for John Mc T. & Zulaika A.
Time was, papi still sighs, you'd shout
after a purse snatcher – back when it carried
your personals, cash (now credit cards): the quiver
of signatures.
Today an angry young woman blocks the car of a man
who snatched her iphone, glares his getaway.
NYcity kids turn back, refuse front entrance search,
brood in class if told hand over mobiles.
You must tell me what? you can't hold, eye to eye display?
take back, retouch before your message finger
scrolls or sends?
Ah, papi,
radiant chat could stack & smoke in the head
that must be emptied. My time, your space not measured, brewed
could serve an instant gamer. Dark villages awaiting postcards,
footsteps pick up now; ol' folk walk & call like new;
like fireflies cells blue glow
like cicadas long distance beeps.
Besides, new solitudes require
offsets wired (& pharm domains). Not enough the wind,
naked lip strolls; paint & brush myth making
by the sea; your pet fur combed.
Bed mates betrayed dare not now swear – the evidence's saved!
– that love was hardly there. Each suspect
breath's now snapped & filed; we have visuals;
smart cursors will track you while you dance or sleep.
Hold on one sec
That's my ring tone
Minutes cost, I must answer
"Hola…
You know what time it is?
Traders, day for night, is who they are.
Si…si...que madre!
(These nets of need, this planet of desires)
I'm on the train now
On the train.
-W.W.
CLOUDWALK
The wind and sun collaborate
in a kindly balance, the grass
nods and points towards a new church
still being built whose steeple draws
me on along a ridge towards
you. This is one way of being
within you as you drift away.
So the wind dandelions know.
I think of picking two for you
but decide against offering you
bleeding things and leave them to breathe
without fear. Near the church
I can't yet get past the facade
of an old beauty taking new
shape too early now to enter.
But now's the right time, late enough
to turn and hurry back to you,
making flowers wince as I run
to meet you dripping green rain
through cracks of the new spire pointing
in the clear distance that we share.
(from "Fabula Rasa" by Brian Chan)
Her office on the second floor permitted Mrs. Haliburton a view of the front entrance.
She was reluctant to give up this view. She was able to observe everyone, students and
staff, coming in, and report on their morning disposition. Case in point, the incident
that developed from the fracas in the car park across the street, where a student was
stabbed while onlookers jumped on the cars for a better view of the fight.
The car park had been used by some teachers without formal permission. It was
intended for residents of the apartment building but since they owned very few cars
there were always spots available. For years teachers, glad for the feeling of security
the enclosure offered, drove in and parked in the empty spots.
Imagine their surprise, the shock, one morning, when they arrived to find the
entrance blocked.
A group of residents, mainly women, were walking up and down in what seemed a
kind of protest action. They lowered a chain to let a resident car out; they raised it to
block teachers from entering.
Mrs. Haliburton was at her desk observing the situation, and reporting developments
blow by blow to Noreen at the Board of Ed.
"Here comes…I think it's Mr. Estwick…teaches Biology…a young man, he started
last fall, his wife had a baby the other day…um hmm…he drives in from the Island…
he's been parking right outside the front entrance which nobody in their right mind
would do, these kids don't think twice about sitting on your hood when they want to
hang out after school…well, he had his sideview mirror broken, and the antenna bent
…you'd think he'd learn his lesson by now…no, he continues to park there…on the
same spot…um hmm…Now wait, this is interesting…Mrs. Karnipp just drove up…
they've raised the chain…she's getting out the car…she's speaking to them… My
goodness! she's really upset…she's backing away!…Lord knows where she'll park today."
Later Mrs. Haliburton couldn't resist asking Mrs. Karnipp about the encounter. They
were in the teachers' cafeteria. Mrs. Karnipp was sipping coffee and pulling on her
cigarette.
"I noticed you had some trouble this morning…with the people across the street…in
the parking lot?" she probed.
"You know, I've been parking there for years…never had any problems with those
people. It never occurred to me I was taking someone's parking spot…I mean, there
are more spaces there than people own cars."
Mrs. Karnipp's eyes were wide open with pain and distress for all the world to see.
Her fingers with the cigarette scratched the air. She searched Mrs. Haliburton's face
for some understanding of the chaos she'd been thrown into.
"Well it is their parking lot. They can do whatever they want with it," Mrs. Haliburton
said matter o' factly.
Mrs. Haliburton arrived at the school at about seven in the morning. She was driven
there by her husband in their Cadillac Seville. It idled for a few minutes at the front
entrance while its occupants, looking straight ahead, exchanged important reminders;
then Mrs. Haliburton stepped out. She was among the first to arrive, and often the
first to leave.
