DROOPING PANTS KNOW WHAT YOU DO

  

                        In days whipped by if you didn't raise your hand to get
                      noticed Salut! you wound up halo weaning, a lynx
                      eyed old fart knee bent in prayer stall; the back rub
                      beamer for girls twirling @dresses.           
                                                                                  Or a diamond
                      leg trapped in tennis shoes longevity; hard as ghetto
                      to burn  ̶  Achtung

                      Pop guns build Museotheques, disks cased in gold.
                      There's always an Error message, but white bone fear
                      of hip funk servers could freeze connections, skin scratch
                      infections that embed and repeat after you.

                      Youth limbs  ̶  nothing better to do, belt free to waste good
                      pay days  ̶  are best advised
: here, conjure this  ̶  scrub in,
                      your street hood's cramping; trunk grooves cut down 'ill
                      howl to heaven smell of bitter root  ̶  one shot.

                                        Flight capsules stand by  ̶  crowd wave lock
                      in count down  ̶  blue screens eclipse red moons. Cell sure
                      mobile glow beats no place to go. And site this: sun tan
                      schedules await the newest Royal embryo.

                                                                                       Maybe if
                      we slipped something in their food? a gatekeeper  
                      
posts. 
                               This all on boarding  ̶  rivers like Jordan  ̶̶  

                      who cares where bends shape falls whose faith fools
                      love. Oh snap! Arc de Rainbow. In step all good?
                     
Nein.
                                                                                 – W.W.

         

                                  

  

  

 

                   
                   THE INSOUCIANT CONSIDERATE PRINCE

                           
               
                     Why should one, heeding the call of Things
                         To Be Done,
                     descend out of the realm of the Sun
                     where all knots and walls have already sprouted wings? 
                                    
    
                          Things can wait, in the sweatshop below
                             in the den
                         of Duty, that servant with a bone
                         at his teeth as he sucks at his master's marrow.

                       Only after one has broken fast
                           with the Lord
                        of unhurried Light, should one reward
                   the demons of Do with ones attention at last.

                      It is their hunger feeds their demands
                         but they're just
                       clouds, under our Star, waiting to burst
                  when our rays trigger their rain to a million hands.

                     (from "Within The Wind"  ©  by Brian Chan)

  
         
                
                   

 

NY SLIDE 7.9: THE LOVER

 

 

                  The neighbors saw him come and go but asked no questions. He was something
                  of a mystery to Theresa Wamp even though she'd been seeing him for three
                  years. That mystery, the many gaps in his profile, was part of the attraction,
                  part of the  trust they invested in each other.

                  This much she knew. He was a European, born in England, raised in France; the
                  son of a career
diplomat who had served in several parts of the world. His home
                  was now New York city, though his job in international finance
kept him
                  traveling around the world.

                  They met quite by accident in a Manhattan hotel where Theresa Wamp was 
                  attending a conference, and he was checking in. The second time their paths 
                  crossed he raised his hands in mock defense and swore he was not following
                  her; adding as he moved away, "Though I must admit you are an extraordinarily
                  attractive woman."

                   Extraordinarily attractive. That same morning she had looked at her body in
                   the mirror, and
had concluded that she was, well, anything but "extraordinarily
                   attractive". And then this man, carelessly tossing a match, starting a fire in the
                   most obscure place inside her; this complete stranger, Chrystel Lefevre.

                  Once he realized how far away from Manhattan she lived he insisted on driving
                  out to visit her. Evenings spent in restaurants and apartments in the city were 
                  fine if you considered Manhattan
the cultural capital of the world which in his
                  opinion it was not. He wanted to get out of the city. He welcomed the change in
                  his routines of airport limousines and taxis and, heaven forbid, the subway.

                        He would phone from his apartment, saying he was on his way. Two hours later
                  he was at her door.

                  The first evening the doorbell rang and she opened the door, she knew  ̶ 
                  because panic and excitement were so sumptuously on her side  ̶  that before
                  long she would surrender to him.
He did not move toward her. He stood there,
                  assured and elegant in a black coat,  a bottle of wine in one hand; saying that
                  for a moment he thought he'd rung the wrong doorbell. She wanted to extend
                  that moment before asking him in, just standing there awhile longer, arms
                  folded, smiling, receiving him.

                  He wasn't an extraordinarily handsome man; he was slender, long-limbed and he
                  carried himself with innate dignity; and he had that fretful air of wanting to
                  banish, at least for awhile, his other world back in Manhattan. She felt he
                  meant it when he told her how much he valued getting away to the Chez
                  Therese
enchantment of her home.

