret forever.

            We have this Security fellow, works downstairs at the Entrance. Coarse and
            jokey, a beer belly in uniform. Steps aside so visitors can pass, like he’s the 
            big alligator granting permissions to bare feet in the swamp.

            And always bringing up the day he came upon the body of a woman who was
            raped and killed in the cane fields. He brings it up, the time and place, and
            he waits for you to look shocked, open mouth and wanting detail. Then he
            stops it right there, shaking his head, the awfulness suddenly too much for
            him to continue.

            One morning I heard him say to another black fellow, as I was coming in, that
            the new doctor running through the women on the second floor. “One by one.
            He stirring the yogurt, that’s what he up to, stirring the yogurt.” I kept my
            head straight, didn’t look back at him.

            So now any and everybody know what was going on, and where and maybe who
            was involved.

            Then, as if he was finished with our company, Dr. Castanueva went out of
            service. He wasn’t hanging out that much. Leena and Meena became sulky and
            bitchy, mentioning his name only to Steeups! you got to watch yourself with
            he
and he backtracking hands.

            You should hear them, acting like they “suffered” so much disappointment
            from him, it was their job now to warn off other people.

            The reason soon became clear. Dr. Castanueva had moved his ladder. He was
            aiming now at the hospital administrator, Miss Kumar. Our princess with her
            lonely responsibilities.

            Has her own parking spot, and comes to work after nine in the morning. Single,
            slender body, has a seven-year-old son. You’d find her glaring at the computer
            in her office.

            First, we noticed the ring. Then one afternoon I overheard her saying, in
            whispers to a visitor leaving her office, that she and Dr. Castanueva were
            going to “tie the knot”.

            Don’t ask me how Dr. Castanueva cornered her, what charms he introduced
            that drive her to that decision. She is an intelligent person. Okay, I know! I
            don’t really know.

            Miss Kumar’s father owns a timber business. Everybody knows the Kumars.

            A quiet wedding function followed in a Georgetown hotel. A one-week honey-
            moon at some resort in the Interior followed. Mr. Kumar was so proud, his
            daughter marrying one of the doctors sent to help the struggling people in the
            District, a man who brought a little “class” to our region.

            He gave them a house to live in. They were supposed to stay there for many
            happy years.

            Well, one year has passed since all of the above took place, and there have
            been major developments.

            The District royal marriage is over. Everything back to square one. Miss Kumar
            done chop the hyphen-Castanueva part off her name. She still with us, fresh
            wrinkles round the eyes. We think she might be pregnant. Leena and Meena
            following the belly bump.

            Dr. Castanueva has kind of disappeared. Said to be living and working in the
            Interior with the Amerindians. Said to be in the middle of legal proceedings,
            the divorce and property; apparently his name is on the property deed.

            So what really happen? Your guess as good as mine. Though if I was he, I
            would be very careful.

            The “Indians” living in Canal District not the same Indians in the Interior.
            Incidents and accidents happen. Mr. Kumar is definitely not happy with the
            way things turn out; and he’s one man who would do anything for his only
            daughter.

            It makes you stop and wonder, if people ever learn from their mistakes.
            They believe they have a bond; then they find out, So sorry! there is no
            bond.

            In our district we put fresh paste on the forehead, fresh gloss on the lip, and
            start over; but we repeat the mistakes. Is like living in a house with only one
            door in and out. Memories don’t help us discover new ways.

            I’m not a mean, jealous person. Not “full of myself”. I see how people slip
            into foolish expectation and get carried away. One slip ‒ jook, jook! ‒ done
            you done.

            Safety on my triggers taught me patience, how to handle expectation.

            I’m only 24 yrs old. When I reach twenty five, I will make a decision, a big
            wheel turn
decision. Not saying any more and, sorry, I not returning here with
            more developments. I too young to be “writing” stuff about people.

            My bedroom has a ceiling fan. For now down below not much really happening,
            I hope not for too long.

            Come sleep time, I gather my pillows under the mosquito net. When rain
            showers sweep over the galvanize roof, and the night creature noise start up
            outside my window, I turn on my side, wriggle my toes, and swish! I’m on my
            way. Practicing for when I leave the District.

