POEMS FOR HERONS HOME (& BACK AWAY)

 

                                                                                "There is a famine of years in the land…
                                                                                 It always turns out that much is salvageable."
                                                                                                – John Ashbery, "Chinese Whispers"

            

               At the airport they greet you with steel pan and home
              made cake, forgetting you have your own black pudding
              lady, unmatchable still (one day her daughter will send for her.)
              And they counting you as 'tourist' now: all courtesy
              of the Ministry of Everything you value.

              So softly walk 'cross roads dust memoried, for the mercy
              of tides lowered eyes. Word about you reached the city before
              you cleared customs, courtesy of the Ministry of Everywhere (hey,
              just remember who won, who controls now!) Hands that vend clap
              roti paddle count years of little else. And check that
              migrant accent, bai; you're welcome's bitter sweet.

              A photograve honor guard full moons the nights
              when life felt royal arse hard and folk blocked debt with singing.
              Seawalling youth, stopped short of 'treason', resist the draft to Hail!
              the mangrove raggedness of state: saplings blue (& empire greys)
              drawn like fold refusing lines in the last Reich rubble.
              Bold and best minds? gone. In sight no founding cranes.

              Behind jhandis on the Corentyne lay low if you know
              what's good for you: with maps & reptiles rivers run.
              Bright tags on travel bags, the flash you're doing well
              are village give aways. From liming pools the flightless
              larvae whisper wait for halos game balls
              tossed and intercepting play I stream you not.

              And what's that shouting? gun mouths, party cries, a stadium six.
              And who's that stumbling out the yard? ripped
              blouse, scratched weeping thighs? ow, chile, the nation.
              Run to help, or walk away; milk or lemon, you'll pay.
                                                                                  – W.W. 

                            

                   

                  

                          NATIVE STRANGER

                   When you step off the 'plane, you are another
                   but clinging to an idea of yesterday
                   and knowing which pocket holds your papers help
                   to prolong the useful fiction of a you.  

                   Other familiar shapes of pictures and words
                   are waiting to pick you up and lead you across
                   the gaps between the impressions of a man
                   you must keep flashing so as to keep breathing.

                   The no-nonsense look in your eyes reveals you
                   to be a betrayed lover bent on revenge-
                   ful reconciliation with a city
                   that's still switching on and off as much as you.

                   When you stride through its tight streets you are floating
                   on the air of the knowledge that you don't have
                   to live here but in your stomach is a stone,
                   a mushroom tough to vomit that you'll have to.

                   Old loves and aunts are here to prop your fictions
                   and you've brought them the appropriate presents
                   to celebrate what you now call their courage
                   to have stayed in a place you still can't quite stand.

                   You keep opening drawers that smell of anguish
                   you recognise though it no longer fits you.
                   Yet you keep coming back as though to witness
                   that running from spectres makes them more solid.

                   But the surer you think them the stranger you
                   feel, for what you see most clear you're farthest from.
                   Near the hotel door closed your suitcase you keep.
                   Next to your heart your passport like a shield sweats.
                      

                            (from "Fabula Rasa" by Brian Chan)

 

 

 

 

NY SLIDE XLI: MAN WITHOUT A COUNTRY

 

   "I've been drafted into hall patrol," Radix told her.
  "Drafted? What do you mean, drafted?"
  "Actually they were asking for volunteers to patrol the hallways, you know, during
periods when we're not teaching."
   Mrs. Haliburton was suddenly fierce-lipped and silent. Radix reined in his fervour. He
thought she might be impressed with his readiness to help in the running of the school.
   "See, this is when you realize the administration is running out of ideas."
   "I don't follow you."
   "You're going to be walking around…with clipboard and handcuffs…taking down
names like you're arresting people…what does that say to these kids?"
  "Yes, but, we're trying to get them back in the classrooms."
  "Which is where the problem is in the first case. Maybe we should ask ourselves, why
are they wandering the hallways? What's driving them outside the classroom where they
should be in the first case? Hall patrols!"
   "Well, I'm new here, still feeling my way around," Radix said half-apologetically.
   "You strike me as a man without a country," Mrs. Haliburton said, looking directly
in his eyes. 
  Coming out of nowhere the remark jolted Radix. He fidgeted and glanced at his
watch.
   And Mrs. Haliburton, sensing she had touched a nerve, leaned back and said:
   "Now there's a problem for you. We have people coming to these shores, some of them
from faraway places. We have a Russian, did you know that?…from Russia…and this teacher in the Math department, from India, they say he was a university professor back
in India. Well, honey, he's having a hard time here. I have kids come to me complaining
they don't understand a word he says. He speaks this strange English. Put him in a
classroom with kids from the Bronx, what kind of learning environment are we talking
about?"
   She held her chin up and she stared at Radix as if her insights were unassailable.
   The bell rang; a swelling roar spread through the building as the hallways filled up. Radix sprang to his feet, uneasy but relieved. Mrs. Haliburton smiled and said she was pleased
to have met him; conversation with him was quite stimulating; her door was always
open; he could drop by any time.

