NY SLIDE 9.5: JUDY WIENER’S GAMBLE

 

  

                    Forced to decide whom to trust  ̶  Mambisi Colon and her Pyramid
                    enterprise, or Mrs. Caratini, friend and erstwhile savior, though nursing
                    surprisingly bitter resentment  ̶  Judy Wiener sided with Mambisi Colon.

                    In fact, she allowed herself to be won over by the woman's soft-spoken
                    but intense manner. When she wasn't speaking, Mambisi Colon  fingered
                    the chain with a cross that rested on her bosom. When she spoke she'd
                    lower her voice to levels of shared uncertainty; at the same time she
                    offered the assurance everything would be fine

                    She had wide, round hips and a double chin, but she moved down the
                    corridors at ease with her body weight distribution. To Judy Wiener this
                    suggested a woman of solid grounded trustworthiness who felt things,
                    who had good strong feelings about the Pyramid game. It seemed all
                    above board. If it was nothing but a scam, she felt sure Mambisi Colon
                    would have nothing to do with it.

                    The meetings for envelope exchange were held on Mondays. Mambisi
                    Colon came to her classroom with a hand-drawn map of directions to
                    the meeting place, so accurate, you couldn't possibly get lost.

                    And what an adventure it turned out to be; entering "strange"
                    neighborhoods, searching for parking space, sometimes blocks away
                    from the address; the walk back up a sloping sidewalk.

                    Judy Wiener walked as if she knew these streets. She was familiar with
                    the street names from addresses on home contact cards handed in by
                    students. She walked past brown and black faces, like the faces she 
                    passed in hallways; and she braced herself half-expecting to be
                    recognized and hailed. She took little notice of groups of idlers outside
                    the fluorescent-lit Delis at street corners, or in doorways of buildings,
                    feeling certain they preferred to remain unnoticed.

                    She was surprised at her own courage; and even more surprised when
                    nothing unusual happened. No one leapt out of the dark to assault her.
                    No one vandalized her car. Her anxieties quickly drained away; things 
                    seemed as normal as one would expect in any neighborhood; the sense
                    of danger, always exaggerat
ed, quickly evaporated. 

                    One night she stepped into the elevator of an apartment building; its
                    occupants, two elderly white women, short, bespectacled, like almost
                    dressed-alike sisters, remarked how odd it seemed: the elevators were
                    crowded with strangers, particularly at this hour; on Monday nights; 
                    black men and women.
 

                    Something was going on; they didn't feel entirely safe as they were
                    used to. They looked at her, hoping she'd confirm their suspicions.
 

                    Judy Weiner smiled; she explained she was a visitor herself, and though
                    she couldn't comment on their suspicions, she didn't think there was 
                    anything to be alarmed about. The two ladies got off on the second
                    floor, muttering, Well I don't know.
 

                    When she rang the bell a smiling face greeted and ushered her in. 
                    There were people everywhere, sitting, standing; a television set
                    flickered in the living room.
 

                    She was surprised to discover white faces from John Wayne Cotter in
                    the crowd
Carol Boardingham, Mrs. Fuqua and Amy Nirza from the 
                    attendance office. They sat apart, too tense and anxious to speak; they
                    acknowledged her arrival with a smile, but didn't appear eager to come
                    over and form a huddle.
 

                    In the basement the newcomers to the game were receiving their
                    introduction, complete with charts and warm explanations. At some 
                    point Mambisi Colon, moving around in a capacious robe and turban
                    hat, and enjoying her role as Pyramid matriarch, announced it was
                    time to form the "family" groups; time for the good news, the hand
                    over of envelopes. "We have to work a little harder stirring the pot,"
                    she chided amiably.
 

                    Judy Weiner had hoped to get Michael Radix interested in the game; he
                    was decidedly against the idea. To her surprise, Mr. Obanjemfuna, who
                    had initially turned down her invitation, came back to say he was 
                    interested. He came in eventually, bringing with him a few of his
                    Nigerian friends.
 

                    For awhile it was comforting to be swept along in the undertow of
                    Mambisi Colon who'd been to the Pyramid top twice and was on her
                    third trip up. Suddenly one evening Judy Wiener learnt that her
                    "family" was about to be branched off; she was two steps from the top,
                    but she would be severed from the Mambisi Colon family; they would
                    form a separate group with arrangements to meet out in the Queens
                    borough.