            Annie Sohan
            Canal District, Guyana

 

 

AY VITALY,

                    

              Our trap tale traffick . no cry fodder : Ilyushin
              '76 . innocence to peace midfleshair blown; Afghan
              '85 . down comrades draining fluids in death valleys.
         What roads high tracked side café stop, our glass hour table
              company found . homemade slice shares unwrap : poll
              flag waverings miss fires in me . in you No return
              matters.

              Blink! two sip and time is up. Bit orb initials, touch 
              turn, reigniting work.

              Trucks like ours fork lift all good . the earth folds
              sorrow globe stokes warmer ~ past sea air ports here
          blend fast ~ morning unfuckingbelievable coffee ~ break
              heart land make there we leave it. 
                                                                         – W.W.

 

           

           

               

           

              

           

               A DECEMBER SNAIL

               A windless December dawn so still
                 
the Earth herself seems to pause:
               you must scrutinise the horizon’s
               collaboration between two orbs
                  to realize that what seems
               a stasis is in truth as active
               as this snail sliding out of his shell
                  to settle for the next shake
                  or shade of leaf, or to turn
               his horns towards the core of the Sun,
               star always with its own horns pointing
                  beyond the self-absorption
                  of the trails of snails which give
               the Sun grooved news of Earth but keep snails
                  from becoming birds and stars.

       (from “Nor Like An Addict Would” © by Brian Chan)           

           

 

THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

  

         < Situations and Revelations of Passing Notice In Guyana >

           Locket # 27:

           My uncle wears neat khaki at his job in our Police Force. He likes to tell people
           he worked his way up through the ranks to his office desk and quiet zone. He
           has this wooden plaque with the words, Ex nihilo nil fit. It rests on his desk
           like a correcting rod.

           My father had this idea, after graduation I should spend June through August at
           my uncle’s station house, before moving on with my life. Get a taste of police
           work, see if you like it, they need smart young women in the force.

           Well, I did my time there, and I can tell you, a police station among the boys
           and men in serge and khaki is a place of drama, the worse kind of drama.
           Sorry, no role for me.

           I have one man to thank for this. Mahendra Mahadeo.

           The day shift fellows at the station called him Mad Mahadeo. From Canal
           District.
I should tell you, he died weeks back. He was driving a tractor and
           the tractor tip over and fall on him.

           I know, I asked myself the same question. In this flat country, how could a
           tractor tip over and crush you, just like that?

           He came in one afternoon, announcing he just got robbed. Came straight up
           to the front desk where he probably expected everyone to drop everything
           and listen to him. The corporal in serge told him calm down, go sit on the
           bench; someone would be with him shortly.

           And poor Mahadeo sat on the bench, perspiring, hunched over a little, his shirt
           straining to contain the baby whale in his belly. I notice he had a fresh haircut.

           His mouth must have felt dry, he had no bottled water. He looked over at me
           answering the phone whenever it rang, like the errand girl or message person
           in the building.

           I offered to take his information. Attacked and robbed in public, he needed
           proper understanding. How hard could that be?

           He wasn’t keen on the idea at first. I wasn’t dressed like I was employed there.
           The corporal stood over my shoulder like he was the Officer in Charge, and
           Mahendra stared hard in my face, making sure I put down all the pain in all his
           words.

           Get robbed in broad daylight, he said. Just come out the bank, about half a
           million dollars (our million) in a bag, when “two black chaps” ride up behind
           him on motorbike. One twist his head ‒ “he had a snaky tattoo on his neck” ‒
           pointed a gun at him, and grabbed the bag.

           (You probably heard, we have roaming bandits, like roaming horses, ownerless,
           grazing day or night, any and everywhere. Some carry knives and guns, and
           they don’t care. It still nice to live here, though.)

           And it all happened so fast, was just after 11 o’clock, outside a school building.
           Students looking out a top floor window might have seen the whole thing.

           His heart never pound so hard, he said, it didn’t even let him shout. (I left
           out the part where he was sure somebody in the bank tipped them off. Was 
           an inside job
.)