Her departure, about an hour before the exodus of the three thousand students,
was also through the front entrance. The Seville was not there to take her home. She
walked. Sometimes she stopped by the post office; chatted on the sidewalk with old
ladies gripping shopping carts; then she caught the bus. A lady of social standing, she
felt at ease in the streets of her community.
Once in the building she attended to paperwork for half an hour; then she picked
up the phone and called her "girlfriends", women who like Mrs. Haliburton worked at
a desk; single or divorced black women, like Noreen at the Board of Education, or
Thelma at the Superintendent's office. They formed part of her valuable network of
information.
Networking for Mrs. Haliburton was as important as the underground railroad back
in the old bad days. She had her sources, people she relied on to leak information
from downtown. Often she learnt in advance about new proposals for John Wayne
Cotter H.S. She'd pass on the leaks to astonished colleagues with a wink and a smile,
and "Don't tell anyone you heard it here first."
Other bits of information she filtered to people in the community, folks she met on
Sundays at her husband's church; influential grassroots people whom the Bronx
politicians courted and turned to for votes.
(from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)
for Carroll M. & Joseph P.
While shepherds watch, what choice? what chance?
our grounded brown black flock: dreaming
of pastured futures; weary
of crabgrass from the past.
The Skipper, we tried, all cricket-sweatered; the cracked field
strips not level;
plus now the roster's not for gentlemen at play.
The Captain recaps those first tossed ocean renting
timber ships; bulked labour in irons below, the stomach turns
anchoring here.
The Chief spreads fear of fat bricks and lying rumps; dogs in cartridge
garlands, must wear shades; plus natty public servants plotting
panty raids.
The President, Prime Minister? skull caps for Trust me,
I studied overseas! They talk bowl smooth like stool
softener, making life so easy to pass.
The Boss – dem fellas ride hard, boy! overseeing
what we do with warning cuss and stop watch; can't
catch a quick break with doudou.
No, no don't mention the King, and don't try the gender thing;
yes, Auntie K and Sister P
folk friendly and carnival is we ting.
O, the Shaman – well, hear nuh,
this writer chap camped out in the forest with that
to feasibly survey; he came out hearing voices, grabbed wing
for doctors mapping ghost trails faraway.
Our last big shot > the space ship > crop circles
in the sugar cane fields: when it land spindly-legged
fellas, tendril
arms wave wide, will appear offering work and party.
Call them what you will, come along;
and roll out red carpet today;
and smile,
'cause if they fancy they might promise lift up & away.
– W.W.
NOTIONS OF A NATION
A Problem somehow to be solved
by our achieving a Consensus
then turning back to our unsolved lives.
A Future we cannot afford
not to invest in, lest our children
curse us for leaving them less than heaven.
A tribe we must worry about
before it's Too Late and it breaks up
and we're left wandering in a desert.
Strands of rock and river and road
woven slack by the keepers of light
that confounds the terms of earnest men.
(from "Fabula Rasa" by Brian Chan)
On Friday evenings Amarelle would urge him to take her out to dinner. They'd
gone out twice before, crossing a bridge into Manhattan and dining at a Greek
restaurant. She smiled and made small talk, commenting on the decor and
overdoing her excitement when the waiter took their order; while Radix, quiet
and stiff, looked around and wondered what was no longer appealing about dining
at home as they did on the island.
When he stopped their eating out evenings – the one weeknight of dressing
up, getting away from the decrepit neighborhood and dining like people with
money to spend – Amarelle never forgave him. Now on Fridays there would be
for him only "pot luck". And this evening she hadn't even come home from work!
There was a Chinese Takeout on the next block.
He stood on the stoop, buttoning his jacket, and he stared across the road
where hours before someone had been killed. Strips of yellow police tape left
behind flapped about on the sidewalk. A little girl emerged from the bodega
with a bag of groceries. The Budweiser neon sign glowed and promised fun.
At the Chinese Takeout the woman took his order without looking at him.
Numbah 34, right? He hesitated; he changed his order, wanting something
simpler. Okay, you want Numbah 35? She seemed eager to take his order, get
it bagged, take his money; her eyes were cast down, her hands busy with
detail behind the counter. And behind her – wearing their white chef hats and
labouring over steaming bowls and pans – her Chinese helpers.
He stood still looking out at the streets, arms folded, pondering the price of
existence out there. The Chinese shop was next to a supermarket, and adjacent
to a place for cashing checks. On the other side of the street, a towering
apartment building, through whose glass doors a steady stream flowed – children
babies in strollers, overweight women.