                                           (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

NY SLIDE XL: FIRST IMPRESSIONS

 

  When Radix first met Mrs. Haliburton he was unaware of her reputation as a woman
 whose power in the comunity was not to be taken lightly. He happened to wander past
 the open door of her office, and he caught a glimpse of her looking out the window,
 seemingly lost in thought. He hesitated; he was struck by the empty feel of the room,
 the spartan arrangement of chairs.
   "What goes on in here?' he asked with cheerful innocence.
   "Why don't you come in and find out?" the lady at the desk replied.
   He was startled to discover she knew who he was; knew his name, the department he
worked in.
   "I hear you're from the Caribbean islands."
   "Where did you hear that?"
   "My father came from the island of St Kitts."
   Mrs. Haliburton seemed friendly and engaging, and mysteriously self-possessed; a stout
woman in her forties, with firmly upholstered breasts; dressed with an older woman's
concern for clothes that reflected her age and status and identity. There were thin
elegant streaks of grey in her full head of hair which reminded Radix of island women of
prominence who devoted their energies to organizing other people's lives. In Mrs.
Haliburton's case there was the desk, the telephone, an air of leashed impatience; but
no sense of her room as a humming centre of activity.
   "So how're you getting along here?" she asked.
   "I'm still feeling my way around."
   "I hope you decide to stay with us. We don't have too many like you here?"
   "You mean people from the islands?"
   "I mean, there aren't too many black men in the teaching profession. You can count
the ones we have on your fingers. Our community needs more men like you…role models
for the kids…young men with your neat little Malcolm X beard, and…" she gave a fist
pump "..fire in their bellies."
   She was looking at him directly, as if measuring his worth. She asked where he lived
and was delighted to learn he lived in the Bronx. It prompted her to introduce her theory
of borough residency requirements for teachers.
   "You weren't here during the snow days last fall…see, lots of teachers couldn't get in,
they live far outside the borough. The kids made it in through all that snow, but not the
teachers. In fact we had so many teachers out, we ended up warehousing kids in the
lunch room for most of the day."
   "So how do we fix that problem?" Radix asked.
   Mrs. Haliburton's face flashed a look of disappointment.
        (from "Ah, Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)


 

 


RISING DOWN AND SERVING FIRE)

 

 

                          
                            ihear the trees, itouch your roots

                              Earth spinning out of control

                            heavens high rise, while hell lies low
                               Earth spinning out of control 

                            greenhouse gases, foraging masses
                               Earth spinning out of control  

                            raining toads birds show entrails 'inconclusive'
                               Earth spinning out of control

                            swollen four billion years mother nature knows
                               Earth spinning out of control

                            "bone gristle poppin' from continuous grindin'
                             grapes of wrath in a shapely glass"
                        
                            carat-color-clarity > clogged artery? momentum
                               Earth spinning out of control

                            scorpions in the head, helmet turban or cap
                               Earth spinning out of control

                            "know where you're going even when it's dark"
                               Earth spinning out of control

                            days rising down, while nights serve fire
                              Earth spinning out of control
                                                                            -W.W.  
             

                  

                            WAITING ON THE WAITRESS

                             Empty hands need fire
                             to play with, to burn by,
                             so as to smoke a new

                                 map of the world in her tired
                                 face now shadowing like a cloud
                                 the questions of your open hand.
                                   (from "Gift Of Screws" by Brian Chan)   


      

                             
                                                                     
                                

NY SLIDE XXXVIX: THE PROPOSAL

 

   When they got inside her office Pete Plimpler looked around, then walked over to
the window. Mrs. Haliburton took off her coat and asked what the problem was.
   Pete Plimpler cleared his throat; he spoke in a clear measured tone. Mrs. Haliburton
was stunned by what she heard.
   "He had the nerve, are you listening, Noreen?…he had the audacity to suggest I give
up my office…that's what he said…he wants me to switch rooms…give up my room,
with the view…exactly…that's what I'm saying, he moves here, I go there!"
   Pete Plimpler was quite serious. Might Mrs. Haliburton not feel more comfortable, he
began respectfully, occupying his office, away from "the hurly burly" of the second floor?
The reason was simple: the location of her office, directly above the Principal's office,
made it ideal for quick communication between someone like himself and "our mutual
friend" below. Besides, with the elevator breaking down when it felt like, the logistics
of the situation would seem to suggest such an arrangement could be of benefit to
everyone.
   "Well, honey," she told Noreen,"I. don't. give. a pail of horse droppings about the
logistics of his situation..that's right! They're going to have to get a court order to
make me vacate this room."
   Actually, she was pleased with the way she handled Pete Plimpler that morning. She
tried not to look startled; she listened with fingers splayed thoughtfully on her jaw, her
eyes never wavering. And she gave the impression she was somewhat intrigued by the
proposal.
   When he'd finished Pete Plimpler focussed his beady eyes on her face, convinced by
her nodding silence that he'd persuaded her, that she would acquiesce. He seemed to
be waiting for a response right on the spot.
   But the phone rang and Mrs. Haliburton picked it up. She raised her hand, a finger
asked him to hold on one moment. Pete Plimpler didn't care to hold on while she talked
on the phone. He wiggled his finger and whispered he'd get back to her on the matter,
no hurry; and he slipped out the door.
   "Noreen, didn't I tell you something like this was going to happen?…that's what I said
too…exactly…well, he'd better get ready to rumble with this black woman."
          (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)





