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         Locket # 24:

         When Pathoo left our NorthWest District he was a still young; thirtyyish, not
         married, a man of strong moral character, I would say. Sister Miriam would
         bear me out on that. She wanted to travel to Georgetown to testify on his
         behalf, but she too old to travel.

         She knew him as a boy at the school run by the nuns. She treated him like a
         son, watched him push off and paddle back home every day. Pathoo was shy,
         she said, but when he raised his head you only had to look in his eyes to find
         honesty in his character.

         She inspired him to start up the river taxi business, ferrying old people and
         children, morning and afternoon. People in our District had only good things
         to say about Pathoo, the boat operator. How he helped with running errands,
         doing favours, in sickness or in need. All you had to do was leave a bandanna
         or a white cloth on a pole to alert him. And I will say this, Pathoo is a man of
         courage.

         One morning he decided to move to Georgetown. I couldn’t understand this
         decision; he was doing fine right here.

         A big businessman ‒ Mr. Sawh, they called him ‒ somehow put it in his head
         he could make more money if he moved to Georgetown and worked for him.
         Running river taxi was small time work for small people. 

         Who was this Mr. Sawh? And what business he starting, “recruiting” people
         from our District? Nobody knew.

         Pathoo left instructions I should take over his river boat operation. Didn’t even
         stop by to give me a chance to discourage him.

         He was away in the city for about nine months. We heard he was doing alright.
         First time in his life outside our river ways.

         Imagine the shock when the steamer arrived at Morawhanna with newspapers,
         with Pathoo’s face splash on the front page, accused of kidnap and sexual
         assault. 

         Our Pathoo. Never had a river boat accident. No problems with women,
         watering the lettuce, as far as I know.

         His job was to drive Mr. Sawh around. Dress up in shirtjac, wait for instructions
         calm and polite.

         From Boat operator to Mr. Sawh’s chauffeur ‒ hard to believe. And don’t ask
         me how he got a driver’s license, how he turn chauffeur so fast.

         They said Mr. Sawh liked boasting to his friends how he was the first to employ 
         a “Toshao” in that capacity; showing off, look how generous he was, how
         trusting of our indigenous people.

         It was more complicated. Mr. Sawh valued Pathoo’s silence. Drive, see nothing,
         hear nothing. Sometimes he asked Pathoo to step beyond the call of duty.

         People in Georgetown always running some overtime business, or doing some
         behind the screen business. Mr. Sawh had an outside woman. After their
         rendezvous at a certain hotel Pathoo would ferry the woman away discreetly,
         then come back for his boss.

         But you can’t organize something like that in Georgetown without somebody,
         at some point, noticing what going on and connecting the dots. And adding
         their own dots.

         Mr. Sawh’s hotel rendezvous lady was suddenly reported missing. She turned
         up days later, “rescued”, battered, straggly haired and “sexually assaulted”,
         according to police investigators. I could see how Pathoo got caught in the
         middle of all the mystery and suspicion.

         They kept him in jail over thirty days. The case was always still under 
         investigation. Sister Miriam kept asking, but we had nothing to tell her. She
         urged us to speak to our District representative. Pathoo had no one to defend
         him. Travel to Georgetown, do something.

         Then one morning he was back. Wanted me to pick him up at the Morawhanna
         stelling.

         It was good to see him. It was raining that day; he was standing alone, two
         bags close to his ankles; watching the corials glide to shore; maybe wondering,
         what possessed him? to leave this place? his home all these years?

         Every man and his woman claimed they knew what happened in Georgetown
         with the case.

         The matter got “dissolved”, victim declined to proceed with the charges. No,
         no, the case was “dismissed”, victim left the country. Nah, nah, all parties
         get paid to just forget the whole thing, that’s how they do it in Georgetown.
        
         Pathoo didn’t have anything to say. It was as if he had developed a new skill,
         erasing any unpleasant experience rightaway.

         In the following days I helped him transport tools, utensils, materials for
         building, other stuff.

         I offered to help him build whatever he was building. He said he didn’t need
         any help. He didn’t want back his boat business. He didn’t want to see Sister
         Miriam. The parakeets he would take back, and his dog.

         I decided to just leave him alone.

                                                              **

         During our last conversation he was in the same mood, the same bottle with
         the cork tight. I had crossed the river meaning to talk about his boat. I was
         feeling a little guilty.

         The boat was still his property. I didn’t want him to think since I operating
         the transport I had taken over his business. If he wanted, he could take it
         back. 

