Review Article: GROWING UP IN 1920s GUIANA

 

 

                  In "Potaro Dreams" (2015), presented as the first installment of his 
                  memoirs, Guyanese author Jan Carew describes what it felt like growing
                  up in the colony of British Guiana. The 1920s would seem to be a
                  particularly fertile period for Guianese authors. The village of Agricola
                  where Carew started life was also the birthplace of Roy Heath (b. 1926)
                  who wrote with great affection about his boy to manhood years in
                  "Shadows Round The Moon" (1990)
 

                  Anyone who lived in that swath of landscape from Eccles to Diamond
                   ̶  back in the time of the old cane fields, the narrow public road running
                  cross country  ̶  might readily recall days of near-idyllic boyhood;
                  making Demerara as important as the county of Berbice which is often
                  hailed as the "spiritual" birthplace of several established writers; and,
                  you could add, beginner politics.
 

                  Roy Heath's memoirs were written       _________________________
                  during the firm, retiring years of
                  the author's life. Carew appears to              POTARO DREAMS
                  to have put off writing his for the                          by
                  longest while. Finally  ̶  at age 87,
                  and urged on by "friends, colleagues                 Jan Carew
                  and fans"  ̶  he turned his attention 
                  to its construction.                                 Hansib Publications Limited 
                                                                                    United Kingdom, 2014        
                                                                                           132 pgs.
                                                                             ________________________              
                                                     

                   He'd planned to write two or three volumes; but (it seems, with writer
                  energies flagging, and the risk of memory evaporations) he expressed
                  concern he might not be able to finish "this opus". Five years later he
                  died.
 

                  In the opening chapters readers might recognize the latticework of
                  relationships that secured Carew's life in several homes, and nurtured his
                  boyhood "dreams".

                  You meet his parents and his sisters, Grandfather Fitzroy Carew (b.
                  1869); Aunt Enny, Aunt Harriet, Dr. Francis, the District Medical Officer;
                  Nurse Myah, Cousin Maria, the family chronicler "who read Charles
                  Dickens' novels to me"; and Edmond Rohlehr, a "visiting uncle whose
                  ghost", when he died, "cried out in the wind".

                  The names of family members, neighbours and first friends seem
                  embedded in the minds of many Guianese growing up in the colonial
                  1920s. You get the impression there were always so many well-
                  intentioned relatives, and so much unavoidable comings and goings, the
                  child had little choice then but to live with the many stern hands raised
                  for the task of shared parenting.
 

                  Carew mentions the names of his next-door neighbours, those articulate
                  members of (what might one day be referred to as) a great generation
                  of Guianese achievers: the Luckoos [sic], "a clan of East Indian lawyers";
                  Edgar Mittelholzer, "an eccentric writer and painter". What readers
                  might find more engaging is the account of his educational (high school)
                  beginnings in the county of Berbice that helped forge his character.
 

                  The school he attended, Berbice High School (BHS), functioned like an
                  academy for the privileged,  for "the scions of a multi-racial middle-
                  class", he explains.  It was patterned "after elitist English private
                  schools", and administered by trained  local teachers (among them Jerry
                  Niles, Ranji Chandisingh Sr., James Rodway); and the occasional
                  graduate of Oxford and Cambridge on a teaching stint in the colonies.
 

                  The "scions" of the Courentyne peasantry in attendance felt uncomfort-
                  table and unwanted. (Their parent hardships would be covered in
                  fiction by the aforementioned "eccentric writer and painter" Edgar
                  Mittelholzer.) But already within the confines of the 1920s British 
                  syllabus and exams, the forms of dress and authority, a process of
                  "independent" thinking had begun.
 

                  Carew singles out Yisu Das, "a Gujarat and a third-generation Guianese"
                  who taught classes in "The History of the British Empire", but encouraged
                  his students to seek out alternative versions of conquest and suffering.
                  He would read to students Spanish versions of the same historical event.
                  Consequently Carew felt inspired once to present an essay on
                  Bartholomew de las Casas as a mid-term class assignment.
 

                  And there was Teacher James Rodway who introduced to his class dozens
                  of prints of Renaissance paintings, as well as the works of the Dutch
                  masters (Rembrandt, Brueghel, Rubens). "It made me see the landscapes
                  around me through different eyes," Carew writes. "By recreating images
                  of their reality they had enabled me to construct images of my own
                  with greater assurance."  
 