           He thought first of taking a minibus and just going home. He started walking
           back to the bank, Then he decided to walk all the way to our station to report
           the matter.

           In the end, an officer in khaki came outside with the statement his hand,
           giving the impression he had read it. He told Mahendra Mahadeo he would
           “address the matter urgently”. And when Mahendra Mahadeo seemed not
           convinced, he told him, “a thorough investigation will be ongoing. The
           scoundrels will be found if we have to shake every coconut tree”.

           I can’t imagine the state he was in when he got home that day.

           I told my mother, it was really terrible the way they treated him. And the
           conversation afterwards in the station house was really stupid. What he
           expect? we should call in FBI people to solve his case? like he more
           important than anybody.
And, He lucky he didn’t get hurt. That money gone.

           He kept coming back for any news, asking to speak to “the same khaki chap"
           who was in charge the first day, nobody else. I couldn’t tell what was more
           important, getting his money back, or redeeming the time he spent on the 
           bench.

           The desk serge told him they still working on the case. They had identified a
           “person of interest”.

           He was accompanied by a woman, well dressed, sunglasses, strands of grey
           hair, who said not a word until they were leaving. Then: “You think we don’t
           know what going on here? This is damn nonsense. But don’t worry, we will get
           justice.” The same outburst, spraying the walls of the station house.

           She didn’t sound like a lawyer, insisting on his rights; more like Mahadeo’s
           guardian angel now, sharing his burden; and probably fighting some hurtful
           issue of her own.

           As they were leaving she glanced over at me, probably wondering what the
           world was coming to, now they have schoolgirls in the station house taking
           statements when they not checking their phone. I didn’t take that personally.

                                                                *

           I read in the newspapers, page 4, how Mahendra Mahadeo died. It really upset
           me. I don’t think anybody in the station house even blink an eye. It probably
           didn’t occur to them it was our Mahadeo, the victim of that broad daylight
           robbery.

           These boys in serge, I bet you, if ever something was to come over our
           Pakaraima mountains, something that needed to be stopped in its tracks,
           these boys would run, swim, vanish in the bush.

           I made enquiries. I phoned from the station house, pretending I was following
           up on the investigation. I asked if it was the same Mahadeo. A sad voice
           confirmed it was. From the same home address in Canal District. I left my
           condolences.

           And would you believe, the next day somebody called back.

           I answered the phone and I recognized the voice right away ‒ the woman who
           accompanied him whenever Mahendra Mahadeo showed up at the station for
           any news.

           Her call was not to thank me for the condolences. I didn’t hear any grieving in
           her voice. She asked me to convey a message.

           I should tell “the fellow in khaki” who spoke to them, if he really want to find
           “persons of interest” in Mahendra’s case, look for people hanging round the
           city roadsides on crutches. “With bruk knee”. He should haul these people into
           the station house for questioning. “Some two-leg creatures need harness; some
           stray dogs should be put away.”

           I didn’t understand what she meant, but the next day I arrived at the station
           house the boys in serge were loud and excited. “We had company last night.”
           I thought at first they had arrested prostitutes here illegally.  

           Some lady in head wrap and gold bangles burst in to make a report, creating
           one big scene; how some “crazy coolie man” jump out a car, pull her son off
           his bike, and give him three blows on his left knee.

           With a cricket bat. Bruk up his left knee. Leave him on the road in worthless
           pain. He in hospital. They say he might not walk normal again. Some crazy
           coolie man do this to him. Worthless pain.

           On my way home that same afternoon, passing the Georgetown Hospital,
           something tell me why not check with the hospital staff, find out how many
           patients they admitted recently with knee injuries. It would only take 10 
           minutes, what was so difficult about that?

           And would you believe, there were three cases over the past six weeks! Three
           fellows admitted and treated for serious knee injury. They stayed for awhile.
           Left on crutches. Made no complaint. Gave no explanation of what happened.

           I had a theory, but the moment I opened my mouth my uncle might have sent
           me to the station “detectives”. I don’t know what clothes they wear, maybe
           they go around detecting in plain clothes.