NY SLIDE XXXVIII: PETE PLIMPLER (A.P. ENGLISH)

 

   The first challenge to her office space came from the supervisor of the English Dept.,
Pete Plimpler. He caught Mrs. Haliburton early one morning as she strolled into the main
office. She got the distinct impression he'd been lying in wait for her; one minute he
appeared to be studying notices pinned on the main office board; the next he looked
around, smiled and announced, "Ah, there you are…"
   Mrs Haliburton threw her arms up in mock surrender – what offence had she
committed to warrant his attention? – her bosoms shaking with mirth. And Pete
Plimpler cleared his throat, touched her gently on the elbow and assured her with
corresponding good humor she had committed no offence. "At least not yet."
   "My heart went bumpity, bump," Mrs. Haliburton later told Noreen, girlfriend at the
Board of Ed. "All these years this man has nothing to say to me, walks by me like I'm
the corner mailbox…and now all of a sudden, he's happy to see me?…I mean, be still
my heart."
   "Are you going up to the second floor?" Pete Plimpler asked. "There's something I've
been meaning to discuss with you."
   Smiling, still mystified, she walked with him to the elevator.
   Mrs. Haliburton was a bosomy woman with firm, fleshy arms and a full head of hair
she kept well groomed. Pete Plimpler was short and slim, with thinning grey hair; he
wore an obligatory jacket and tie. He walked head lowered, deep in thought, his manner
gruff; and he gave the impression he'd rather be anywhere but in the Bronx, among
people not exactly genteel in manner; who wore their emotions on their sleeves; and
were quick to take offence. 
   Once the elevator door closed Mrs. Haliburton sensed the physical advantage she might
otherwise not have had over him. Seizing the moment her ebullient nature slipped off
its leash.
   Her voice boomed and walloped Pete Plimpler's head and ears as she complained
jocularly about the arbitrary nature of the elevator which some days got stuck with its
door open on one floor while people on other floors pressed the buttons, waiting and
waiting. Did he have any idea how many pounds she lost whenever this happened,
heaving herself up the stairs?
   Her laughter made him cringe inside. He stood erect and smiled painfully, his winter
pale face tight with distress. Yes, he told her, he had been a victim of elevator misuse. 
In more ways than she could ever imagine.
              (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

POEMS FOR MOBILE TONES (& BELL RINGS STILLED)

 

 

                                                                                    for John Mc T. & Zulaika A.

              Time was, papi still sighs, you'd shout
              after a purse snatcher – back when it carried
              your personals, cash (now credit cards): the quiver
              of signatures.

              Today an angry young woman blocks the car of a man
              who snatched her iphone, glares his getaway.
              NYcity kids turn back, refuse front entrance search,
              brood in class if told hand over mobiles.

              You must tell me what? you can't hold, eye to eye display?
              take back, retouch before your message finger
              scrolls or sends?
          
              Ah, papi,
              radiant chat could stack & smoke in the head
              that must be emptied. My time, your space not measured, brewed
              could serve an instant gamer. Dark villages awaiting postcards,
              footsteps pick up now; ol' folk walk & call like new;
                 like fireflies cells blue glow
                 like cicadas long distance beeps.

              Besides, new solitudes require
              offsets wired (& pharm domains). Not enough the wind,
              naked lip strolls; paint & brush myth making
              by the sea; your pet fur combed. 
                                         
              Bed mates betrayed dare not now swear – the evidence's saved!
              – that love was hardly there. Each suspect
              breath's now snapped & filed; we have visuals;
              smart cursors will track you while you dance or sleep.

                Hold on one sec
                That's my ring tone
                Minutes cost, I must answer
                  "Hola
                   You know what time it is?
                   Traders, day for night, is who they are.
                   Si…si...que madre!  
                  (These nets of need, this planet of desires)
                   I'm on the train now
                   On the train.
                                           -W.W.