Two young men came in and instantly swept aside his reflective mood. They looked
at Radix, at his clothes, his shoes, all in one quick measuring motion; then they
looked away. They came up to the plexiglass partition and rapped hard with knuckles.
The Chinese woman looked up from her counter in terror; she pulled a pencil from her
hair and waited.
"Numbah 36!" The Chinese woman repeated the order just to be sure. "Didn't I
just say that?… Wha's the matter…you fucking deaf?…Didn't I just say Numbah 36?
That's what I want…and a side of fries. I don't know what this chump here wants."
And his friend – bulky, babyfaced, wearing a bubble jacket – grabbed him and tried to
put his head in an arm lock for calling him a chump.
(from "Ah, Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)
When finally he got back home there were police cars and an ambulance in
front the apartment building across the street, and knots of people on the
sidewalk. What was going on?
Someone shot the Super of the building. Put a bullet through his head. How
did this happen? When did it happen?
The two overweight women didn't recognize him in his jacket and brief case;
they shrugged their shoulders. He didn't speak Spanish well, and he appeared
to creep up on the women, startling them. Like everyone they waited for some
sort of closure to the excitement; the dead man taken away; the police cars
and ambulance driving off; the apartment building with its graffiti and broken
doorway handed back to its occupants.
When did this happen? Radix asked again. The women shrugged their shoulders
again, shifting their heavy bodies. Hey, I live on this block too, he wanted to
shout.
He had an urge next to see the dead man's body. He remembered vaguely a
stocky man with a cigar stump in his mouth and a bunch of keys at the hip,
going in and out the front door with a mop and pail; and arguing, always
arguing, in defiance or defence, with tenants in the building.
He crossed the road, ducked under the yellow police tape and peered into
the entrance. He saw a covered body, just the shoes and socks on the man's
feet. White men in dark suits stood around; they turned and looked at him,
struck by the jacket and tie, the intense curious face. They asked what he
wanted, did he live in the building. Radix shook his head and backed away.
Down the block four kids were playing street basketball; the hoop, an old
milk crate nailed to a lamppost. Two police officers, no longer needed,
ambled back to their cars, smooth white faces grim. They had the air about
them of men called in to put down some local disturbance, leaving their cars
up on the sidewalk, just about anywhere until this nasty business was over.
The basketball got loose and one of the officers caught it, did a quick
dribble, then shaped himself to take the shot. The boys froze where they
stood and watched. The shot hit the rim and went wide. His partner cracked
a thin smile and shook his head like a disappointed coach. Radix went inside.
(from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)
for Jean-Ann F-R
Heard from a young man the other day: about his girl,
Savitri, and her aurora moment: she walks into a store,
the Bazaar Bombay (no, in Georgetown's Regent Street)
intent on buying some lovelaced wispy thing to cache
his eye in her green heart's bursting folder.
Back among the bolts of blue, the layers of crimson spangles: a bony
neckless face, earrings of metal, eye wells of abeer, cries Holi,
Holi. She flees the store into midday streets stuttering from heat,
straight to his front door, his couch; stripped speechless –
what just happened?
Limb tinder twined for fires that curve and calm the eyes
stared at the ceiling as the mystery spread. He worked,
a drill shift, vowed to root all spirits unsummoned out; spike
& beam a faith up down like girders for their love.
After she'd gone, he logged, he said, on to a soccer match:
ballers at London's Wembley Stadium, after halftime; trotting
back on the field: making signs of the cross,
pointing to the sky, touching the ground:
So sure someone is watching…that cruising satellite
eye, or, after the first star ignited, the undivided
One in front a galactic plasma screen, Chair
of the grand design – from microbe to first breath.
The Bombay girl? seems now she knows – the first
communion saved – how longings interned hold and surge;
what profiles sleepless roam the earth. With navel bare
come March she'll spray coloured water powders flowers
of shielding; she'll chant to chase shadows & shudders
of lingam away.
Did what?…her young man see the light…nah..
stopped playing the field, though.
– W.W.
RECOGNITIONS
Scraps of the soul drifting over the river of my eye,
each on his or her angled way of essential
forgetting of the threads linking us all,
shred my heart into sparks of fear
and of joy that leap with the finding, and fade with the loss
of links frayed by the tension off seeing too well,
the impulse of recognition staggered
by a relentless remembering
both the finest stitch and the most ruthless unravelling
of a quilt still spreading, impossible to check
whose patches of light are too brief to be
held and too sharp to be ignored.