                    This was alien territory to her. She had to pay a toll, cross the Throgs
                    Neck bridge. The directions to the house of meetings seemed less
                    precise, the street names unfamiliar. Mr. Obanjemfuna and his Nigerian
                    friends were with her, but sometimes they got lost on the way and
                    arrived late.
  

                    Things were beginning to stall; new players just weren't coming in; her 
                    old fears that this was altogether a bad idea resurfaced. She could ask
                    for her initial investment back, but so close to the top it seemed
                    foolish to pull out; and in any case no one was quite ready to hand back
                    one thousand dollars.
 

                    She drove back over the Throgs Neck Bridge, the car windows misting 
                    up, and she'd swear ugly words when the car hit a pothole. Her heart
                    was sick with worry she'd been wrong, wildly wrong, to get involved in 
                    this. She hadn't heard of one teacher, apart from Mambisi Colon, who
                    had made it to the Pyramid top. Not one.

                                  (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001) 

 

 

 

SOUND SIGHTINGS AMONG US ALIENS

                                                                            

                                                                                      
                                                                     "Humanity is an ideal," said Oliviera,

                                                                      feeling around for the coffee grinder.
                                                                      "Air has its story too."   
                                                                               – Julio Cortázar, "Hopscotch"
    

              
            
                     Souls whose lives left love wept for return, yes,

                     hard to conceive; confirmed as if through streaming     
                     "paranormal" chutes, from ports for ever after
                     right back at you; and now all can be told. 

                  Parent spouse mon frère suicides  ̶  they'll cyberghast post
                  parting knots, the blinds drawn
coffee percolating Ciao
                  you were there, how did it rain?
                                                                    Second comings cliff
                  you rope you down,
the sheer air born.

                  They're good for check mate if "proof" you must have, cancel
                  your subscripts to vows tight balled hung beards. Shorn for
                  some time warp retool  ̶  sign in behold: the microchip
                  devours main frames the megablue; ghost, that progress.
 
                  Things back in place
what's to "explain"? Your veins flushed
                  lined with certainties fluent; focus cool as particles free
                  
market shattering blasts or body parts going bad head
                  light the sigh
of mile stones; and warranties for night
                  then day cloud
compass needles find point way.                 

                  With you they'll stay  ̶  on one condition: bar code
                  the news breath stops air torn resets earth bound;
reveal
                  
you've breached "the other side" will cast you: arms out
                  wide mass grave
tender. 
                                              You blink two clicks turn whoosh! they
                 
gone; now and ever ending.    

                  And then, cold thighs, you're cut  ̶  server headless tracking
                 
crescent green feared dead son holy ghost while others
                  
bath robed smoking on the balcony wait for extra terrestrials,
                 
or moon flowered charge your credit card for poetry
                 
stage lit like this  ̶  file path secure; in. sight. stand. up
                  lift
you.
                                                    Eyes in low orbit, once you stop and think;
                  chest beat quieter than target stars, whoever cared to notice.              
                                                                                                               – W.W.
                                                                                                     

           

                    

                        

                              

 

                             

 
                  
WE MIRROR STARS
                           

                   The nightsky's silence of eyes whispers a sense
 
                     of human stars reflecting
 
                  on other worlds quivering balanced in Light
                       to whom, and to Love's justice,
                          of little matter
                   are our fears greeds rapes rages wars famines and
                     other sparks of our despair
                   at not fulfilling the seeds of our star-fate.
                      Only peaks of awareness
                                ̶  of our breath as flares
                  of light reaching out of the not-yet-star-Earth  ̶
                     can stars read as their own mind
                 mirroring back to us all we already
                    are beneath our cauled eyes and
                       our faithless deaf nerve.

                  (from "Nor Like An Addict Would" © by Brian Chan)                       

 

 

  

NY SLIDE 9.4: WELCOME TO THE PYRAMID

   

                    "I had no idea this was going on. When I close my door, I'm cut off from the
                     world. Honestly, I didn't have a clue," Radix said, looking genuinely non-
                     plussed.

                    "You've got to pay attention, Michael."

                    "I've noticed my attendance numbers have gone down."

                    "That's because spring is in the air. As soon as the weather improves around 
                     here the kids stay away in droves. They take unofficial holidays."