 

 

 

                   CLOUDWALK

                  The wind and sun collaborate
                   in a kindly balance, the grass
                   nods and points towards a new church

                   still being built whose steeple draws
                   me on along a ridge towards
                   you. This is one way of being

                   within you as you drift away.
                   So the wind dandelions know.
                   I think of picking two for you

                   but decide against offering you
                   bleeding things and leave them to breathe
                   without fear. Near the church

                   I can't yet get past the facade
                   of an old beauty taking new
                   shape too early now to enter.

                   But now's the right time, late enough
                   to turn and hurry back to you,
                   making flowers wince as I run

                   to meet you dripping green rain
                   through cracks of the new spire pointing
                   in the clear distance that we share.
                          (from "Fabula Rasa" by Brian Chan)


                 

 

 

NY SLIDE XXXVII: POWER PLAY

 

   Her office on the second floor permitted Mrs. Haliburton a view of the front entrance.
  She was reluctant to give up this view. She was able to observe everyone, students and  
  staff, coming in, and report on their morning disposition. Case in point, the incident
  that developed from the fracas in the car park across the street, where a student was
  stabbed while onlookers jumped on the cars for a better view of the fight.  
    The car park had been used by some teachers without formal permission. It was
  intended for residents of the apartment building but since they owned very few cars
  there were always spots available. For years teachers, glad for the feeling of security
  the enclosure offered, drove in and parked in the empty spots.
     Imagine their surprise, the shock, one morning, when they arrived to find the
  entrance blocked.
     A group of residents, mainly women, were walking up and down in what seemed a
  kind of protest action. They lowered a chain to let a resident car out; they raised it to
  block teachers from entering.
    Mrs. Haliburton was at her desk observing the situation, and reporting developments
  blow by blow to Noreen at the Board of Ed.  
    "Here comes…I think it's Mr. Estwick…teaches Biology…a young man, he started
  last fall, his wife had a baby the other day…um hmm…he drives in from the Island…
  he's been parking right outside the front entrance which nobody in their right mind
  would do, these kids don't think twice about sitting on your hood when they want to
  hang out after school…well, he had his sideview mirror broken, and the antenna bent
  …you'd think he'd learn his lesson by now…no, he continues to park there…on the
  same spot…um hmm…Now wait, this is interesting…Mrs. Karnipp just drove up…
  they've raised the chain…she's getting out the car…she's speaking to them… My
  goodness! she's really upset…she's backing away!…Lord knows where she'll park today." 
     Later Mrs. Haliburton couldn't resist asking Mrs. Karnipp about the encounter. They
  were in the teachers' cafeteria. Mrs. Karnipp was sipping coffee and pulling on her
  cigarette.
    "I noticed you had some trouble this morning…with the people across the street…in
  the parking lot?" she probed. 
     "You know, I've been parking there for years…never had any problems with those
  people. It never occurred to me I was taking someone's parking spot…I mean, there
  are more spaces there than people own cars."
     Mrs. Karnipp's eyes were wide open with pain and distress for all the world to see.
  Her fingers with the cigarette scratched the air. She searched Mrs. Haliburton's face
  for some understanding of the chaos she'd been thrown into.
    "Well it is their parking lot. They can do whatever they want with it," Mrs. Haliburton
  said matter o' factly. 

    

NY SLIDE XXXVI: VIOLA HALIBURTON (SPECIAL ED.)

 

    Mrs. Haliburton arrived at the school at about seven in the morning. She was driven
  there by her husband in their Cadillac Seville. It idled for a few minutes at the front
  entrance while its occupants, looking straight ahead, exchanged important reminders;
  then Mrs. Haliburton stepped out. She was among the first to arrive, and often the
  first to leave.
     Her departure, about an hour before the exodus of the three thousand students,
  was also through the front entrance. The Seville was not there to take her home. She
  walked. Sometimes she stopped by the post office; chatted on the sidewalk with old
  ladies gripping shopping carts; then she caught the bus. A lady of social standing, she
  felt at ease in the streets of her community.
     Once in the building she attended to paperwork for half an hour; then she picked
  up the phone and called her "girlfriends", women who like Mrs. Haliburton worked at
  a desk; single or divorced black women, like Noreen at the Board of Education, or
  Thelma at the Superintendent's office. They formed part of her valuable network of
  information. 
     Networking for Mrs. Haliburton was as important as the underground railroad back
  in the old bad days. She had her sources, people she relied on to leak information
  from downtown. Often she learnt in advance about new proposals for John Wayne
  Cotter H.S. She'd pass on the leaks to astonished colleagues with a wink and a smile,
  and "Don't tell anyone you heard it here first."
     Other bits of information she filtered to people in the community, folks she met on
  Sundays at her husband's church; influential grassroots people whom the Bronx
  politicians courted and turned to for votes.
                              (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)