           Anyhow, I had seen enough, heard enough ‒ report after report of robbery,
           house break in, car stolen, girl child missing. Enough to give you skin bumps
           and nightmares.

           On my last day I went in to Uncle’s office to say goodbye. He was in his comfort
           chair reading the newspapers, trying hard to ignore what people say about him,
           how he's old and not really qualified for the job despite coming through the
           ranks.

           I chose the same hour of day when Mahendra Mahadeo returned to the station
           asking for news. Please don’t make too much of that.

           Uncle said he hoped I had a good experience. I could use it on a scholarship
           application. He hoped I understood now how hard his job was keeping law and
           order in the city. As he hugged and rubbed my back (for good while, I had to
           pull away), I said, “Some things happen here you can’t find the right language
           to explain.”

           And he said, That is true, so true; as if that was what his shiny grey head had
           been trying to tell the young generation all along. He wished me luck and
           urged me to do nothing I would regret later in life.

           One day I will call that woman who came with Mahendra; find out what really
           happened; how a tractor could tip over and fall on you like that. A girl my age,
           lucky so far, has other things to worry about, like the true life that is coming; 
           clear sky, road closed, allergies; all certain to find me.

           Valentina Sharpe
           Georgetown, Guyana

         

 

ALL DAY HEADLIGHT BELLY TRICKS

                                                                                 

                                                                      
                                                                       "…all by all and deep by deep
                                                         and
more by more they dream their sleep”
                                        
– E.E. Cummings, “anyone lived in a pretty how town”


            Not faulting the road country dark or millennium kept
            dune
that make specks coming at you luminescent
           as stool samples your tube news read.

           You see me? won’t friend a Buddha olive oiled . skin
           fear carriers who hand shake soft with pyramid jambs
           net worth set.

           Our islands fall head over seas for podium reachers,
               the few who given a needle plier would plait honor
                 folds on any pledge worn bellyfatty.

                 Our spices favour custom misers oysterizing your
               prostrate jollyjelly. You’d think people would age
           past such index fingery by now.
                                                      En.vie.garde! hips flick
           licks . circum|flex|vine . who animal knock down who
           fence?

           A switch knife blade in comes handy . case you stumble
           on coconut palms shimmery like gift cards in the desert,
           where the winds sometimes rub Saheltic, and every dust
           fling is allowed.
 

                                      For shallow breathers, mint leave
           advisory : try counting past 100 as pure gas you face 
           mask
. that way cruise in Stay with me! gurney wheel
          
orbit ~~^^~~  unless you have a better option?

                                                           Heavens wait . dream
           cling wake. Welcome back, sand feed grain.

                                                                         W.W.

 
                  

              

 

                 STUBBORN


                My tiredness is vast and honeyed,
                my yawn as juicy as a stuffed pig’s
                held wide by the apple of my lust
                to keep awake and hearing my heart.
                You’d think that after fifty odd years
            of failing to harness the sprawl at my core,
               
I’d be more devoted to slipping
                into sleep and savouring its dreams,
                but my senses insist there is no
                sweeter dream than the one they conspire
                to mock up and maintain like the stage-
            managers of a play whose author, actor and
               
audience I yet happen to remain,
                all these mes busy wiping our eyes
                of their tears of yawning déjà-vu.
                But I still look forward to the next
                breath’s moment as much as to the last
           when the stage-lights fade but the lights of the whole
                house blaze.

            (from “Nor Like An Addict Would” © by Brian Chan)

 

               

THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

         

       < Situations and Revelations of Passing Notice In Guyana >   

         Locket # 26:

         Denise, her only child, a girl she adopted, Edith loved. She swore to move heaven
         on earth to put that girl on a road to success.

         She had a difficult time getting her to the States. The Embassy was asking for all
         kind of papers proving the girl was adopted, not abducted. They spent years
         waiting, sending paperwork back and forth, until they were united in New York.

         We kept in touch through her letters.

                                                              +

         Edith became a registered Nurse and moved out of Brooklyn. Took a job in an
         upstate New York hospital. She gave that girl the best upstate education any
         girl could want. Jehovah’s hand guides.