                  As the weekend visits went by, he seemed to delight in quiet evenings of wine
                  and conversation. He praised her cooking, her table setting, her living room
                  arrangement.  She had expected some delving into each other's histories, and
                  she started one evening with a cheery anecdote about her college days. He 
                  cut her short and deftly changed the subject.

                  Evenings of mystery and enchantment. In some old-fashioned, maidenly way she
                  wanted to be enchanted.

                  Almost before she realized what was happening he transformed her life; starting
                  with the gifts he brought her, odd things he'd picked up as he passed through
                  Tokyo or Paris; olive oil from Italy, a piece of sculpture, engravings, perfumes. 
                  She rearranged her rooms, finding places to accommodate most everything,
                  even the Sicilian beret which she wore just once. He liked to
surprise her with a
                  phone call from some foreign capital at an hour when she was sleeping, and he
                  was having breakfast.

                  Little things like that kept them connected. And when he sat in her living room,
                  dinner almost ready, his legs crossed, the index finger of his right hand thought-
                  fully scratching his temples, there was an aura of assurance and power about
                  Chrystel, a completeness that made Therese less afraid of life, less anxious
                  about the world.

                                  (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!" a novel by N.D. Williams, 2001)


SURINAME FORESHADOWS, TOIL WORDS

 

 

          Málá ke moti es rákhi jhalke,                          Like threaded pearls on a string the ash
        buni jes.                                                        gleams droplets.

        Yád ke guthe khát bát men ched kareke hoi,     In order to string the memories
        bát ke bartáw ke bháw kareke hai.                   words needed piercing
                                                                               weighing the worth of their usage.

                                                                      ≈  ≈ 

          Je sánp máre khát khud apne láthi banal
          apne burhápá men je apne-áp ke láthi bánais,
          oke láthi páwe men ká láthi khoje ke pari?

          Je lálac men phasie sát samundar pár
          jái garal,
          besat giral jaise bijli se katal dar phekái ke.

          Káhan badhuá kahán chutuwá major,
          kasur ke ná bát rahá.

          Mehnat men moh aur moh men mehnat,
          ekke dusar men ghuse dunu ke jiye ke sáth rahá.
                       
                                                                  He who to kill a snake became himself
                                                                  a stick,
                                                                  he who in his old age turned himself
                                                                  into a stick,
                                                                  why would he to find a stick look for a stick?
                                                                   
                                                                  He who in the grip of the lure crossed
                                                                  the seven seas,
                                                                  then squalled 
                                                                  crashed like a branch struck by lightning.
                                                           
                                                                  Slave labor, free labor  ̶  what's the difference?   
                                                                  guilt is not the issue here.

                                                                  Transfixed by toil, toiling in wonder,
                                                                  toil and wonder could continue
                                                                  to exist hand in glove.

                                                         (from "Poems" © by Jit Narain, Paramaribo 2003)

                                                                        [translated from Sarnámi by D. France Olivieira/W.W.]

VIEWS FROM ATOP MOUNTING

 

 

              I

                  In matters of island property, like carving the mountain
                 view, there are palpitating issues, you could say  ̶  downed
                 tree lives and dress rehearsing wives not withstanding.
                
                Your chance for happiness
? so far the data's inconclusive.

                 After the Everest summit shiver  ̶  alone at the top, peasant
                 ant hills below  ̶  you get used to uncommon breath,
                 cloud loitering, sunrise room service. You could count
                 the air arrival miles you racked up and there's ample time
                 to declutter the sledge hauled bags of hunger years.

                 New technology approaching the villas gets turned back
                 by villagers with machetes who can spot grass snaking
                 pump lines stretched away. Their gods must be appeased. They
                 want jobs  ̶  like Security Sensor? for blocking intruders
                 on our Heritage grounds?  Keeper of the seals.

                 On print outs your body throws up shell casings and numbers
                 to baffle any beach reader of sea leaves. Goodness knows,
                 the organs try but can't up lift much more "as per". Lung
                 pipes get sucked blood crimping your face glow and unless 
                 there's a tennis court so little is required of the heart. 
                 Guts you have.

 

                   II

                       
                 For credit checks, Sunday morning's best. Womb worn

                 women in church shinery get to step the verge. There's ripe
                 fruit and reason to smile.
                                                                Pray for no rain storm  ̶  all
                 that top water racket tearing down like indicators of unruly
                 market shares.