                    "Amazing!"

                    "They'll start showing up again as we get close to the end of term…wanting to
                     pass your class….But, seriously, the way things are right now some teachers
                     are too worried to teach. Haven't you noticed? Teachers huddling in the
                     hallways?"

                    "Come to think of it, I have. But I thought that was just the usual, you know,
                     people worrying about the school closing."

                    "Well, there's a lot of that too; but right now they're more worried about the
                     Pyramid game going bust, and losing all their money ."

                    "I told you so," Radix said, smiling softly.

                    "I've got to go, my class is waiting."

                     She walked away, smiling that lingering smile again, which to anyone coming
                     the other way must have seemed an odd, eccentric, certainly self-absorbed,
                     possibly crazed look on her face.
    

                     She was touched by the gentle, playful I told you so from Radix. If only he
                     knew how that sound, pushing doors inside her, opened wider the possibility of
                     intimacy between them.   

                     Mrs. Caratini had also given her the I told you so, but that was the harsh,
                     judgmental kind. Since she was Judy Wiener's friend she probably thought she
                     was entitled to her sarcasm; she had warned her about the Pyramid game.

                     It swept into town every ten years; they were in Pennsylvania a year ago.
                     Under the rules you had first to hand over $1.000; then bring someone in with
                     $1.000 of their own, and so on down the line, newcomers pushing everyone up
                     and waiting as others came in below; envelopes changing hands until one day
                     you're at the top; and you're out  ̶  in your hand ten white envelopes, each 
                     with 10 hundred dollar bills. And you're gone. 

                     The game preyed on poor immigrants who raided their meager savings to find 
                     the first installment; it made suckers of hardworking citizens desperate for a
                     lucky break, the one big score. It drained many dreamers of cash and dreams.

                     At John Wayne Cotter the Pyramid organizer was Mambisi Colon, a heavy-set
                     Puerto-Rican woman who worked in the Dean's office; whom Mrs. Caratini
                     detested.

                     Mrs. Caratini was of the opinion Mambisi Colon was "racist". For her part
                     Mambisi Colon made no secret of her belief that when it came to "race", Mrs.
                     Caratini  ̶  and for that matter most white people working at John Wayne
                     Cotter  ̶  needed "sensitivity training"; or should at least make an effort to
                     learn and speak Spanish.

                     The feud between them ignited the day she remarked to Mrs. Caratini that
                     the information provided on the referrals sent to the Dean's office was
                     inadequate, and the referrals themselves poorly written up. To do their job
                     properly the Dean's office needed facts, not anecdotes, from the teachers.
                     And, Mrs. Caratini had apparently bypassed the first course of action in any
                     student-teacher dispute: calling home and talking to the parents. Which was
                     why, she hinted, a little knowledge of Spanish was important to teachers
.

                     Mambisi Colon was apparently quite good at what she did in the Dean's office.
                     Students  ̶   those considered "out of control" and escorted by Security down to
                     the Dean's office  ̶   were shepherded into her tiny cubicle where she listened
                     to their complaints ("You have to give them space to ventilate," she'd say, "Let
                     them get it all out of their system".) Then, she'd step in with her plan of
                     action.

                     Her plan seemed to work, most of the time, though some teachers chafed at
                     the results. They'd sent students to the Dean's office requesting intervention
                     or some form of stern disciplinary action. Some students, they complained,
                     returned to class smirking, as if the punishment of  "suspension", which they
                     viewed as time off from the classroom, was just what they'd hoped for.

                     Mrs. Caratini was among those teachers not at all impressed with the Dean's
                     Office. In her opinion the "success" of Mambisi Colon's interventions had more
                     to do with her capacious bosom.

                     Mambisi Colon, she explained, had breasts solid as gourds; the cut in her dress
                     was intentionally low so you could see the powdered space between her
                     bosom. This encounter with boobs in her office cubicle, she was convinced,
                     had a soothing and stirring effect on parents and students. Who needed skills 
                     or training in the Dean's office when all the job required, really, was the 
                     openness of Mambisi Colon's boobs.

                                       (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!, a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

  

WHERE THE GRASS TRIUMPHS, OR DISTURBS PUBLIC CHASTITY

 


Because it grows quietly like plantation resentment they let it run
unnoticed; it serves to screen waist down moves and unguinous news
paper wraps you might step on. So, heads up, remember to hold
your breath; and watch out for stoopers who won’t all clear
the wind, who don’t wave a posy.