         There were no Witnesses near where she lived but she held together. Saved her
         money. Her plan was to purchase a mother-daughter home after Denise 
         graduated.

         Denise is doing fine, she wrote. She goes to college in the city.

                                                             +

         The first sign of trouble came when her daughter decided to strike out on her
         own. Claiming she was tired of living with her mother’s Sisters in the city. She
         shared a rented house with two white girls who had their boyfriends staying
         over. They made so much bedroom noise, she couldn’t concentrate. Eventually
         she found basement space in a home in Queens, NY, an elderly couple, their
         children grown and gone.

         Edith worried. She had kept Denise tight and close to the home, the church,
        Jehovah’s hand. This striking out on her own threatened her allegiance.

         Denise refuses to let me help, she wrote. She has a job, working at the airport,
         behind the ticket counter. They let her fly at no cost if there's an empty seat
         on the plane. Everything seemed fine.

                                                             +              

         I got this call from New York, Edith wrote. A police detective asking me to come
         to the city. My daughter had been arrested. A member of a drug running ring.
         I was shocked. Not my Denise. They probably had the right name, the wrong
         person. They put someone on the phone. It was Denise.

         Edith had to find time after work. Travel to the city. Arrange for a lawyer. Dip
         into her savings to pay this lawyer.

         And you know what? The look on her face when I saw her. That was not my
         Denise.
The child I raised all these years. I asked her to explain. All she said
         was, she was
sorry. I couldn’t believe how she’d changed.

         The lawyer said he would do his best to have the charges dismissed. Denise
         was the victim in this case, drawn into an organization through no fault of
         hers. She had no way of knowing she was being used by cunning, dangerous
         men.

                                                            +

                                                                                

         It took months before the trial began. Edith couldn’t keep up the prison visits.

         It broke my heart to sit in that court across from her, her hair dry combed, her
         body deprived of decent attention. She still had nothing to say except it was a
         mistake. Everybody has weak moments.

         The prosecution had an unbeatable case. A ring of Jamaicans was running drugs
         between New York and Florida. Denise was approached by this young man, who
         asked her to perform a simple task. Fly to Florida, carry on a package. Check in
         at a hotel. A visitor would relieve her of the package. Return home.

         Now this was before New York’s 9/11, before airport security, and searching
         everybody's
bags. It seemed easy and profitable. 

                                                          +

         The first run went off without a hitch. Nobody suspected anything.

         They had no idea the police were watching them, recording every move. Letting
         Denise come and go several times, taking photographs, building their case. What
         trapped her was her contact, the Jamaican man.

         He was supposed to pick up the package and leave. Somewhere along the line
         an attraction developed, and he started spending hours with her in the hotel.

         They played back taped conversations between them. Poor Edith was so
         embarrassed, hearing details of her daughter’s private life made manifest to
         everyone in the courtroom. It broke my heart, hearing Denise telling this man,
         her boyfriend, to wash his crotch before he came next time. Her name mixed
         up with drug people, her kneeling for fornication with that man. No, no, that
         was not her Denise.
                                                            +

         I had turned thirty, still not married (my hips heavy and reluctant, wary of
         promises and pleasure) when this Elder and his wife from Brooklyn came to visit
         Guyana. He was tall and thin, with a permanent greeting smile. He spoke in a
         voice stronger than our Elders, simple, direct words. Like the man the children
         imagined living in the Watch Tower. Our assembly was impressed.

         His wife told me he traveled around a lot. She escorted him on longer trips like
         this one to Guyana.

         They had no children. We didn’t stop to examine why. We find great purpose in
         serving Our Lord, Jesus, she said.

         Outside our church after service one morning she came up to me and asked if I
         was married. I told her I hadn’t found anyone in our faith. Getting on in age, yes,
         but not feeling desperate yet. Jehovah’s hand guides.

         She touched me, took my arm. We went for a walk, a little stroll around the
         neighborhood. I listened as we walked.

         She wondered why anyone would want to live here. The hustle and dust, inhaled
         and ignored. How hard it must be to feel His presence here. Must require a lot
         of love.