                 Best advice: build a Jericho wall. Some sweat marked taxi
                 men get it in their heads to organise the tourist drive by: 
                 Who lives there, mobiles snap? 
                                                                   In time you learn to trust
                 only the deference of grass to lawn presidents, the terrier
                 teeth of smiling coconut peelers.

                 Out on the terrace, at sunset, you could chill with a stone
                 ground law maker; pour Scotch movie gangster style 

                 as flowered village girls come up to the iron
                 gate  ̶̶  Dog alert!  ̶  belle eyes ringing, Need a handy 
                 lady, guava sweet beak

                                                               Dragon fly blades slash
                 any hope of sighting sky cranes on coast lines over seas.
                 One day the gaze will show you the door. Ledgers bow.
                      Yes, I should go now.               Cliché cliché.
                       
                                                                                                       – W.W.

              

 

 

 

                         A STRAY

                                            wisp of cloud
                                                                     drifted
                    up from behind a mountain, crumbled
                    and dissolved. Was I the only witness
                    of its determined self-erasing course?
                    The mountain sighs: Of course not;
                    nor was it an omen of only your
                    death: ask that crow in flight
                    and he will tell you: We are all
                    drifting in and out of being:
                    ask that mountain ever reaching
                    for the nudity by which it keeps redefining its focus
                    of nakedness, while we, bird and cloud
                    and man, by contrast of our faster fading,
                    lend it an illusion of fixity, feed
                    its dream of timeless solidness whose value
                    as eternal witness of our cloudiness we invent.

                 (from "The Gift Of Screws" by Brian Chan)

 

 

 

NY SLIDE 7.8: FLOWER CHILD

 

                  Anyone who stepped into the office of Principal Theresa Wamp  ̶  and being
                  ordinary mortals, teachers had no reason to step in unless
summoned  ̶  might be
                  struck by what seemed an
extraordinary otherworldly place; like a retreat from
                  the chaos in other parts
of the building.

                    "Have you ever looked in there?" Mahmood Sharif once asked Radix. "I'm thinking
                  of organizing a field trip to her office
for my students. We're discussing tenant
                  farming. Just one quick look, that's
all, would help them understand the two
                  separate worlds: the privileged class
and common labor".

                    Just one quick look would bring to the eye, first, the shiny display of school 
                 trophies; then the burgundy drapes, the beige carpet; and if
you shut the door, 
                 the soft silence, the feeling of being comfortably
ensconced.

                  Adjoining her office was the conference room: more burgundy drapes, a 
                  varnished table, a coffee cart and a coffee maker  ̶ 
everything required to 
                  coddle the decision makers at John Wayne Cotter.
On her polished desk were
                  framed pictures of her father, and of Theresa Wamp's
properties, a home on
                  Long island and in Westchester
(the opinion, even among her harshest critics, 
                  was that they were "quite
lovely" homes).

                 Then the flowers. Theresa Wamp loved flowers. If you wanted to thank her, or
                  for any reason show your appreciation, a bouquet of flowers brought to her face 
                  a full moon of delight. There were flower decals on the windows of her car, on
                  the lapels of her jackets, on notes she sent to the administrative
staff.

                      Once, as she addressed the incoming freshman class, she felt impelled (at the 
                  end of remarks about the need for respect, the importance of
discipline and 
                  "good tone" in the building) to suggest the following,
spoken in all seriousness: 
                   Wouldn't it be nice if every family of every child sitting in this auditorium 
                   took the trouble to do a little planting of flowers, around their homes in the 
                   Bronx. It would do so much to lift the spirit of the borough, which has been so 
                   unfairly stigmatized  ̶̶  as an orphan borough, a borough beset  with crime, 
                   ugly poverty, ugly rundown buildings
.

                        Imagine: looking down from apartment buildings and seeing not the desert of
                    weeds and dry brick, but flowers; bright, defiantly beautiful
flowers. Wherever
                    there was bush, empty lots, unsightly weeds, let everyone
pitch in and plant
                    flowers. What transformation! People would see results right
away. They'd feel
                    better about
themselves.

                    There was rumor and speculation about her single, unwed status. Theresa
                    Wamp did in fact have a lover. The only person in the building
who knew
                    about him was Mrs. Haliburton, who kept this nugget of information
like a key 
                    in the folds of her bosom. (It thrilled Mrs. Haliburton to think she
was privy to 
                    information which many in the building  ̶  in
particular her white colleagues  ̶   
                    would give an arm and a leg to possess; and
use to their advantage.)
             
                    For her part Principal Wamp handled the problem in a clever way, keeping her
                    guard up, always smiling, maintaining a professional tone even
in casual 
                    conversation. After all, gossip and speculation was the price she had to
pay for
                    being a woman in a position of authority. It was a tough choice, in a
tough
                    Bronx neighborhood.