                 Budgets are up set assuming islanders would bank on genes high
in self give in; not toss stuff out the window like conjugal
bedding live with tie knot infestation, Aie aie aie.

                 Cows with first names graze anywhere turning off the belt way
at hand raised signal; which allows chauffeurs of the guardian
chrome and tinted view to continue. So despite hard earned
arteries the system works, see? 

                 Besides, grass traders, our happy few, deploy at Welcome sites
where custom inspectors  ̶  and carrion book makers sorting fringe
brown tails as white beaks crow  ̶  pose with no fear of getting
their angles iguana nicked; Jab Jab rear shake of the lamb
important at entry levels, Aie aie aie.

                 Our sugars at high yield, faith hips saris unwind,
the 
sheet spread under hand  ̶  This is what matters! so men in haste
to stuff positioned wives gripe; grunting down to stubs.

                 Meanwhile, pledge hunters with no office for fun whet
knives on any plot marking grave stone; like illicit love
wanting, though not all that way, a bone to pick, a suckling
to pork  ̶  usually some one off bass line, or a sniffing
tagless Please, not here! mongrel.

                                                                        – W.W.

 

 

 

                        

 

   


CLEAN GREEN BALLAD


  Miss Camille, trying to stop a frog
from patrolling her patio
by spraying him with Mr. Clean,
found herself spraying also a snake
trying to beat her to the frog,
and ended up killing the snake
by chopping him in two with a cut-
lass  ̶  which she now calls a machette,
 a word that wants to rhyme with tête,
the thing which her blade separated
from the tail that twitched on till all
snake-habit had drained out of it.
I flung it into the backyard-bush,
out of sight and mind till the next
grass-snake and -poem come to pass
(like the tête and crapaud that vanished).

            (from “Nor Like An Addict Would” © by Brian Chan)

 

 

 

NY SLIDE 9.3: READY TO BURST

 

                    He was about to pull in and lock the door when a sheet of paper near the
                    teacher's desk caught his eye. On
an impulse he went back in, picked it up,
                    meaning to discard it in the waste container. On a second impulse he read
                    what was scribbled on it; some sort of conversation between two students they
                    must have written and past back and forth.

                             do u know what Anthony said 2 me this morning on the patio!    

                             Well I guess you want me to ask!
                             So what

                             Well u fucking right! He said, Jessica Delgado
                             report 2 my penis immediately.
                             I said F U!!!

                             I can explain how that Jessica Delgado report thing started.
                             Anthony is a prick!

                   Strange, that students would leave something like this lying around. Maybe it
                   slipped out of a student's notebook.
                        

                   But there it was, evidence from the 90s generation  ̶   so carefree and careless
                   with their bodies, so blasé about sex; hormones swarming like locust through
                   the leaves of their brains.

                   Report 2 my penis! So much of this was nothing but Ready to Burst foreplay; the
                   bitches in giggling huddle, the dogs prowling hallways in sniffing packs. Those
                   baggy-pants boys with their gold chains, mouths and arms in constant motion;
                   boys wanting to be men.

                   The way they talked to the girls; the way the girls talked back; dogs and bitches
                   tossing casual snarls at each other.

                   And to think that back in his day Dana Ricci found black boys attractive. This
                   was what she told him  ̶  Black boys know how to do it!  ̶   when he tried for the 
                   second  time, humble and apologetic, to get her up to his room. I know what
                   I'm talking about
, she'd sniggered, shooting a look of contempt at his crotch;
                   then walking
away; knowing he'd stare after her in disbelief and resentment. As
                   if any black guy would want her. As if any black guy with attitude would wait
                   for her to get the snag out of her zipper. Dana Ricci didn't have a clue.

                   For the rest of the afternoon he seemed distracted. In the cafeteria he chatted
                   breezily, then lapsed into silence. In his stomach, the terror of anticipation: he
                   was about to try something he'd never done before; he was about to cross a line
                   here, forchrisssakes!

                   When the bell rang for the end of the 8th, he walked to the attendance office
                   with the attendance bubble sheet; he hung about chatting, he waved, Have a
                   good one
! to colleagues hurrying out the building. He took his time walking back
                   to the gym, his eyes sweeping the hallways on the first floor for anyone who
                   appeared to idle.