         It's not that bad, I told her. True, sightings here of comfort and joy stir up envy
         and resentment ‒ red ants and vicious stealers, all over our lives. But despite 
         the garbage we walk past, people find ways to keep up their spirit. What ways,
         she asked, not believing me for a second. Well, the way to the Kingdom keeps
         me
from thrashing around, I said.

         I told her I could help her with the wrinkles forming round her eyes, which looked
         like signs of premature aging. I could give her something my grandmother used.
         It could even clear up the lines tightening near her mouth.

         She halted, she turned; she looked me in the eye. You know, it’s amazing, she
         said, how despite everything, you keep on living here. I’ve never met someone
         like you.

         I assumed she said that because now all of a sudden I was her newest friend,
         living in a part of the world she might never visit again. I never met anyone like
         you either, I answered back.

         I told her I liked the Elder’s presentation that morning. She squeezed my arm.
         Pay closer attention to the words of men as they sleep. Our faith needs the
         support of our readiness to breathe.

         Her husband, she said, was ravenous for intimacy. And not to be denied. I
         remembered that word, ravenous. I might have read it somewhere in a book.
         Never heard it spoken like that. She went on:

         One day a ravenous man will climb in bed beside you. He’ll toss and turn, wake
         and feed on what your spirit lays bare. He'll roll off, grunt and go back to sleep.
         Usually I close my eyes and pray. When the sun comes up in the morning, that
         man won’t remember all that happened that night, but he has had his fill of
         sleep to face the day.

         I thought I heard what sounded like pain holding back in her voice, I could be
         wrong. I nodded as if I understood every word and could be trusted to breathe
         not one.

         When we got back to the church entrance, she gave me a big smile. If you ever
         come to New York. We shook hands goodbye.

                                                                 +

         So for years, many years, not a word from Edith. Her daughter, I heard, was
         found guilty and sentenced.

         Edith didn’t write saying that. Probably overcome with shame; too exhausted to
         go to the post office and send bad news.

         In my last letter I told her to be patient. I heard that over there they let people
         out of prison earlier for good behaviour. Denise was good at heart. Purpose had
         been plucked from her pod, but her vine could be restored.

         I imagined Edith growing old, moving back to Brooklyn, walking house to house 
         and ringing doorbells, her mission smile covering up everything she’d been
         through. I wanted to be on her side.

         I asked her to consider returning home. Hearts are dry and heavy here, secrets
         and sins get tossed in canals and high grass. People hungry for good deeds, for
         stories of hard believing.

         She could tell our assembly what happened out there in the wilderness, how
         Denise her daughter had fallen short and lost her way. How Jehovah’s hands
         lift.

         She didn’t reply. Okay then, I thought.

         Muriel Yearwood
         Georgetown, Guyana

 

           

CARL’S PLACE

                                                                       
                                                              to Carl Anderson        

     
          At the back then tack left . the lady white though
          game fair pointed ~ on the other side occurring just
          across a 9/11 memorial display whose freeze dry
          billowy might have beckoned her first.

          Off workday anytime is good; visitors must card pass
          blood braising city styles : wait schedules escalator
          floats . down concatenation tunnels linking every port
          authority vet heavy.
                             No grace full circles
river mists your 
          brush blade parted once . on point the bowman’s pole
          through signs > shot slinging peopled colors out the forest. 

                            There I get : your ribbed glaze tangents
          breaking out stamp borders . glass case public
stationed
         
here | can’t be too careful these days. So trips one
          way to radiant close.
                            See something say something frames what
          sunlight finds . under street feet . paint lines shed vein
         
grid alerts ~ just saying
                                                              – W.W.

 

           

         

 

 

             THE NEXT LITTLE AWAKENED ONE
                WRITES HOME


          We touch on the roundest things as though
                they were flat. We know
          we float on the surface of a globe
          but walk along the lines of a map
              and let sentences
          deflate our arcing telepathy
         
into the tightropes on which we inch
              between here and there
          and call that dicey balancing-act
          the art of falling on our feet
              while still in mid-air
          where the anguish of this wingless bird,
          locked to a ladder of light on his
             
way back to you, starts,
          towards but one stop ‒ when every rung
      will have been reveined by also his blood.