                       She put in long, hard hours. She left the building late afternoons in her Buick 
                   Regal. Once she'd passed through the toll gate at the
Throgs Neck bridge that
                   part of her that made decisions and kept the lid on
things would empty its bin;
                   she'd feel instantly relaxed; she switched on the
car radio.

                      The home on Long Island she considered a place of refuge; she could take off her
                   shoes, pour herself a
drink and begin to unwind. She lived for the weekends,
                   which was when her lover came to
visit. He spent an evening dining with her;
                   sometimes he slept over, leaving
early the following morning. Not much shared
                   time as these things go, but then
she'd schooled herself not to ask too much of
                   him. Besides, one evening, carefully
and graciously arranged, could release an
                   eternity of delights.

                   Who was her lover?

                   Whenever she visited her father in Natick, Massachusetts he put the same
                   question to
her. "So who is this man you've been seeing all these years? How
                   much longer
will you keep seeing him?" Theresa Wamp would say only that he
                   was a wonderful man, wonderful to be with.
"But if he's so wonderful, what's
                   stopping you from marrying him?"
Because, she crooned, she didn't want to get
                   married. Marriage would imperil
what they now enjoyed. "Imperil? What are you
                   talking about? Am I never to be visited by my daughter and my
grandchildren on
                   Thanksgiving?" And Theresa Wamp would kiss him fondly on
the forehead and 
                   point out with a heaving heart that the prospect of a visit "with
grandchildren" 
                   for Thanksgiving dinner was, well, with each passing
year, not sustainable.

                         (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D.Williams, 2001)

 

SURINAM FORESHADOWS, TWO UNTITLED

 

        Jángar dihe dhaste gaile                         You drove yourself but went down  
        ghatate jái bhahrái parle                        under, becoming less and less until you stuck.
        bhárti matti tu, Sarnámi dharte pe,        Clod from India, soil of Surinam
        ekdamme se phab gaile.                         you blended in completely.
        

         Phat ke matti banal darár                      The soil broke into gullies
         bharke bahal ánsu ujhláil                       filled with streams of shedding tears.
         tabbe se thak hai, thak hai                     Since then it's quiet, quite right…
         Sarnám.                                                 is Surinam.   

         Sámne se gujre phut-phut ke bicár,        But close up fragmenting thoughts
         soc men ná phabe, jaise kuch lage…      still wriggle in the soul; something
                                                                      bars the way.     

        
I des men behál, banaile to thikán,         In this land without "how are you?"     
         kahán tohar nám, kahán tohár nisán       you made yourself at home; but

                                                                       where's your name, where's your character?

 

                                             
                                                                               ≈  ≈ 

 

         Tutal itihás ke ek dhákna ká uri!                   
         Tohár muh ke murti ham katne baná sakilá,                           
         bital bát batáwe khát         
         okar jibh to ná dolá sakilá!                            
                                                                            
        
Citá men bacal rákhi ke, hawá ná lage ki i ur jái, 
         bákas men bacal khujjá ke háth ná lage 
         ki i benisán ho jái.
         Sáns men yád talphalá hai, jar káhen i já hai?   
         Itihás sok ke siyáhi men
         kalam socke hos men doláwe hai.         

         Sok ke git se itihás kahán purá hoi.

                                                        How can a clipped-wing broken history                        
                                                        fly on just one wing?                                                

                                                        From your face I can create many faces;
                                                        I cannot loosen your tongue
                                                        to speak of the past.

                                                        Let not the wind scatter ash from the pyre.
                                                        Let not the hand touch the corpse in the grave
                                                        so that it loses all meaning.                                        
                                                        In breathing memories run short of breath;
                                                        why don't they go away?
                                                        
                                                        Deliberately history is dipping the pen
                                                        in the ink of sorrow.
                                                                  
                                                        As if the song of sorrow
                                                        can make history whole again.

                                                                           (from "Poems" © by Jit Narain, Paramaribo 2003)

                                                                                                    [translated from Sarnámi by D. France Olivieira/W.W.]