                     Outside the gym door he saw a lone figure waiting, and he cursed at the thought
                  they would have
to enter together; for, should something unforeseen happen,
                  someone might recall seeing Mr. McCraggen and a student entering the gym
                  together.
 

                   It wasn't Ipanema Vasquez waiting. The girl had a narrow, delicate face and an
                   elaborate hairdo. Arms folded, she watched him approaching. "What are you     
                   doing here?" he asked sternly. Waiting for a friend. "Well, you can't wait here.
                   You must leave the building. Wait outside." The girl gave him a pouting fuckyou
                   glare and moved off, looking back at him just once. He watched until she had
                   cleared the hallway.
 

                   Inside the gym he set about tidying, sorting out gym equipment. He looked
                   around his office space, which over the years had served every purpose but was
                   never a set for physical intimacy.  There was an old sofa in a corner; it sagged 
                   and was cluttered with soda cans, baseball mitts, cardboard boxes of balls,
                   books, other stuff.
 

                   He needed a plan, quick and satisfying. 

                   He looked at his watch. She was twenty minutes late. Imagine: her graduation
                   depended on it, and she couldn't keep an important appointment; lazy…
                   voluptuous…fat fuck.
                         

                   Slumped in his little stuffy office chair, his heart heavy with doubt and a
                   foolish adolescent panic he thought he'd outgrown, he felt a helplessness that
                   was beyond the usual Friday state of enervation..

                   More random thoughts kept popping in his head. If Ipanema Vasquez walked in
                   this minute he didn't think he'd be able to perform. Ten minutes back, maybe.
                   Not now. He couldn't do much with her now. Where the fuck was this girl?

                   To try and to fail with her  ̶  the embarrassment would be huge, huge; worse
                   than the scandal that would follow if somehow word leaked out about what
                   they did.

                   Nah! This wasn't going to work

                   He gathered up things for his briefcase. He reached for his coat, whistling to
                   himself. He looked around the room with a little regret and disappointment;
                   with a little relief, too, that nothing had happened. Maybe this arrangement
                   wasn't meant to happen. Not this time.

                                    (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

 

WHEN GARCÍA MÁRQUEZ RULED THE PAGE

                                                                                    

Gabriel García Márquez set ablaze a rage to read among many students of
literature at the University of the West Indies (Mona) in the late 60s -70s.
Currents of shared interests were strong though problematic then between                      the islands of Jamaica and Cuba; students and scholars (in the Dept of                              Spanish) immersed themselves in the “kingdoms” of Alejo Carpentier, the                          Casas de las Americas; and the Latin American giants, Octavio Paz, Mario                          Vargas Llosa, Carlos Fuentes.

The Márquez brand new world fiction offered points of transition to students                    in the Dept of English, enhancing our conversations about life and                                    politics; and  what we considered the ‘Latin American connection’. By                                comparison course studies in English Literature felt dreary; they did not                            offer novels of 500+ pages, or characters still active past 200 years. No                            heartless grandmothers mothers striking bargains with virginity chips;                              no vultures pecking, fragrant omens, those vines of erotic hunger in                                  our Caribbean vegetation.

The weird behaviours and sinuations in the Márquez novels captivated us:
the gypsies and butterflies and firing squads; the participatory role of “time”
as unforeseen events unfolded; that general in “The Autumn of The Patriarch”
who “governed as if he felt predestined to never die.”

“One Hundred Years Of Solitude” (1967) was perhaps our first serious                                 encounter (after the arrival of Wilson Harris’ fantastical “Palace of the                               Peacock”, 1960) with loves and affairs in the soup of the surreal, with                               colonels and rulers in the rose garden of the “phantasmagorical”.


It should be noted, though: for many young readers in the 60s/70s in George-
town, Guyana, his fiction did not quite match the compelling, dreamlike
imagery in the  work (in translation) of Jorge Luis Borges. And for those who
aspired to be writers, García Márquez came close but was not quite the                            genius considered a literary god hovering over our scribblers’ ambitions: the                      other Argentine writer, Julio Cortázar. 
 