         I wondered if maybe we should upgrade the transport, put in a new horse
         power motor. People were happy how we chugged along the river, but other
         boat operators were moving faster. Maybe we should move with the times.

         In the middle of explaining this, he shouted, “You know what? They have evil
         people in Georgetown. Just one life we have.” Okay. Evil people in
         Georgetown. Just one life.

         He continued as though all this time he was waiting for the words to assemble
         in the right place.

         He was at a cricket ground, he said (now this was before his incarceration) in
         the stands, watching this Test match. Mr. Sawh, the businessman was there
         (accompanied by his bodyguard, a big black fellow).

         You? watching cricket? Since when? He gave me a fierce look. This was no
         joking matter.

         Somebody in the seats above him threw an object that hit him in the back of
         his head. An empty plastic water bottle.

         He looked around to make eye contact with the bottle thrower. Couldn’t tell
         who it was. People looked away, pretending they didn’t see what happened.

         He picked up the plastic bottle, and stood glaring at the crowd. Unless he
         had a target he knew he couldn’t toss it back. His face must have burned
         with rage.

         He made a show of crushing the bottle, so everybody could see what serious
         pain his hands could inflict, face to face with any bottle thrower. He sat down;
         he changed his mind. He left his seat and went back to the car to wait for
         his boss.

         This incident continuing in his head, running hot or cold! It was not right what 
         happened, I agreed. I was glad he talked about it, glad he trusted me to
         understand. But what did he expect? people didn’t know the kind of man he
         was. And working for Mr. Sawh couldn’t change how people saw him.

         I said, with new interest, The strangest thing happened couple mornings ago.

         A police party came looking for him. Gliding up quiet, mist over the river,
         like they planned to raid his home.

         I’m sure Pathoo heard them. Where we live, at that hour in the morning, you
         could hear a paddle dip in the river.

         They saw me getting ready to move. Asked if I’d seen Pathoo. Said people
         in Georgetown wanted to get in touch with him. The shirtjac fellow, looking
         like the person in charge, told me to contact “the authorities” immediately if
         I had any information about his whereabouts.

         His chest bare, his limbs relaxed, Pathoo had just finished his breakfast ‒ tea,
         fruit, soft-boiled eggs. He had things to take care of in the backlands. He can
         tug the tail of a jaguar in those backlands.

         He made a gesture with his hands (the hands done with driving car in the city)
         as if flicking the news away.

         Yes, he heard people were looking for him. Let them come, let them try 
         anything, he said. He waiting for them.

         J. Matthews
         Northwest District, Guyana

 

         

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       Locket # 23:

       Yes, call me young, impulsive, and lacking “morals”; but my parents taught
       me to discipline myself if I wanted to get anywhere in the world. In school it
       was hard on account of Mrs. Bradshaw’s daughters. Verona, the eldest, was in
       my final year class (her sister was a form below.)

       They were bright students, but not good-looking girls. Mrs. Bradshaw was not
       good-looking either, but she had this great rear view, which she passed on to
       her daughters.

       Fellows would talk about one day getting close to Verona’s rear view, but every-
       one knew that would never happen. Mrs. Bradshaw’s girls had only one thing
       on their mind: good test and exam marks; on their best behaviour, at all times.

       This is why I hung out with Verona. I had good test scores, I envied her discipline
       and forward thinking; but I wanted to get close to her rear view.

       Months before finals, everybody looking ahead, university or job, I told my
       parents I was joining a “study group”, all day Saturday sessions. They thought
       I was doing this at school. Instead I went by Verona’s house.

       We spent the whole morning and afternoon “studying”. If my parents had found
       out, they would have slaughtered me ‒ for lying to them; for choosing to hang 
       out with people they didn’t know (never mind Mr. Bradshaw was some fancy
       city lawyer, and the house was in Queenstown).

       From the start, Mrs. Bradshaw was pleased a young man had chosen to “study”
       with her eldest daughter, at her house.

       She’d wander in, do a half-circle at the dining table, surveying the books and
       bowed heads. She’d ask (stopping by my chair) How is everything going? Urging
       us to take a break for lunch. She surprised us one day with plates of Indian
       food, which tasted okay, I have to say.

       I soon realized there was no “man” in the house. No sons in sight, and no Mr.
       Bradshaw around. It seemed he had moved out, or was asked to leave, I wasn’t
       sure. It was none of my business, and Verona and her sister carried on
       regardless.

       Verona never spoke about her father, but in Georgetown you can’t help hearing
       about other people’s business.