                  Though not 'top of his class' Carew attributes the grand sweep of his 
                  literary-academic life to those probing high school days when his
                  teachers opened the mind's capacity to engage faraway ideas, and
                  taught him the responsibilities of intellectual freedom. 
                

                                                         ≈  ≈         
      

                  In drafting his memoir Carew appears to switch narrator roles,
                  using one hand (the professor) to write, then the other (the famed
                  novelist). "Potaro Dreams" comes across as an assemblage of anecdotes
                  and vignettes, with historical commentary and asides interspersed to
                  add weight to the personal stories.
 

                  There might also be in the book a trace of (elite) school elevated 
                  mapping, starting with the author's assumption that the (casual or the
                  young millennium) Guyanese reader, who usually struggles through
                  each day's challenge to "read", would summon the effort to stay with
                  every pulsing minute of his nostalgias, or with people they'd never heard
                  of.

                  It is entirely possible, though, that to be overly impressed with the
                  achievements of the village boy who had travelled was acceptable form
                  in 1920s Guiana.

                  Carew recalls, for instance, that in those days one man "reputed to be 
                  the most highly educated Black man in British Guiana" had a résumé that
                  hinted at a remarkable accretion of credits based on his wanderings 
                  around the world. That man was his Uncle John, who from Guianese
                  beginnings became "an artist… a classical scholar…graduated from 
                  Heidelberg…ordained in Germany … sent to Nicaragua as a Moravian
                  missionary …[then] transferred to serve as pastor, principal and
                  Superintendent of Moravian churches and schools [back in Guiana]."

                  "Potaro Dreams" will be appreciated by Carew's colleagues and followers
                   in higher departments; but readers in Guyana and the Caribbean might
                   walk away more likely curious and "informed", though possibly thinking:
                   this is a good though not a compelling, vital account.

                   Others might find the book too slender to stand on its own, offering too
                   little (about the 1920s) that has not been addressed with greater  
                   warmth of feeling and reference in Roy Heath's memoirs ("Shadows", 
                   1990).
                   

                   Much of the biographical material in "Potaro Dreams"  ̶  and this is
                   pointed out in the book's Foreword  ̶  has been subsumed in Carew's
                   fiction (notably the fabulous stuff of "The Wild Coast", "Black Midas").
                   If the intention now is to present a "prism" through which readers can 
                   review the body of Carew's life work, it's debatable whether "Potaro
                   Dreams" sharpens the focus, or generates new reader interest in early
                   20th century Guiana.

                   This volume draws to a close in 1939. (At this point no sign yet of a 
                   youthful desire to "change the world".) We learn that Carew and his 
                   friends, once inductees in the BHS Cadet Corps, are preparing to join up
                   and serve in the British Armed Forces.

                   Assuming the second volume gets published, Guyanese readers  ̶  and 
                   they include the culture house keepers for whom the colonial past has
                   become a harbour bustling with fearful faith remainders  ̶  could
                   anticipate more names, places and events; more snapshots of the
                   seemingly unsinkable memory episodes that occupy the pages of "Potaro
                   Dreams".
              
                                                                ̶  Wyck Williams

 

MR. FIELDS WOULD BUFF THE GROOVES

                           

                          
             Lesson
in song preludes  ̶  though youth file phoning couldn't
             
care less these days: the plug swipe send device delivers 
             content straight into your stream; heads nod, foot taps so old.

             He'd pull the vinyl from its sleeve with love rag polish
       
      the voice key mastering. His finder's code: to keep
            
the treasure  ̶   for as long as  ̶  glean pristine.

             Band width on turntable, the lever cue; the needle's first nut
             crackling touch; and this insight: Now while Sinatra's busy
             entertaining, here's how Ray Charles serves from his line
             toss dark. 

             One skip, one wobble  ̶  wave signal ruined, the record shelved.

             No scruffier corner of the globe: the sun and arch of Georgetown
             after noons  ̶  the fun scrub prep root universe we made and played,
             his studio breaks the notes consumed. 
                                                         The life in those days; our wakefulness.    
             What track list impulse frequency link in like that?    