It remains something of a mystery why in those years of marvellous books                          we chipped to the grooves in “Hopscotch” (1966) more than we did to “One
Hundred Years of Solitude”  ̶  their authorial techniques and preoccupations,
Macondo and Paris, like planets apart.
                       
(Maybe, “burning outward from within”, we too were “looking for the key”, as
Gregorovius put it; our pursuit of “perfect freedom” in those skinny days                              guided by lumens from the jazz cooled “conversation among amateurs” in                         Cortázar’s  virtuoso novel.)

Still, in the courtyards of the imagination García Márquez ruled; his torrential
word flow released shivers of discovery. And now might be just the right
moment for generations new and old to dust off and get acquainted with his
“magical” interventions for political dysfunction and bloodline alibi in our
faster start run times. A toast, if you like, to the good pre-digital days; to
the ficción that renewed our subscription to real worlds.

My favourites  ̶   the shorter pieces in “Strange Pilgrims”, “No One Writes To                        The Colonel”. Then, books I hadn’t quite got around to, like “Memories of My
Melancholy Whores” (2004), which appeared and surprised many who couldn’t
believe that despite (rumours of) declining health García Márquez was still
writing.      

                  – Wyck Williams

                              

 

 

                           

 

 

 

                                          ≈  ≈    In mem Gabriel García Márquez (1927 – 2014)    ≈  ≈  
Allez, pépère, c’est rien, ça!”

                                                     

                                                                   

  

         

SUBLIME SUN RISING HOUSE

    
                  

                    Privateers are building homes in the trees which else
                    where would be board nailed hide aways for smart kids.
                    On our island this is front tiered business. Gross bonds care
                    little for fruit ripening too long, too soon. If it's all
                    the same mount up means time to pluck.

                    A major worry: cane raised winds whipping through ripping
                    swingers off the roofs.
                                                      A pick up crew is hired to hose away
                    night fall ruptures before regulators with orders come dawn
                    pecking; to deter black mambas, poinsettia wired hedges. 
   
                         Bredren walk b
y pure in fire for prophecy 
                         strikes; or nest egg shell rattl
ing Chinese gongs;
                         or reclaimist bee swarms so afternoon tea
                         
leaves would scat and make readings easy.

                                                                     Line crossed lovers spread
                   
limbs under cloud cover, believing only seraphs floating like 
                    drones mig
ht notice; while pilgrims in crimson robes pause 
                    to 
peek at the Adam & Eve linked in nakedness  ̶  your soul  
                    device searching for signal.

                                                       And the whistling you hear? not birds;
                    tenants content; and so impressed with the ether updates,
                    the clean slate wiping view.

                                                              Most mornings sun streaks start
                    up first stop by their sky lounge windows
  ̶  Security measure:
                    yesterdays wing flaps; futures past worded bit worming dry
                    running  ̶  
green light air show: Alive we're all aloft today.

                                                                                             – W.W.
                       

 

                                               

               

                                  

 

                                                        

                                      
                      THIS HOUSE IS

                      built out of certain strong brick only,
                          and warmed by a tireless
                              flame within
                      its walls so that mould will not choke them.

                     A house daily breathed in crumbles less
                        quickly than an empty
                            house: a man's
                     essence-vapours vivifies blank space.

                     The tenant gives the house its purpose:
                         to remain standing. But
                            abandoned,  
                     it starts to court a fate of ruin.

                     A solid framework then, to be filled
                        with fire to keep it from
                            burning down,
                     or from sighing, shrugging, collapsing

                      ̶  a thought that, starved of recognition,
                        crumbles into ash. Then
                    
      do we know
                        which tenant keeps this house standing now.

 

                 (from "Within The Wind"  ©  by Brian Chan)

 

  

 

NY SLIDE 9.2: IPANEMA VASQUEZ

                       

                "Being fat or overweight isn't a big deal these days," O'Rooney had said to him. "In
                 my high school days, nobody dated a girl who was overweight."

                 This prompted him to tell O'Rooney a story.

                 "First girl I fucked," he told him, "was a fat girl. Well, not exactly fat; kind of 
                  on the plump side, you know. Anyway, I get her up to my room, and I'm like
                  ready to get started. I'm fairly bursting in my briefs. So I'm standing there ready
                  to stick it up her zabaglione. Her name was Dana Ricci  ̶  Italian. And she's
                  standing there, with her back to me  ̶  she'd taken off her tops, and she was
                  fumbling with her zipper or something. So I go up behind her, grab her jeans,
                  and begin to pull them down. She screams, Whasdamattawidyou!  And I shout, 
                  What the fuck's the matter with you? And she says, Get off me, you've ruined
                  my zipper
! I couldn't believe this. I'm up and ready, and she's worried about 
                  her freaking jeans zipper!"