 

 

 

POEMS FOR VIJINIE BAD GIRL VIRTUAL BEING

 
                                                                                      

                                                                                 "Fu tru a libi faya      /   "Truly, life must be
                                                                          f ' wi masra Gado"  /    tough for the Lord."
                                                                                           ̶  Johanna Schouten-Elsenhout, "Virtue"

                           Vowed they would fix it, the flat tired nation, with memory
                         wound stitched, fiefdom pulp beats. Now fine tempers
                         bruise under their skin pecking orders, timers for youth 
                         oven access; the belt loose No, please! shielding.
                                                                                                No lift tools,

                         stems wait wilt. What foot stool custom helped them up
                         there, coin chests saddled upon you?
                                                                                                                                                         
                         Dot titles sharpening names, blade fall, the old imperial drum

                         role; things that matter less or more  ̶  brace to jump the track
                         rust of grail service. 
                                                      The wage estate's in shambles. Strip 
                         gangs burn cane reeds tender on strike dates. I run
                         with you I clear ash swirling air strips for you.

                         Their frog throats swell, low copy high swallow.
                                                                                                 Here's a path

                         for unexploded shells: spear tip the crab fist pounding
                         up through mud; seize the scuttled shore before the tide plays
                         out and longing dried in the sand holds, in the belly pincers.

                         Through thread veins, breath not ceding, run our conspiracy
                         file  ̶  did the barrels shipped back make it past the organ
                         swellers? inside you tossed on beds of river weeping? 
                                                                                                  Paddle, glide
                         like Amerindian; take for your parting prow this hand,
                         our midnight chart through forest quiet.

                         I sing paint dream you  ̶  You there, stay the course!  ̶  
                         I follow ways you stream, you swat the Admin's crevice fingers.
                         I wait with ointments, with oxygen tent, Enter keys.
                         On heart shelves, our expectations lined up,
                                                                                                    I reach
                         and dust spines of raptures chiming; not a grain slips by, 
                         Oh those glassed hours.
                                                                                -W.W.

                      

 

 

 

                         ATTRACTING A BRIGHT ANGEL

                 
                                                                     with the hint
                        of a horn to a quiet song, I know
                        you at once, your body all wings of light
                        lifted by its own music's waves of sure
                        breathing, yet hovering
                        between magnets of recognition and routine,
                        desire and duty, ah-yes! and oh-well,
                        your smile a mask of baffled power,
                        of your admission of now-or-never,
                        a chance you first deny through the exit
                        to never, before turning back to charge
                        our one heart's battery, your eyes' light over-
                        flowing its chalice towards my hunger
                        to be graced by the wingtips of your breath.                   

                          (from "The Gift Of Screws" by Brian Chan)

 

 

 

 

 

NY SLIDE 7.7: SPECIAL NEEDS, SPECIAL BOND

 

 

                   One morning a student announced that Xavier had been in a fight: he cut a boy
                   with a box cutter, they took him to Lincoln Hospital; they gave him ten
                   stitches to close the wound.
Her heart scorched, Judy turned away, her
face
                   cringing in disbelief.

                        This could not be true. First of all the girl telling the story, Shanequa 
                   
Washington,was pregnant, and had this habit of crooning to herself and rubbing
                   her
stomach. When she wasn't doing this she was recounting frightening
                   incidents of
life and near death on her block. The girl wanted attention, plain
                   and simple.
Sitting there relaying wild stories, and eating vanilla wafers as if
                   they were candy
 ̶̶  how could anyone take her seriously?

                        When eventually Xavier returned to class Judy Weiner searched his face for
                   clues to the incident, for signs of remorse or triumph  ̶̶  anything!
 She walked 
                   over to where he sat. "How are you feeling
this morning?" Sensing he was in no
                   mood to talk she went back to her  desk.

                   At least he was here, in the classroom; brooding and solitary, but here  ̶  not
                   out in the hallway running wild in a pack. As for
all the talk of violent behavior,
                   Xavier was too smart for that.

                        Two weeks after the alleged face-slashing incident Xavier disappeared. His
                   guidance counselor sent his teachers a note informing them
he'd been arrested
                   on an undisclosed charge; he would be out for an
undisclosed period. Judy
                   Weiner wanted to know the circumstances. The counselor
offered few details.

                        The day he returned  ̶  wearing his black or gray clothes and bright sneakers  ̶  
                    it was as if he'd taken a short vacation. He
walked up to her desk and handed
                    her papers from the courthouse; no need for
further explanation. Then he
                    went to his desk and put his hooded head down in a
way that said, Leave me
                    alone
.

                    She glanced at the court papers, then pushed them away. She was relieved and
                    happy he was back. She had no wish to probe the circumstances
of his arrest.
                    He'd probably had enough of questioning. The important thing now
was to get
                    him back on task.

                   "New software came in while you were away, "
she said.  He didn't answer.