                                         Some sounds some times
                              like rivers teem meander ship fit coast
                 land bound. As bow wings beat sea lanes release great white
             winds dare you beam  ̶  untied unchartered  ̶  Tide quavers trace
                             how long far gone; hand lift cheer which way.

                                                                                                           – W.W.
                                                                                              
                   

                     

                                                                            

                                                                                           
                       

                     FORCE RIPE

                     A tree does not surrender its fruit
                                     until it is ripe
                     nor an egg a chick until its wing is
                                     sharp as a beak
                     nor a bird her nestlings until she is sure
                                     they can fly
                     nor a jeweler issue diamonds unless
                                     they are clear.
                    
But an impatient poet aborts his
                                   
  labour's nuggets
                     by tossing them off while they are still
                    
                 crude, dull and earthbound
                    
like seeds too blind to filter light, too green
                   
                 to green become.

                  (from "Within The Wind" ©  by Brian Chan)  

                               

                         

NY SLIDE 11.1: IN THE HOUSE OF THE REDEEMER

   

                          
                 The Seraphim and Cherubim House of the Redeemer had its exterior
                  walls recently painted, in maroon, and the two windows facing the
                  street were grilled. Radix looked up and read the fine print on the sign  ̶
                  information about the services held, the hours of service; and the words,
                  Professor Adelanyo Abafa, Leader In Charge. He pulled the door handle
                  and went in.
 

                  They saw rows of folding chairs, a preacher's rostrum and a tiny stage.
                  The room
was brightly lit and empty but for two people  ̶  a woman
                  dressed in all white, and a man in a priestly white robe with a maroon
                  sash. They sat close together, staring at a coffin on a trestle right below
                  the stage. They turned as Radix and Judy Wiener entered and the 
                  woman in white smiled and rushed forward to greet them. It was
                  Xavier's mother.
 

                  She squeezed Radix' hand and gave Judy Wiener a warm hug. They were
                  a little late, she said, they'd been a short service. Some of her friends
                  and some of Xavier's friends  ̶  "just a few of us"  ̶  had taken part, and it
                  had ended just fifteen minutes ago, since people had business to take
                  care of.
 

                  Judy Wiener, in tones tinged with sadness, explained they were delayed
                   ̶  the traffic, silly problems at the school. She was sorry they'd missed
                  the service. Still, they were glad to be here to pay their respects.
 

                  Xavier's mother smiled. Her face was heavily made up, as if to hide
                  marks of strain and grief.
 

                  She turned and introduced Professor Adelanyo Abafa who gave a formal
                  bow. "Professor Abafa is from Nigeria," she explained. She stood close to
                  him, framing more than just a casual relationship. "I have to thank
                  Professor Abafa for everything. He came to my rescue at a time of my
                  greatest need." She looked up in his face.
 

                  The professor said, "We are all here to serve each other." He turned his
                  head toward the coffin and added, "You probably want to spend a few
                  moments alone with Xavier. You can go ahead."
 

                  Radix and Judy stood over the coffin. For awhile they said nothing. Radix
                  barely recognized Xavier's face. It looked puffed up where once the flesh
                  under the  cheekbones was handsomely recessed. But it was undoubtedly
                  Malcolm Xavier Haltaufaudehude, about whom he knew very little (he 
                  wrote that essay on Shakespeare's "Othello).
 

                  Standing there, feeling the hairs on his arm lift whenever the swiveling
                  fan in the corner sent air in his direction, he was aware of the
                  tranquillity in the room, and the sound of indifferent traffic outside.
 

                  He heard Judy Wiener murmuring, the same words over and over. A
                  single tear rolled down her cheek. She leaned over and kissed Xavier on
                  the brow, then she continued her murmurming like a prayer.

                  Radix wanted to feel something for the face in the coffin, but nothing
                  inside him stirred. He listened for a moment to Judy Wiener who was
                  making a huge effort to control herself. He made a promise to read the
                  play "Othello", see what had got Xavier so worked up in his essay. He
                  touched the coffin and turned away.
 

                  Back outside on the sidewalk they attracted the attention of a young
                  man from the Tire and Hubcap shop who stared at their clothes and
                  wondered what they were up to.

                  Xavier's mother did most of the talking. She seemed determined to show
                  how well she was bearing up despite her aching heart. She explained she
                  was going to have Xavier cremated; his ashes would be flown back to
                  Jamaica and scattered in the sea, in the western part of the island
                  where his grandmother was born.
 