      (from “Nor Like An Addict Would” © by Brian Chan)

         

THE FLAGMAN’S OCCURRENCE WAVE BAND

 

         < Situations And Revelations Of Passing Notice In Guyana >

         Locket # 25:

         When I took this job as the Building Super Mr. Cato was the sole occupant of
         Apt. #5E. From Guyana. I had no trouble with him. He was a man of strange
         habits, but a straight arrow. Ironed the shirts he wore. Spoke his educated
         English, even though his education apparently didn’t get past High school.

         He gave me a heads-up about when he would die. September was not a good
         month for him. If something happens, it will happen in September/October.

         The turn of the weather was what troubled him. He found it hard adapting to
         changes, hot for a few days, cold the next day. Nothing in his life went right
         at that time, he said. He liked it when the season firmed up and stayed on
         course.

         And would you believe, he died first week in October.

         One morning I didn’t see him. I was up and about at the front of the building.
         Usually round about 9.00 a.m. he’d emerge through the basement entrance,
         cross the road to the Deli; get his Daily News, play his lottery numbers.
         Sometimes he stopped to chat.

         When I didn’t see him I refused to think grave thoughts. It was only after a
         package for him remained uncollected in the lobby. He was prompt picking
         them up. Along with the mail. That got my attention.

         I went up to his floor, pressed the doorbell. No response. Something was not
         right. And that’s how we found him the next day; slumped over his numbers
         at the dining table; gone.

                                                          *

         After they took his body away ‒ natural causes, no sign of foul play ‒ my
         concern was getting the apartment fixed and ready for new occupancy.

             His daughter arrived. His neighbor in 5#D ‒ an elderly lady from his country
         who’d been asked to keep an eye on him ‒ contacted her. She lived in Florida,
         his only child. She claimed she visited him at least twice every year, but I
         never saw her around.

             I caught her lugging big black plastic bags through the hallway out to the
         sidewalk.

         Looks like he left a lot of stuff for you, I said. “You can’t imagine. Books,
         old records? You know anyone interested in old LPs? And lottery tickets.
         Piles and piles of old tickets.” I know he played his numbers at the Deli.
         “This was beyond playing.”

         Mr. Cato had kept all his losing tickets. Small piles of them in rubber bands.
         Something to do filing with the IRS to recover his losses.

         He kept records of the winning Lottery numbers. Not in a ledger. Multiple
         school composition books, with years and years of numbers. With circles
         and linking lines.

         Did he win anything big? “If he did, he didn’t tell me.” He told me September
        /October was an unlucky time for him. “That’s another thing,” his daughter
         said.

         He had composition books filled with what looked like health charts; with
         numbers for every week, every month of the year; indicating good days and
         bad days, good weeks, months, years. This closed-in guy keeping strict
         medical records was his own physician.

         Not that he had nothing else to do with his life.

             He liked baseball. Followed Yankee baseball on his radio. I know because we
         talked about a Yankee/Mets subway series. And how ever since Mr. October
         (the Yankee baseball great) retired, they hadn’t been able to find another
         like him. That was the closest he came to arguing about something.

         On national holidays he went down to Chinatown. That was his gig, eating
         Chinese food on July 4th, Labor Day. Weird. Unusual, to say the least. I can
         only tell you what I saw and what I was told.

                                                       *

          Mr. Cato’s daughter wanted help disposing of the furniture. I told her I
          couldn’t “give her something” for tables, chairs, stuff with little resale
          value. I wanted the apartment cleared.

              Short of leaving everything on the sidewalk as garbage, she didn’t have
          many options. People this side of Brooklyn might be struggling, but salvaging
          stuff on the sidewalk (usually a sign someone had passed) wasn’t likely to
          happen.

          Did he really work on Wall Street? I asked. “That’s what he said, that’s what
          he did.” Struck me as kind of weird.

          He didn’t fit my picture of the Wall Street type. Except for the London style
          trench coat, with the lapels and the belt? Long after they went out of fashion
          he wore his trench coat.