                         At moments like this when he sat all coiled up, hard as granite, she felt
                    helpless, unable to do anything for him; and afraid she'd set
off some sim-
                    mering outburst. She couldn't bear to see him like this, all folded i
n, shut away
                    under his hood. She stared at him and waited. He didn't look
fatigued or           
                    ashamed about something. She busied herself with paperwork of her own.

                         What was behind this behavior? Surely it made more sense to open up, talk 
                    about what bothered
him. All he had to say was, Okay, things got a little
                    messed up back there, but I'm ready to move on
. That would be
sufficient. 
                    She'd be willing to accept that; she' was ready to move on.

                         She made one last attempt. "Xavier are you alright…ready for work today?"
                    Anticipating the same stony silence,
she looked away.

                         His shoulders lifted a little; slowly his face came up, his eyes still shut; his
                    hands peeled the hood from his head; and she was stunned.
He had shaven his
                    hair off. His head was now one shiny skull.

                          Words leaping from her heart got stuck in her throat. She walked over to
                     where he sat; he was stretching his arms in an exaggerated
gesture of shaking
                     off the vines and weeds that had trapped him down there. Her
eyes could not
                     leave his skull.

                         "What happened to your hair?" she rubbed his head, mouth open in playful
                     innocence and surprise.  Never in her teaching life had she felt so
close to a
                     student.

                     She could hardly imagine his young man's body; it was always covered in
                     trendy clothes, somewhat rough-textured and gloomy, as if his young
manhood
                     disdained light materials and colours. But here, now, he had bared a
part of
                     himself to her  ̶  his skull, with its lacquered glow, something
she wasn't
                     supposed to see, much less touch; like some kind of atonement he'd chosen
to
                     make for his mistakes.

                          So he was ready to make amends; he was ready to move on; only she hadn't
                     thought he'd do it this way, shaving his
head, saying to the world, I'm starting
                     over.

                          But now her attention was making him self-conscious. He moved his head,
                     leaning away from her.
 

                    "You play any instrument, Miss Weiner?" His eyes looked dull, the question 
                     seemed to pop out of nowhere.

                    "Do I what?" What was he talking about?

                         "You know, like the piano or something?"

                          "I'd always wanted to play the harp, but no, I don't play anything…".

                          "The harp… what's that?"

                            She moved back to her desk. She had no idea where he was taking her with
                      this new interest; there was no mockery in his voice.

                           "You know, it's got strings, and it's like a giant bow, and you sit and pluck at
                      the strings."

                           "Oh, I know what you talking about." He laughed his young man's savvy laugh. "I
                      could see you playing something like
that."

                            "Why, thank you, Xavier."

                            Some days these Special Ed. kids took a lot out of you, left you a shell of your
                       self at the end of the week, your nerves in tatters. Deep
in her bowels that
                       morning she felt she'd got something back from Xavier to
restore her. What-
                       ever the world might think, Xavier was pure of heart;
wild-spirited and
                       careless with his life, but pure of heart. She was bound to
him, bound to his
                       anger and suffering.

                                          (from "Ah Mikhail, O Fidel!", a novel by N.D. Williams, 2001)

 

 

 

DIVERGENT FATES: IKAEL TAFARI

 When he entered the University of the West Indies (Mona, Jamaica) in
September
1968, his name was Michael Hutchinson; from a privileged white
family, a former
student of Harrison College, Barbados, one of the island’s elite
high schools. When he returned nine years later to his
island home he had
changed. He was Ras Ikael Tafari, lush beard wearer of his
new faith; and fierce
believer in the prophetic eminence of Haile Selassie I.

He would join the faculty of Social Sciences UWI (Cave Hill, Barbados) as
lecturer. From his campus base he would become active in Pan African affairs,
joining the Pan African Commission in 1997. In 2004 he was appointed its
director. He died in May 2008.

Had he chosen a different island campus (say, St Augustine, Trinidad) or Faculty
Medicine) he might have been sufficiently insulated from events and tempta-
tions during the Walter Rodney street
upheavals in ‘68. So volcanic was that
event it would take many years for the fallout
of cultural values and
assumptions to resettle.

 A rearrangement of social boundaries between blacks, browns and 
whites was in full swing in the island in the early 70s.  Many
students,
carrying the heaviness of parental expectations, elected
to rise above the
turmoil. They stayed focused on tertiary aspirations,
arguing, This is not
my island; no need to get involved. It seemed a
rational, commensense approach. It was adopted by, for instance,
many Indians from Trinidad, many blacks from the Bahamas.                                                                                        

Ikael’s immersion in the Nyabinghi faith  ̶  or how he became
“radicalized”  ̶ 
was gradual. The first signs of inner transformation
were the changes in
his features: from a clean-face innocence to
facial hairness and marijuana’d
eyes; his general appearance
roughened-up as if to blur his distinctive island origins.