                  "Professor Abafa was telling me I should arrange to have his remains sent
                  back to Africa, right professor?" She gave him a challenging smile. The
                  professor clasped his bible, a stolid sympathetic figure. "If we scatter his
                  ashes to the wind they will eventually find a path home," he said,
                  smiling.
 

                  Out in the open he was a short stocky man, with heavy-lidded eyes, a 
                  thick neck, round-faced with a startling big voice. Under his priestly 
                  garment his biceps and broad shoulders hinted at a boxer's physique. He 
                  spoke only when prompted, offering a proverb or aphorism to reinforce
                  whatever Xavier's mother was saying.
 

                  Radix tried drawing him out about his church, and his duties as "Leader 
                  In Charge". The House of The Redeemer had the look of an enterprise
                  recently founded, or under new management so to speak.
 Xavier's
                  mother intervened, saying she was grateful for the comfort and support
                  of the professor's church.
 

                  "Birth, death and taxes… the only things certain in life….let us not
                  grieve over what is inevitable," 
he'd say. And Xavier's mother smiled and 
                  nodded, looking penitent and firm-bodied in white beside him.

                      (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 

 

 

AIR PLANES OF 1914

  

                        
               Those French boys, second job poets, knew how to fly. Ask
               the last pilot he'd argue they were simply trying to over rise
               great war ruinations, though their wheels barely left the ground. 

                                                    Like the hour hand in cane fields raised
               to wipe high brow, shape shift on horse cork hat skin peelers; right
              
 at which point  ̶  no camera record  ̶  neck chords stretch new syllables
               for ghost bird flaring bone intuitivity. A sail plane drawing light.


               Had we known then they existed, imagine this night jam: Cuatro
               breath picks scanning long stuck hope in sheet less throat as wood
               winds wait at the Bachland gates and creole prints decline Cézanne
               liked shimmery palms, our efflorescence bruised. 

               Not much now [we who came through] we could do?


                                                                  Hard enough to leave the village 
              
dead trees down settle for town ship shack land fill scratch the search
               when body parts.             
                                                                                  Yet ocean news broad 
               cast now Libya boarding . brokers back to belly stoking. With faith
               stall sea cross beam to
bear  ̶  la fin préférable à distance  ̶  wade
               out wager
all in.  


                                                               Who knows? Des Imagistes returning
               might buzz your wave defences; might air drop flight hide patterns 
               for too oil slick delta wings.

                                                                          For starters, look closely  ̶
               the aureole round that captain's head, wreath laurel or crow circle?
               that .dot funnel on the horizon, rescue ship coming or going?

                                                                                                        Arm over
               arms in wonder, stroke the breath beats. Deep sunk, reach up  >  touch
               the black obelisk. Rocks so you Rock so,

                                                                                          – W.W. 

                   

                  

 


                    
          

    

                            
                        THE OTHER VOICE

                               

                        Let its flame slip through the cracks
                           of your usualness:
                        sometimes there is no other way
                           to keep on becoming,
                        as the sun at your core will
                           either translate itself
                        as rays of word, or choke you.

                        At other times, voice is nothing
                           but a maze of broken
                        babble, writer's or reader's,
                           and you are reminded
                        how dense spirit's mask can be,
                           how sealed its heavy sleep
                        against flares of light would

                 
                        challenge, when all you want is your
                           latest dark distraction,
                        your next tale of boys and girls
                           stubbing their souls against
                        their furniture of desire 
                          
and fear  ̶   perfect reading
                       
of your own soul's postponed text

                        of urgent pain as the blade
                       
    to cut through custom's crust,
                       
just to cast you in one more
                       
    mêlée-drama of change,
                       
some drab nightmare that will force
                       
    you awake to allow
                       
the flame to utter its need.

 

                     (from "Within The Wind"  ©  by Brian Chan)       

             

  

 

NY SLIDE 11.0: STREET WISER

  

                     
              Judy Wiener sat barely attentive to what he was saying. Her mind kept
              adjusting with some anxiety to her view in the passenger seat. She leaned
              away instinctively each time the car passed rather close to parked vehicles.
              At the traffic lights she straightened up, hiding her apprehension.