       Fellows said Mr. Bradshaw was one of our big-shot lawyers who along with
       their friends think they run everything in the country. He and his wife were
       “separated”; he was living with another woman, his secretary, a younger
       woman.

       I didn’t know all this for fact, but I felt for Mrs. Bradshaw. It must have burned
       her, how she delivered and raised two children, only to watch Mr. Bradshaw
       suddenly take up with some younger woman.

       I noticed when she came to the dining table Mrs. Bradshaw would stand next to
       me. How is everybody doing? Rajiv, you alright? I felt the closeness of her body,
       tight and trim inside nice fabrics; in good shape despite swelling and delivering
       babies twice.

       I admired the way she maintained herself, how she taught the girls to focus,
       focus! on the road ahead; ignore all the garbage, the noise and slackness in
       Georgetown
      

       One afternoon she came really close, left thigh touching; she placed her left
       hand on my shoulder. So what you all studying today? Rajiv? Verona had slipped
       away to the bathroom. 

       The fingers on my shoulder gripped, pressed. I felt heat from the thigh through
       the fabric. We have a test next Monday. Have to get ready, I said. And then I
       lost control.

       My right arm went round her waist, friendly like. Thanks for letting me study
       here, Mrs. Bradshaw. I hope I’m not intruding. Her fingers pressed harder, my
       hand slipped down to the buttocks. (When last did anyone touch her like that?)
       She flinched, but said nothing. The bathroom door opened, Mrs. Bradshaw
       moved away, and the courage in my impulse melted.

       As it turned out, our study sessions brought rewards. Verona’s results were so
       good, she went off to Barbados (studying law; I think big shot Mr. Bradshaw
       pulled some strings.) I took off for New York (idled for a bit, but now I’m
       enrolled full time in college.)

       So you see, it pays to control your impulses, take your studies seriously; all the
       good things they tell you in school. 

       Only one thing, though. I won’t have come this far if it wasn’t for my hands on
       Mrs. Bradshaw’s buttocks, that first space probe.

       Sounds weird, I know, but I’m saying now: I joined the study group to get really 
       close to Verona’s rear view, which led me all the way to the Bradshaw dining
       table, where I discovered “the source”, the mother of my desire, my schoolboy
       fantasies; over which back then night and day I exercised supreme, yes,
       supreme! control.

                                                       *

 

       People in this country like to hide things away in a vault ‒ foreign currency,
       papers, whatever ‒ all kind of stuff get stacked away; every Harry and Harilall
       holding back things they don’t want other people to find out.

       Here’s a little chapter I keep in my vault.

       So I come home for vacation last year, and I’m having a good time with my
       cousin Ishoof; he has a nice car. This morning he had to go to Queenstown to
       fix his internet service bill. The building was on the same street as the
       Bradshaws, a block away.

       I told him I’d “explore” the neighborhood while he was inside, and off I went,
       meaning to drop by the Bradshaw house, say hello and stuff. 

       She was outside, in sunglasses and broad-rim straw hat, stooping and poking
       away at flower pots. I couldn’t believe I was back in Georgetown. People now
       had nothing better to do on Saturdays but poke around flower pots.

       You should have seen the look on her face. Eh eh, what you doing here?

       Up the front steps, the trowel left back in the dirt; inside, the sun hat tossed
       on a chair, Sit down, sit down! I touched the tablecloth on the dining table,
       the launch pad of my success, Verona’s success.

       There was so much wonderful news. Verona was in Barbados, studying law, and
       doing well. How come you didn’t stay in touch? She said she never heard from
       you once.

       I saw snapshots of Verona, looking different (not looking better, despite the
       hairstyles). Her sister had found a job in the city. Mr. Bradshaw, still good for
       nothing, and finally convinced nobody was planning to sneak up the back steps
       and squat on his private property, had agreed to divorce proceedings.

       And today, at this hour, look who showed up! out of the blue, Verona’s “study”
       mate; catching her at home all by herself. Look at you! You have a nice little
       beard.

       She got up to fix me a glass of lemonade. She came over and gave what started
       as a congratulations! massage on the shoulders. I got up to give her what
       started as a Thankyou! (for letting me “study” at your dining table) hug.

       Actually, I was searching through memory for the moment back when my hand
       had strayed down her back to the buttocks. It was there! the promise, still
       there! still drawn to each other after all this time.

       This time I grabbed hold. Felt a little pull back, a little hesitation (maybe 
       wondering, how real was this desire for her?) Then she took my hand as if now
       she wanted to show me the rest of the house, the rooms past the dining table.