                  But these were the 90s, he agreed, different times. Everyone walked around
                  thinking: I'm desirable. Somebody out there wants me.

                  Fat girls, skinny girls, short, black, white girls  ̶  it didn't matter. They put 
                  lipstick on, put a little sway in the hips, and bingo! they're ready to burst. 

                  And here was Ipanema Vasquez: thinking she was ready, thinking she knew
                  exactly what she wanted.
    
                      
                  He wondered: did she move alone in the hallways, friendless? was there a
                  furnace of desire quietly churning inside that fatness? Okay.  

                  She was taking her time getting back from the bathroom. The bell rang; the
                  class clattered out, barely acknowledging him. And she was nowhere in sight.
                  Her bag, her coat, her stuff were on a desk.

                  He stood at the doorway, exasperated; he had to get his teacher's bathroom pass
                  back from her. No students were gathering outside to use the room. He couldn't
                  just shut the door, walk away, leave her stuff inside.

                  Then he saw her  ̶  maneuvering like an emergency vehicle through the hallway 
                  crowd; chopping her way forward with surprisingly nimble moves. A smile on her
                  chubby face as she said, Excuse me! and slipped passed a noisy lingering group.
                  Making her way back to Mr. McCraggen. Catching his eye from a distance so that
                  he imagined her smile was intended for him, not the students she had just 
                  jostled.

                  Her body didn't look fat; just tight and compact in jeans. It might go out of
                  shape after her first pregnancy, but right at that moment her voluptuous   ̶ 
                  "voluptuous" was the only word he could think of  ̶  her voluptuous body in the
                  bursting prime of its youth was making its approach.

                  She came skipping up to him She looked into his face, anticipating some display
                  of teacher temper. He stood stiff with controlled annoyance at the door. She 
                  planted a smile like a kiss on his cheeks and rushed past him, saying how sorry
                  she was to keep him waiting.

                  She'd touched up her face in the bathroom  ̶  black lipstick on her lips which,
                  with her black hair cut short to the shoulder and her thick eyebrows, gave her a
                  halloween witch look.

                  She was trying hard in her adolescent way for "prettiness", with the make-up kit
                  and the hoop earrings and the shiny arm bracelets; her cupped breasts 
                  clamoring for boys. Like so many John Wayne seniors hoping to provoke envy and
                  desire in the grown-up world, she ended up, he thought, looking ridiculously
                  painted.

                  "At the end of the 8th," he reminded her as she brushed past. "If I'm not there, 
                   wait for me." She promised she would.

                  There would be no complication. No negotiations. An easy simple transaction, a
                  quick in and out. Friday afternoon, the gym after 8th period. Everyone else in a
                  rush for the exits. 
The cleaning crew working their way down from the third
                  floors. Give the hallways 15 minutes to clear. No PM classes. Nothing to lose.
  
                              (from "Ah Mikhail,O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

                                 

 

 

 

VIJINIE’S VINE HANG YIELDING PAST

                               
                                                                                       

                                                                                                                    for Grace A.

                                                                                                                                                                      
                   Our island game masters, wrapped up in hair, gate dogs of what

                   lonely they know, invite fleurettes to placid ponds of lily pads; to wash
                   wring dry their thoughts like underwear.

                   Vijinie's bloom, field testing like a poem, bared totems for bead
                   fingers; for migrant pain killers, 24 hrs Open to suggestion.   

                   Nerve of the dharma her fluids received his shark head surfacing
                   narcisse; her text holder's eyes  ̶  rose shadowed, rehearsing  ̶  offered      
                   up devotion on knees.

                   Until one day she glimpsed his shanks sun loss, his buttocks flaccid
                   pulling out then off away to the rest rooms. "You realize."

                   For restitution, Saturday nights, she'd tell her "boyfriend" park
                   outside the "ashram": front load speakers routing sweat borne
                  
ovules OmyGod! up churning  ˃  Sunday sinuous duets.