          “Did he ever tell you his Wall Street job story?” I had no idea there was a
           Wall Street story. “About how he got hired, all because his boss considered
           him a math wizard. He could do math calculations in his head. Fast and
           accurate. Just give him the numbers.”

           You mean, like one of those freaky people on TV? doing amazing tricks with
           numbers? “He wasn’t freaky. Maybe he didn’t go to college, but you saw all
           the books in his apartment? He knew everything about Accounting.”

           As the story goes, Mr. Cato made an instant first impression on his boss.

               Came off the subway one day, wondering why the Wall Street stop looked
           cleaner, more prosperous than the rest. Came up to the streets. The
           financial district.

           It was lunchtime. The man who would later become his boss was at a hotdog
           stand. He never got over that, his boss buying hotdogs for lunch, then sitting
           on a bench nearby munching and chatting.

           He sidles up to him. Tells him he has this talent with numbers. The boss is
           curious; takes a bite of his hotdog; decides to test him. Gets blown away by
           Mr. Cato’s performance. It was like a job interview in the streets.

           And that's how he got hired. On the spot. Got his cubicle with a glass partition,
           his name on the payroll. And since he seemed not too ambitious, not anxious
           for promotion, his boss kept him, under his wing, all those years. Gave him
           a bunch of printouts with numbers in the morning, which Mr. Cato checked
           for accuracy, and returned “in a jiffy”, Verified/Okay.
 

           Sometimes he completed his day’s task during his lunch hour; went out for
           his hotdog break. Some days he left the office early, he said, to avoid the
           rush hour.

           It sounded like the kind of story that comes up in conversation at Thanksgiving.
           Hard to believe; raising smiles and eyebrows. But how to explain leaving the
           apartment every working day, the London trench coat, his just-in-case
           umbrella. The man had to be baking and making somewhere.

           After he retired his daughter said she worried he would fall and break a bone,
           jostling through the crowds on the subway platform at his age. He was subject
           to aches and pains and dissatisfactions like everybody, but I never heard him
           complain. Hardly noticed the energy that kept his legs moving ‒ past sixty,
           seventy, eighty years old.

           His death was sudden, as if he just stopped in mid-stride and kind of slumped
           over, eyes half-open.

                                                       *

               After Mr. Cato’s departed Apt. # 5E had two sets of occupants. The first guy
          (and his girlfriend) attracted the interest of the police precinct. One day they
          took him away for questioning. The girlfriend eventually moved out.

          Now a family from Nigeria occupies the apartment. The man is bulky and
          serious; leaves the building at four in the morning. I think he drives Airport
          Taxi. The mother is at home raising the kids. Three so far. They stay close to
          her when she emerges in her robes on her way to the supermarket.

          There have been rent problems, heating complaints. I am expected to fix
          everything rightaway. Mr. Cato’s neighbor complained about the children
          playing ball outside her door.

          What was wrong with the new tenants? She missed Mr. Cato’s quiet manner,
          his day to day self-certainty.

          The man came to this city with his schoolboy talent for numbers. Must have
          seen what was going on around him, the coarseness and hustle. Must have
          heard the sirens responding to the worst levels of depravity in the streets.
          Somehow he found an overpass, tightened his trench coat belt, went his
          own way.

              I don't think he had a plan. Most of us have dreams, or some tired excuse for
          a life; he had his Wall Street gig to get to every morning. We all got to live,
          in and outside the shadows. The grass is for grazing too.

          Mr. Cato’s daughter left his body with a Brooklyn funeral home. For the fee
          they promised to dispose of his ashes.

          He loved Brooklyn. He didn’t talk much to me about Guyana, or about
          returning there. People back home were sloppy and slippery with numbers.
          Six for nines run rings around suspicious minds, I think those were his
          words. Like something he might have said at the Thanksgiving table, along
          with the Wall Street job story. Company probably started him up until he got
          boring.

          Only thing he missed from home was riding a bike.

          You have to know the man well enough to trust the story. I can’t say I knew
          Mr. Cato that well. I came to respect the man, though; out there on his own,
          cooling his brain cells with a numbers game.

          Calvin Lookman,
          Brooklyn, USA