(from "Gift Of Screws" by Brian Chan)
He felt first the surprise of impact; he saw the head of the driver snap back,
his hands raised in the air a little theatrically. The lanes beside his kept moving;
vehicles behind him tried to manoeuvre out of his lane, honking in frustration at
what his apparent carelessness had caused.
The driver approaching him wore a baseball cap and sneakers; his shirt was
unbuttoned; he seemed not to mind the cold temperature; he had a beer
drinker's belly and a very annoyed manner. Radix watched him, ready to admit
it was all his fault, waiting for the first indication of how the matter would be
resolved.
He sensed someone else watching: across the road, standing on the cracked
asphalt, a man and a ferocious looking dog. He was dressed in a grey sweat suit;
his face under the hood looked grizzled, gaunt. His dog sniffed the grass and
tugged at the leash, wanting to move on; but the man wasn't ready. Radix caught
his eye, felt his anticipation of something dramatic about to happen.
Meanwhile the driver had inspected his rear bumper which looked dented but
was otherwise intact. Radix' vehicle had gotten the worse of it, a smashed head-
lamp; and as he tried to gauge the extent of the damage the man raised his arms
in a gesture of disbelief and anger.
He came up to Radix, "What the fuck?"… staring, waiting…"What the fuck?";
then he walked back to the front of his car and reached inside, for a cigarette
pack.
Though not threatening this behavior left Radix uneasy.The man lit his
cigarette and with his arms bracing the car appeared to be pondering his
options. At intervals he said "Shit" with strange vehemence, as if building up
emotional steam. He seemed to be waiting for Radix to say something, and
Radix knew that the tone and choice of his first words would determine what
happened next.
He glanced at the man with the dog across the street. He could feel the man's
knowingness, his amused appraisal: Like fish out of water… Don't know what
the fuck you're doing, right fella? He looked back down the road, at miles of
backed up traffic. People driving by gave him quick looks of fury. A wind gust
sent dust in his face.
A woman's voice from the man's car, screamng "For chrissakes, Angelo, shut
the door!" shifted his attention from Radix. He answered her in Spanish. They
had a fierce rapid exchange, the accident forgotten for the moment; then the
woman got out and came around to inspect the damage.
She moved briskly as if accustomed to taking charge in mishaps like this, when
her man wasn't sure what to do; and she smiled at Radix and commiserated, "Hey,
it's not so bad…could have been worse." Then in a firm tone she said, "Get in
the car, Angelo," annoyed, muttering "…the fuck outta here."
Angelo came back to inspect his bumper one more time. He pointed and shook
an unhappy finger at Radix: "You better learn how to fucking drive!" And with
that the matter was settled – the man getting into his vehicle, moving off with
sharp loud revs, daring anyone to hit his car again.
(from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)
Approaching his car Radix noticed a tiny pool of what looked like…what was
most certainly…green engine coolant fluid near the front tires. Panic with tiny
fingers gripped his heart. He bent down to inspect the fluid. How could he
be sure it came from his car?
He got in and turned the ignition. The car started after the third try but the
engine shuddered and rattled ominously. At the second traffic light, with the
interior warming up and everything else sounding normal, his anxiety faded. He
drummed his fingers on the steering wheel and looked out at a city heading
home under grey skies.
On the overpass he looked down and saw four lanes of traffic jammed up on
the highway, stretching for miles, crawling forward. He'd have to go down there;
he'd have to ease his way into that crawl. There were alternative routes but he'd
never taken the time to explore them, knowing only one road home; hating
roadways, the time-consuming need to travel on them; drivers who showed no
concern for human limb and life.
At the access road to the highway other drivers were having second thoughts.
One fellow, already half way down, threw his car in reverse and came barelling
back, the driver's head craned round, he didn't give a fuck what anyone thought
as long as you got out his way.
Radix decided to stick to the local roadway. It ran parallel to the highway
until the highway went up and above ground and ran for a mile or so on concrete
reinforcements, offering the convenience of not having to pass through local
communities.
But the roadway, an uneven strip, its lanes not clearly marked, soon backed
up; traffic lights at intersections up ahead kept changing, from red to green
then back to red for long minutes. Yet nothing moved. He began to regret not
taking the highway which he could see above him, cars moving slowly, but
moving; there was flow up there, and order; no bumper poking and jostling for
space. The cars up there seemed… and before he could finish that thought his
car struck the rear end of the vehicle in front.
(from "Ah, Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)