His language and modes of communing slowly altered. The tools of academic
discourse were put aside or interspersed with the messianic I-Words
of Rasta
I-Manity. At times a self-conscious smile played on his face seeming
to question
what he was doing; how he was entering himself, seizing the moment on the
island.

                                                                ≈  ≈       

” My whole life changed…when I went to Jamaica,” he would say later. In many
ways those w
ere extraordinary post-Walter Rodney days. Youth culture had
been at the
forefront of rebellious activity in European capitals (Paris in ’68).
Some of that youth optimism carried
over to the 70s in Jamaica where praises to
de youth dem’
formed part of an ascendant reggae romanticism.

At the same time a unique confluence of brilliant teachers, students, pioneers
in thought and creativity had emerged in Kingston; young men and
women in
the prime of their intellectual & creative life: among them Vaughn
Lewis,
Kamau Brathwaite, Rex Nettleford (professors); Owen Arthur, Bruce
Golding,
Ralph Gonsalves (students) Bob Marley, U Roy, Count Ossie (music
pioneers).

With minds & talents functioning at their highest capacity, the campus was
bright with ideas for changing the course of Caribbean history and politics. Few
were aware of the
roles and destinies they would later be asked to fill.

Among his friends Ikael encouraged a kind of introspective “reasoning”, a variant
of Walter Rodney’s “groundings” with the underclass.
They were in effect inter-
personal (I & I) “conversations”; confessional at the
beginning, speculative
often; filled with disruptive insight and hypothesis.

Listening. you sensed his anxiety about his blue-eyed identity, the “sins” of his
privileged upbringing. He worried, too, about his
postgraduate role in an
intellectually unaccommodating region – how would he fit
back in? Jamaica
offered a laboratory for experiment and redefinition.  After Rodney, “conscious”
students pursued the w
ayward possibilities for (self) discovery by venturing
outside, into the wards
and valleys of Kingston.

His conversations gave early indications of what he would later become: the
good shepherd of the Nyabinghi, its philosopher-scribe. Not
just giving
intellectual validation to the faith, or working in an advocacy
role (as trade
union rep, or academic housekeeper). He believed the Ras had the
power to
transform & rebuild the region’s human resources after the
depredations of
plantation. “Rastafari is the most important consciousness to have arisen in the
20thcentury.”
he’d said. The House of Nyabinghi would be his psychic fortress.

Tiny ironies caught our student attention. Though the island “masses” listened
to the proactive message in Bob Marley’s Get up, Stand up, and wept when
they
remembered Zion, their hearts  ̶  believing deliverance would come from
above, not from abroad  ̶  felt comforted singing
along to the frustration and
hope in Max Romeo’s Let the Power Fall on I.  

Our minds turned often to issues of island sexuality. How to explain the nexus of
the unreflecting, carnal male, the luscious women, batty bwoy repugnance?
There were readily
available theories linking behaviours to ‘persistent poverty’,
ignorance, unemployable
rude energies, the groiny power of the powerless; or
the island’s peculiar legacy
from the plantation, its testosterone blessing
and curse.

Whatever the cause, Ikael was confident self-destructive practices and norms
could be changed, communities rehabilitated; change would begin when
islanders looked
to Africa and embraced the transforming values and majesty of
the Ras.

                                                          ≈  ≈       

 In 2003 there was news he had launched a book, Rastafari in Transition: Politics
of Cultural Confrontation in Africa and the Caribbean (1966-1988) Volume 1.
He talked
about the unfinished nature of “my work”; the dry interest shown by
an
old-thinking UWI academy. He issued apocalyptic warnings: “We are in the
last hour of time. Look at Daniel 1, read from verse 36.”

Then came his appointment in 2004 as Director of the Commission for Pan
African Affairs  ̶  “I have waited a long time in my life for the opportunity to
make this contribution.”  ̶ 
and the trust placed in him by the Barbados Govt.
The appoint
ment was met with disquiet even in Rastafarian circles. Angry
messages ques
tioned whether a white Barbadian face was “truly representative”
of Pan
African affairs in Barbados. (In 2008 it was reported he’d been “fired”
from the position.)