              "This is so strange," she admitted, laughing nervously. "It's as if I'm seeing
              the Bronx for the first time. I mean, I drive past these streets every day. I
              guess it's like tunnel vision when you're at the wheel and heading home.
              You don't really see everything."
 

              And Radix, a little peeved at her trickling response to his driver conver-   
              sation, said, "You want me to give you a guided tour on the way?" She
              couldn't have missed the mockery in his voice.
 

              It was growing into a warm day. The streets were narrow, and felt even
              narrower with the parked cars, the side walks busy with walkers, people in
              nondescript clothes, dark faces, Hispanic faces. It felt strange to be out of
              the classroom at that hour, to be moving through Bronx streets with no
              grander purpose than travelling to a church.
 

              Radix drove with the car windows down. Blasts of bus exhaust swept into
              their faces, with the dust and litter blowing around the street.
 

              At one point, at traffic lights, a man in soiled mechanic overalls stepped
              off the sidewalk right in front of them. It was an arbitrary, reckless move.
              Judy Wiener jerked forward as Radix slammed on the brakes.
 

              The man glared at them, his eyes ablaze with accusation. He seemed   
              momentarily puzzled by the two faces, white and black, in the front seat.
              He pointed an identifying finger and let loose a string of curses at them;
              unintelligible words daring them to hit him; reviling them for questioning
              his right to be careless with his life on his streets.
 

              It kept them apart and silent for awhile. 

              Near the next intersection Judy Wiener heard Radix groan as if he'd done
              something wrong. She perked up, asking with fresh interest, "Are we lost?"

              "I'm not sure, " he said. "I think we should have come to Third Avenue by
               now."  And Judy Wiener, peering forward, determined to be useful again, 
               read aloud the street signs in an attempt to remove the awkwardness that
               had slid between them. Though Radix kept thinking: She's not afraid to be
               lost. I bet this is some kind of wild and wonderful outing for her.
 

               They'd been driving past blocks of old abandoned buildings, vacant lots
               thick with weeds; then blocks of houses and store fronts and bustling
               streets; then more gaps where buildings once stood. "We're looking for
               1351," Judy Wiener said, consulting the piece of paper in her hand "It's so 
               hard to find the numbers…these buildings don't …seem numbered."
 

               She spotted the building first. "There it is, 1351." And Radix, still
               anticipating a church, said, "It looks like a store front set up."

               The sign on the building read, The Seraphim and Cherubim House Of The 
               Redeemer
. Next to it was a Tire repair shop, with hubcap and shiny steel
               rims draped on its facade. "Look at that. Maybe we could get replacement
               hubcaps for your car."
  

               But for the sign there was no way of knowing they had arrived for a
               funeral event. It always perplexed Radix to come across something like 
               this: a building that sold Mexican food, then next to it a church; and next
               to that a store for Cleaning and Janitorial Supplies; each jostling for
               customer attention.

                    (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 

BLUE HUNDRED NOTES FOR JULIO

                                                                                             

                   
              Evening moist bites on dry bed lips testing the initials
              of youth dew kiss still cling sharper than the first search party
              mapping curve mound signs; or spring tide swell moon up
             
on the sea wall  ̶  permit at last to storm.

              On air brushed island bicycles, cow amble and cart
              in our path, we lost ourselves in Walcott-like land tie dyes;
              prince and princess, never more crowned, cool valleys
              like Marley's, never more owned. Valve insert keys golden,
              our kingdom full come. 

              The morning you disclosed your ovaries contained no eggs
             
designed to child; straight backed away  ̶  your ten o'clock intern
             
ship call [On the Rayuela Périphérique: * Even if Heaven is
              close by, all life in front of one.*]   
                                                                  Did you know then who you'd
              become? your hands scrubbed in would people house wife smiles?

              I'll go happy parts of us clasped to my chest rare coins on eye
              blinds open (nose holding casket scents).


              I'll clutch
these strips, not yet expired, like magnets on
              the chance
there's the same swipe system for the paradise side:
              a rainbow One source blues stop @ "Bird & Miles"
  ̶  a pint round
              about midnight for Julio  ̶  as hip hop tattoos sneak a peek.

              Ripe plum pluck and good luck! risks of innocence distinguishing;
              Fellini's FIN.
                                                                  < Yo, corbeau! head red 
              that garden lizard's fire fly snaps, the tree climb pause to pose,
              Eh-eh, what became of,  
                                                                             
                                                                               – W.W.