       [There was a One moment, please. Dash to check the front door locks. And I
       pulled out my phone to text Ishoof, Wait for me, don’t fucking leave.]

       The bedroom had that midday neatness and readiness for night time, for a
       couple tired and needing rest after a long work day.

       Her chat speeded up as she undressed, for whose benefit I couldn’t tell; about
       Mr. Bradshaw, with whom she had known only brief happiness; who only
       wanted a Mrs. Bradshaw installed in the house to bear and rear, in the kitchen,
       in the bedroom; and when he done, jumped straight into his long sleeve
       pyjamas.

       Oh God! The long sleeve pyjamas (my pants on the floor at my ankles looked
       bewildered) if she ever married again, after all she was “still young”, never!
       never to a man who liked long sleeve pyjamas!

       At this point I told her to shut up, I’d heard enough. I didn’t stop by just to
       light candles outside her vault.

       Actually, I spoke in her ear, I don’t want to hear another word about Mr.
       Bradshaw. I thought that made me sound more mature, not like the nervous
       schoolboy she remembered; plus it would make us feel like equals, you
       understand.

       I moved the twin pillows from the headboard to the center of the bed, and
       pushed her down gently. I was not the pyjama man who took her on vacation
       only once, and that was on their honeymoon. In fact, this was going to be the
       best fucking vacation she ever had! (Just to help her feel a lil’ revenge, you
       understand.)

       After the last Jesus! comeJesus! I rolled off on my back and was catching my
       breath, staring up at the ceiling, until the thought “old enough to be your
       mother” start poking at me; started me wondering how I should say (meaning
       no offence but) I had to leave; and it wasn’t like we did something really bad.

       And who knows, it could be the start of something different in her life generally.
       Otherwise, would be more of the same, hot mornings with the sunglasses and
       the flower pots; her days stuck in repeat.

       I am back in New York. When fellows here start bragging about homeruns 
       they scored, the best sex they ever had, I smile a little smile and spin my
       safe lock.

       This “revelation” thing here is just in case you hear people in Georgetown 
       talking, the same crocus bag crab shit, about people they don’t know and
       never met. Later.

       R. Ragoobarsingh
       Georgetown, Guyana
       New York, USA

 

 

 

          

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       Locket #22   

       Heard there was a vacancy at the Georgetown hospital morgue. Usually you 
       hear about these things, you don’t always read a notice inviting applications for
       the work.

       My good friend Archie works there. Maybe he getting ready to leave; he hasn't
       said anything to me.

       We’re from the days of knowledge and order; respect for people deserving of
       respect. Past fifty now, we moving along through the next ten, and taking no
       chances; bracing for impact.

       These Georgetown people, with their vehicular lawlessness, have no patience 
       with someone not their age. Going down Regent Street, through that pounding
       noise called music, you taking a chance with your life on a bicycle; like nobody
       teaching manners anymore in the home and in schools.

       We understand the times, how out of the blue the end might show up with a
       message from the morgue.

       Archie’s father was the morgue attendant back in his day. When he got old he
       thought his son would want to take over the work. At that time father and son
       weren’t seeing eye to eye; plus Archie swore he wasn’t going to follow his
       father’s footsteps.

       For this morgue work, it’s usually one person, the same fellow doing the same
       thing year after year. They only think of a replacement when he pass away or
       retire. Today no young person would want this work, at least I don’t think so.

       I met this fellow from the Congo (don’t ask me how he land up here) who said
       he would rather go back home than take that job. Never explained why.

       And these days they asking for “qualifications”, for almost everything, like at
       least “secondary” schooling.

       Archie’s father (he was a tall, skinny man, looking like he had little appetite
       for food, and none for argument) had only “primary” when he started. After
       many years they must have moved him up. I could just see him coming home
       one afternoon and telling his family now he “permanent”.

       If you fly back home with “foreign” training and you apply, the locals in
       Georgetown might give you a hard time. They don’t like that you went away
       and improve yourself. They’ll steeups at your good intentions, shoo you away
       with their whippy pride sticks.

       Archie and I started “secondary” school, but he fell away and strayed, ignoring
       advice to mend his ways. Went to the gold fields, came back; worked on the
       North West steamer, stopped. At one stage, his sister told me, he was catching
       and selling crabs in the North West District; and he had a child with an
      Amerindian woman.

       Then his father died and left specific instructions about tending his gravesite
       in the Georgetown burial ground, Le Repentir.