                   Some aging barrels leach, worn staves, permit no curing; cut
                   straight from vine stem stripped to tongue smooth pressing.

                                                                                      – W.W.

 

 

                       

 

 

 

 

                     

                   FROM THAT MOUTH TO THIS,

                                                                         I kiss you a taste
                   of yourself you can never otherwise      
                   know but by fingers, yours or mine, between
                   mouths. Which do you prefer? This tell-tale tongue 
                   with its salacious gossip of your juice,
                   or slick imps stealing the cream of silence 
                   to take home to the mother of babble?    

                   But why choose? Get to know yourself every
                   way you can, using love's every impulse.
                   Only so can your innocence be re-
                   affirmed, on its travels between realms  
                   of ignorance and experience, both
                   openings through which the shaman of the heart
                   utters its oracles of shameless love.

                     (from "The Gift Of Screws" by Brian Chan)

 

 

 

 

NY SLIDE 9.1: Mr. McCRAGGEN’S GYM PASS

  

                   In that moment Bill McCraggen never felt more ecstatic with anticipation.
                   There he was covering a class of seniors; their teacher was absent, and this
                   Hispanic girl kept looking at him; looking away, then looking at him. She
                   smiled; he smiled back with a sort of perfunctory grimace.

                   He sensed her eyes still on him, so he turned the pages of his newspaper and
                   concentrate.

                   She came up to his desk; he didn't look up. Her fingers played with the back of
                   his neck, then started a stress-relieving massage. "What are you doing," he
                   asked. She wanted to talk to him. "What about?" Something very important.
                   "Okay, talk."

                   If she was going to graduate this year, she needed to pass Phys. Ed. "So."
                   Well, she hadn't been coming to his Gym class. "So." Well, was there any-
                   thing she could do to make up for the classes missed? "I don't think so."

                   She lowered herself on her haunches so that she appeared to be looking up in
                   his face. Oh, please, Mr. McCraggen, please.

                   He folded his newspaper, his eyes caught her eyes. And in that instant his
                   thoughts flew off to a lake in a wooded area in New Jersey, near where he'd
                   grown up; where every boy at some point stripped off and plunged right in,
                   simply because it was there and offered itself.

                   The pleading in her voice, the body almost in kneeling position, I'll do 
                   anything.
 

                   They must have stared at each other for the longest second. Her eyes never 
                   wavered. He turned his face away in case any student was observing what he 
                   now considered an invitation to intimacy.
                            

                   And in that moment, the thought occurred to him: Take the plunge, what do
                   you have to lose
?  With six months left before everyone, students and staff,
                   was scattered to the wind, the school slated for closing or recasting, what did
                   he have to lose?
 

                   Oh, please, Mr. McCraggen. Had he hesitated two heart beats longer, the
                   moment might have vanished through a hole in his stomach. "See me in the 
                   gym. End of the day, okay? Okay?"
 

                   She moved away from his desk, putting a little swivel, he thought, in her waist;
                   not too much to attract the attention of the class; enough to keep his mind   
                   focused. She knew he wouldn't be caught dead staring after her.
 

                   Three minutes later she was back at his desk. Permission to go to the bath-
                   room
. He looked up from his newspaper, his forehead suddenly heating up, and
                   he gave her a long, patient stare. The smile was still there, but since their
                   intentions were already joined, she didn't need to play him any more. "What 
                   did you say your name was?"

                   She made a little show of surprise and disappointment  ̶  had he really forgotten
                   her name? He told her to be quick about it, the class was almost over.
 

                   Ipanema Vasquez. Of course, he remembered her. 

                   Didn't want to change for his gym class, that was her problem. Couldn't bear
                   exposing her body (her bosom bulging alarmingly inside her sweater) to the
                   other girls, or something like that. As if anyone would pay any attention to her
                   body in gym shorts.
 

                   So she stayed away. Didn't even show up for his jog around the track program
                   on bright, still shivery, spring mornings; twenty minutes, six brisk warm-up
                   laps 
around the track, which the lazier kids loved. They strolled and chatted
                   their heads off and reported back pretending to wheeze and huff from the
                   exercise.

                   Ipanema Vasquez was a no show. Now she was ready to do anything to pass his 
                     gym 
class; lazy fat fuck.

                                  (from "Ah Mikhail O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)