 

                      

                 

                     

                                        ̴  Ça va Julio Cortázar (1914 – 1984)  ̴

                           
 
                             

                    COCTEAU


                    I:
                 

                    My taste for moment-to-moment death yeasts
                    the liquor of life that waters the taste.

                    This tongue is ghosted by my brandy's ice-
                    dry vapour drifting in and out of being.  
 


                   II:

                   Now I am a stone in a running river,
                   split by the sun into a thousand moons;

                   now the river drained to a widow's bed,
                   a tongue of sand clogged with a million stars.
 


                   III:
 

                   My house is all windows of seamless glass
                  
with soldiers drifting by them, like stray clouds.

                   On its walls, I'm a shadow with ten eyes
                   whose target is any, whose aim is all.

                
                   
IV:

                   From branch to branch of this flowering tree
                   I hop, a bird who has traded his wings

                   for a hundred songs from as many beaks:
                   fickle to each branch, faithful to one tree.

                  (from "Scratches On The Air" by Brian Chan)

  

  

 

NY SLIDE 10.9: PERMISSION TO LEAVE THE BUILDING

  

                     
               Radix had some difficulty getting away for Xavier's funeral the next day.
               His supervisor was in a disgruntled mood.
For long moments he appeared
               to ignore Radix, rubbing his temples and complaining to his secretary
               about his sinuses acting up. He indicated he had too much on his plate
               that morning and suggested Radix take his problem to Bob Darling (A.P. 
               Admin).
 

               Bob Darling asked Radix questions: did he know the student? was he
               staying out all day? did he have lesson plans for the teachers covering his 
               classes?
 

               Then there were forms to fill out, some running back and forth for
               signatures of approval. His supervisor, still unhappy with the short notice
               given, said he wasn't sure he'd find teachers to cover the classes.
 

               Finally, with a gesture of impatience, he got Bob Darling on the phone,
               and must have been persuaded it would be good for community relations
               to have teacher representation at the funeral of a John Wayne Cotter
               student.
 

               When that point got through to him, his manner became less irritable. Still
               complaining of his sinuses, as if that was the reason for his irritability, he
               asked friendly questions about the dead student. But by then Radix had 
               had just about enough of him.
 

               He'd arranged to meet Judy Wiener in the lobby at the end of period 3, but
               he had to go looking for her. She was still at her desk in her classroom,
               giving last minute instructions to the covering teacher; and not in any
               great hurry to get moving. She wore a black dress, black stockings and
               shoes, and she had touched up her cheeks and eyelids. Radix for his part,
               in his workday long sleeves and skinny tie, hadn't thought of wearing
               something different for the funeral.
 

               Later when he remarked on how attractive she looked in black, Judy
               Wiener threw him an anxious look and asked if he thought her wardrobe
               had gone a bit too far for the occasion. They decided to use his car.

               When they emerged from the building on the sidewalk they were seen, 
               recognized and hailed by students on the third floor who shouted Radix'
               name and wanted to know why he was cutting class; and where was he
               taking Miss Wiener?
 

               "So where are we going?" he asked. 

               Judy Wiener took a piece of paper from her bag. Xavier's mother had
               called the night before, apologizing for not contacting her earlier; she was
               having a "hectic" time with the police, her lawyer, the funeral arrange-
               ments.
 

               "I wrote it down here…The Seraphim and Cherubim House of the 
               Redeemer
." Radix gave her an incredulous look. "That's what his mother
               told me. It's on Third Avenue."
 

               "I know where Third Avenue is. Never heard of the church." 

               "It doesn't sound like a church. In the conventional sense, I mean." 

                He eased into the mid-morning traffic; they' would avoid the expressway,
                taking the route through the Bronx streets choked with pedestrians and
                stop lights.
 

                He told her how difficult and begrudging his supervisor seemed in letting
                him go. "Oh, they do that all the time. They monitor every step we take
                inside the building, outside the building."
 

               "I don't understand why we must account for every word, every minute we
                use. The punch-in clock, the lesson plan. The other day I heard someone
                suggesting they mount video cameras in the hallways….he was serious
                mounted video cameras would help cut down on the hallway walkers, the
                perps banging on the doors."