Ikael spoke of death back then with the coolness of indestructible youth, as if the
lining of his lion heart would ward off the
encroachment of mundane infections.
(Statins and cholesterol were not yet a
conspicuous part of the vocabulary of
physical wellbeing.) Belief in the power
of Jah, in the moral universe of the Ras
would form a natural mystic firewall, unbreachable
by the diseases of Babylon.

It is tempting to consider his state of mind in his last hour on earth. From all
accounts he had gone to Trinidad to deliver a lecture on
African Liberation. At
some point he complained of feeling unwell and returned
to his hotel. He was
found unconscious in his room, and pronounced dead at
the hospital (apparently
of heart attack.)  It is difficult, then, to imagine the
conversation with himself as
he waited for that gathered cardiac storm to pass;
as he slipped from “conscious-
ness” into that silent zone (or Zion) of the hereafter.

He was an extraordinary individual in a time of extraordinary events. He dared as
student to leap into realities outside theory
& textbook, mastering the
knowledge he found there. He seemed determined to
redirect the narrative of
his life, to construct a new persona fusing elements from
the African continent
and his disassembled island psyche.

Those who joined his conversations will remember the way he showed up after
days of island trod, looking loose, street-weathered, the blue eyes
ablaze with
new I-World “visions”; his metamorphosis in fevered progress. Sceptical
as some
of us remained, the conversations helped adjust our thinking about the
world.
His evolving faith-based sureness of self threw light on roads not taken,
the
labours of One Love gone now.

It was good and pleasant to know him. In those seminal student years he was Lion
of the void. Yes, I.

(A version of this post appeared elsewhere in 2008)

ISLANDS LEFT LOVED FUTURES FEARED

 

                                                              
                                                                                            
                                                                                  "…age vexes age..."  

                                                                   ̶  Walt Whitman, "Song of Myself"                                    

                  

                       They want you on stage, old school vine, brick role 
                     till dust; comrade with angina in the village square, dying 
                     for a champion's green mansion; to smile again, crowd
                     pleased, as the motorcade (Havana pipe fitters) horns past. 
                                                           They'd like you to serve, lithe wine girl,
                     scented for taste  ̶  egret at standby; entry positions cheeks assume
                     on carpets; for murder hiring hands, quality assurance.
                    
                     Sunscreen Times, you want bacchanal? 

                                                                                  Contractor claws gouge hill
                     face, Solar Control stations coming. That sewage welling up in back
                     yard pits? tip of oil lakes underground  ̶̶  bet!  ̶  bubbles to take
                     breath away. While seine pullers sort pleading catch, bass licks
                     and dhantals jerk knees. With no slide rules, fellas consider guns
                     smoking  ̶  Excuse me, where the fire hosing dragons?

                     Up escalators tripped ashore the other day courtesy of fat
                     pay rollers in Chinese deck chairs making valued customers
                     of every bowlegged tree climber whose splayed toes scratch 
                     fear at the foot of the stair; our first shopping mall floors
                     gleaming door man screaming, You can't come in here
                     like that.
                          

                     The sun's melting pace quickens Day-O! Transport touts squeeze
                     in more wet prunes or, stripped to the waist, pole stroke pink
                     face rafters with pony tails; tulips for hard dough. In bamboo
                     halls the forest children sing till hearts burst strumming all 
                     that's metered in us. And now, ready to order, the dead
                     who weave our north south hammocks signal.

                     Faith and I used to park by the airport, hug; wait, watch  
                     the evening flight take off. The up roar of the beast head
                     lift of skirt sky boosters boarding the body; the spending
                     spree on runway thighs  ̶  Haya! Vaya! Sapodilla  ̶
                     our crack, our thunder.
                                                      And so much sun! how alien, much less
                     shut cold, could home fires possibly feel out there? Green
                     light, two one  ̶  away, you!  
                                                               > limbs great wide, wind tango.

                                                                                            - W.W.

 

                

                         

 

 

         

                                 PATH

 
                              The higher you rise, the more
                             sheer the air, the more calls
                                the sand swearing its
                           sliding is surer than your
                             need to become the sky
                                 of your first calling
                           beyond settling for Earth's core's
                              pull or for her grasses'
                                  siren songs of Springs
                           whose purpose is to propose
                               their passing promises
                                  the final real thing.

                               But how sure of this other
                               first call are you?   What is
                                 it? This becoming;
                            this summing-up surrender
                              of name and clock and clothes,
                                though they keep clinging
                            to your bones even after
                              bones exchange their loud tilt
                                  for the balanced nude
                            spine of silence.   It is here
                               time's thorns rise to the rose
                                  of breath's timeless song.

            
                           (from "Within The Wind" © by Brian Chan)