       You probably heard about our Le Repentir cemetery, how vegetation and bush
       take over; how tree root drilling through and cracking the tombs as if jungle life
       returning to the city. A staggering sight, if you had relatives buried there.

       Back in his day Archie’s father used to cycle home on the roadway cutting
       through Le Repentir, with the tall-standing palms and blue sky. He said it was
       like passing though a valley of peace and forgiveness.

       If you felt stressed out after a day at work, passing through late afternoon you
       reach home the same way you left in the morning, fresh and ready.

       For many years, was like you driving or pelting through walls of vegetation,
       eyes straight ahead, agitated.

       Archie came home to visit one day and his mother told him she could no longer 
       locate where his father was buried. You would not believe what Archie did next.

       Went straight to the hospital, told them he was the son of the old morgue
       attendant. Said he knew everything about morgue work because has father
       taught him (which wasn’t true). Enquired if there was an opening.

       Whoever was in charge decided to take him on. Maybe out respect for his father.
       I don’t think they cared so long as somebody was doing the work.

       It don’t sound all that complicated. The pay is nothing to shout about. Your
       “office” could get overcrowded, if you know what I mean, and a call to duty on
       a night of cutlass-chopping might sour you up inside.

       No "morals" necessary. There is nothing at the morgue you might feel tempted
       to steal.

                                                        +                                                                            

       But hear this, according to Archie, along with the gloves, a certain “disposition”
       is required. The dead in this country have something they want to say before
       they reach “totality”. Let me explain.

       Just like when bodies arrive at a hospital, doctors and nurses have a way of
       handling and dealing with them, so when bodies reach Archie at the morgue,
       the treatment is different.

       On the trays they waiting for the next stage, the ground and shovel, the
       leaving ceremony. But some people here don’t always rush to claim remains. 
       And most don’t have a clue they might be hours away from blankness and ever
       afterness. (Others, you just glad they gone.)

       Archie would hear sounds from the tray drawers, like breath in a rush, coming
       from a distance.

       At first he pretended not to notice. It took him awhile to admit it was an alert.
       Some kind of transmission was about to take place.

       So he worked out a strategy. Lock the door right away, turn off the lights, pull
       out the tray with the sound; then sit motionless, his back to the trays, eyes
       closed, like in some kind of sight and sound insulation. After these steps he was
       ready.

       He heard voices from the trays, blaming or pleading, sounding faraway. First,
       hundreds of voices, all talking at the same time, jostling to be heard over each
       other. Then one voice broke through over the rest, sounding faint, like the
       person trying to speak but catching their breath after the effort to break
       through.

       He would wait, wait and hold! hold! The breathing from the tray slowed, then
       then settled down and became words. What he heard brought tears to
       his eyes.

       Just one twitch of his muscle, or some noise from outside, and the transmission
       ceased.

                                                         +   

       So what did the transits on the trays say to Archie? You know, he never gave
       me a straight answer. Only that he finding himself in “a strange situation” at
       the morgue. There was a strangeness to his work days, but he was getting
       used to it.

       I looked at the hard-life lines on his face, and I listened long enough to know
       he wasn’t making all this up.

       He started paying attention to his work clothes, keeping it clean and neat (like
       his work place, he said) and befitting a man of higher, hidden purpose. He
       massages his wrist and checks his wrist watch frequently.

       He used to be loud and vulgar, now he speaks softly. And I noticed he always
       end our conversation with the same three words, makes no difference.

       I decided not to pressure him when he stopped by my house (he’s a Guinness
       Stout man, using a glass now). Didn’t make jokes like, So what’s the latest
       you hear from the trays? And I didn’t ask him if he ever once heard from his
       father.

       Some situations you need to handle delicately, you know what I mean.

       I gave him his right to silence, to close himself off from others. I don’t think
       anybody else know about his “situation”. In any case, what could he say that
       would convince anyone?

       I look at it this way. At the end of life some kind of accountancy (I call it
       accountancy) takes place. Not the day to day explaining, which is like a pot of
       fart beans and fabrication, because people here don’t have the stomach to
       admit guilt or shame. Every man jack want you to believe they completely
       innocent.

       So at the end point on the morgue tray, all that’s left is some last breath
       attempt to explain what really happened, in one clean confession. They gone, 
       but like they searching now for a new balance, life and no life.

       So you see why this morgue attendant work important.

       It’s not for everybody, unless like people here you feel caught in the swirling
       currents, the waste of years past; and you desperate for something to hold
       on to, a floating log with title, anything.

       John Burch-Smith
       Georgetown, Guyana