                             (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 

DEPARTURE GATES OF CHOICE

  

                            
                       Not envy we envy the cliff sheer drop, the glass tower dive,
                       the bridge that spans decoupled cravings or whale tides
                       unembraceable.
                                                        Is just – apart from bands and bandits –
                       we like to leave, not fall shoot jump. 

                       Few islanders stage the debunching show  ̶  last stand on a ledge
                      
as watchers point or talk for inches grab at sleeve phone
                      
fame; and one womb flat in disbelief recalls how nipples
                       swollen in support placenta fluids swished.

                       There is the sea  ̶  its dread head home stretch for horizon
                      
squints; cupped coast line candles for long memory holds; illusion
                       heals. Not one soul here would venture leave the puzzle of a topless
                       bobbing boat (reported stolen) with "Jesus Saves" fish oars.

                       True islanders prefer a self clean fire burn! straight like rum
                       hatch down
 ̶  what scours breast plate stain and tears at loss
                      
fault stuff that silk our spirit cells in weeds.

                                                               The nerve to count stop in ferment
                       grape years less seed . gap centuries less home.

                                                                                                 A bush burning summing
                      
up, you could say: Exit breath on own site terms.        
                                                          
                                                              No love late bells no message fat claim
                       
chance of reparation never mind what conch shells backing bone
                      
collectors say.                 
                               
                       Morn fortunes break wait, night star clusters yes. Light
                      
you see.

                                                                                                            – W.W.

 

                        

           

                                         


                         THE TREE MAN'S COMING WINTER


                         The white throats of death circle
                         above my head, calling warning 
                         drawing the limits of my days.
 

                         The wind keeps making a drum
                         
of my skin, and flutes and rattles
                        
of my bones: funeral music,

                         dumb sadness that keeps my heart
                         pulping in the sun, regardless
                         yet careful, ruthlessly tender.
 

                         It's a cloak against the wind,
                        
this peace of knowing soon it will
                        
blow every last dried leaf nowhere. 

                         This is the only one of twelve
                        
voices the wind finds, leaves in me.
                        
All I shed, rehearsing axes.


                       (from "Thief With Leaf" by Brian Chan)
  

  

NY SLIDE 10.8: SHOCK AND REGRET

  

                     
              At the library desk, as Radix walked in, Dr. Balleret and Judy Wiener
              looked up
and smiled, as if happy at that moment to see him. "There he is,
              the man's everyone's been asking for,"  Dr. Balleret announced. There was a
              brightness in her eyes he'd come to interpret as danger signals. He nodded
              and looked at Judy Wiener, wondering what the excitement was about.

              "Did you hear?" she said. Heard what? "Xavier died over the weekend." The 
              shock and disbelief must have showed on his face. They watched him
              closely and, since it was apparent he hadn't heard, they seemed to be
              measuring the impact the news had on him. He simply repeated the word
              Died? and waited to be be told what happened.

              Dr. Balleret tried to relieve the shock by saying next: "I knew him by his full
              name, Malcolm Xavier Haltaufauderhude. He didn't come here often, but
              when he did I'd say to him, Malcolm Xavier Haltaufauderhude, to what do
              we owe the pleasure of your company
? And he'd say…" (she stiffened her
              back and raised her bony arms in an effort to dramatize Xavier's manner)
              "…all puffed up with pride, or maybe he was upset about something, I
              don't owe you no book, Miss Balleret
. Just a little game we played
              whenever he showed up, which wasn't too regular. He was such a pleasant
              young man when you got to know him. He gave me no trouble." And Judy
              Wiener said, "We knew him only as Xavier. He was a hard worker."

              By then Radix had sufficiently recovered from the first news impact. His 
              eyes fastened on Judy Wiener's face.
 

              He couldn't understand her apparent nonchalance. This after all was
              shattering news. This was Xavier they were talking about. Her Xavier.
              They'd been to the hospital to visit him, Judy Wiener and Radix. Not Dr.
              Balleret. Surely there was more to be said between them, some expression
              of sorrow; not this idle chatter in the library.
 

              Dr. Balleret now wondered if there was sufficient time to make a public
              announcement, during the homeroom class break. She found a ballpoint in
              a drawer and began taking down particulars from Judy Wiener; and Radix
              drifted off to find a work desk. He half-expected Judy Wiener to come over
              when she was done, but she didn't.

              Dr. Balleret made the brief announcement about Xavier, but to many it
              sounded like old news. Those who knew him had heard already about his 
              death. Most students and teachers didn't know who he was; his name
              sounded foreign, and in any event he was from Special Education.
 

              Later in the teacher's cafeteria he saw Judy Wiener again, eating heartily,
              and deep in conversation with a plump teacher who moved food to her
              mouth with practiced speed and pleasure. He stopped at the table, still
              thinking they needed to say something more to each other about what had
              happened.
 

              She looked up, her face cheerful and serene; she gave him a bright "Hi". 
              He shook his head and by way of broaching the subject said, "So, what a
              shame this had to happen." She shook her head, catching his meaning: "Yes,
              isn't it terrible? Isn't it terrible?"
 

              She put down her fork and turned in her chair to him, as if to pass on
              information of a confidential nature. Still poised to moved on and sit
              elsewhere, he leaned forward.
 

              And in a voice just above a whisper she said, "I only found out about it this
              morning, from the kids in class." Radix opened his eyes, amazed. "That's
              how I heard he'd died. One of the kids told me."  She seemed unhappy
              about that. "But didn't his mother contact you?" he asked. Judy Wiener
              shook her head, as if very disappointed.

             It became clearer to Radix. Xavier's mother had not called Xavier's teacher
             at John Wayne Cotter to let her know her student had died.
 

             She dabbed her lips with a paper napkin, and looked hard at Radix as if to  
             say, How could she do something like that?  I should have been the first in 
             the building to hear about this.
And Radix shrugged his shoulders,
             suggesting, Yes, that's strange. There must be some explanation.
 

             "Anyway, the funeral is set for tomorrow morning, so I was told. Are you
              going?'
 

             "I don't know. Tomorrow morning? While we're in classrooms?" 

              "You can arrange for someone to cover your class…it shouldn't be a
              problem…talk to you later."

              Radix moved away. He'd seen the first twitches of sadness on her face. He
              heard a little crack in her voice, like something lurking in her throat,
              working to subvert her. It sounded like the Judy Wiener he knew.

                      (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 

HOME COME TO COUPLING

                              
                 

                    Night watch the eagle prize titled, you dove breast day
                    maker. Heart heave not too close to his scout feathers long
                    
aloft  ̶  home  ̶  fortunes balding.
                                                                   Tier attired for mate he'll trade
                    our plantain rough stuff for chips and retrofits.

                    If your skiff never left its island berth he'd have his way your 
                    way not grained to stay. In sandals he might propose a resident
                    vista: you could do a lot worse dashing wool hat through the snow
                    bells up North ringing. Our bearing strait is not a site for frost
                    no cross road cues.
                                                                                            Besides, observe
                    how, sweet on after noons, our grazing office pens shut down
  ̶  
                    Islanda Nervosa, tide orange yields shore lime.
           
            
                              Friends fast talking might conceive a link with him sets up maypole
                    limb weave. Our suns need rest sheds; desire, a colony turning
                    cheek on stilts, could wobble to unattainable.

                    With pipe line accessories he'd front gait an invest in native
                    shingles, fruit fresh trays, a choice of shanty smiles; the root 
                    scent dialectals give off soothing travel scrapes of skin. 

                    My smooth avocado, he'll pre-enter  ̶  you not quite in the right
                   
position to (you) know  ̶  Silo maintenance costs!  ̶  skim cream
                    your prime till tempers set off alarms blow horn men hear.  

                                                                      Brace for it  ̴̶  his thinking dug in
                   
you sweet sour sap juicing; faith cupped for tea steep rounds.
                    Wait for it  ̶  rush come of sacrifice redeemed rewinding.

                                                                            Otherwise, time to remove
                    the moon boots  ̶  okay!okay!  ̶  time to poke the marabunta nest.

                                                                                     – W.W.

 

 


                         

                            
                              

    

                         

                       +ADD+SUBTRACT+DIVIDE+MULTIPLY+

                           Wanting what You are for myself,
                            the self which I forget so
                         as to want You, is like striking
                         flint against my heart's stone whose spar-
                            king greed seeds a thousand fires
                         that feed every storm we invoke.

                   (from "Within The Wind" © by Brian Chan)